i'm a fucking piece of shit.

what's happening to me?

why am i treating my own mother like this?

but most of all,

why don't i feel bad?

why can't i feel the guilt or shame?

why didn't the tears racing down her cheeks make me sympathetic?

why am i just numb after saying something that hurtful to someone?

i'm scared yoongi.

lately all i either feel is suffocating depression or just nothing.

and i'm scared,

because i don't want to be like that.

i used to be so happy,

so energized.

now,

i don't even want to get up in the morning.

i don't even want to breathe anymore,

and that scares me yoongi.