i was so happy when i saw you walking with jungkook to join us tonight.

i'm also happy that you agreed to live in seokjin's apartment with namjoon,

instead of being homeless like you planned on originally.

you looked so surprised as hoseok handed out the alcohol,

and as we all jumped over the fence of that private property to have fun together.

you were so confused when you asked me why 'good guys' like us did this kind of thing.

"inside -even if we are portrayed as good guys- we're all just fucking messes stuck in between death and hell."

and on that night,

marked the day you started looking at me in a new and different way.