At that time.. I want to kill myself. Shot mah head 10x with a shotgun. Everytime I remember those very tragic moment.. It slowly taking back all the guilt, the nightmare, and the pain that cause me loneliness to death..

depression..

frustrations..

regrets..

anger..

Sadness..

"Hey Zia, why did you love me on the first place ?"

"Justine.. explaining why you are special to me is like dividing any number by Zero.. It's completely undefined justine.."

Her words are the only weightless thing in this world that could actually make me feel so heavy..

I never thought this will hurt that much, by not having you here.. with me..

Tonight I'm falling down..

Can somebody pick me up ?

Can that somebody.. be you Zia ?

I need you..

Please come back..

Each night was a nightmare without you..

I already missed you..

I looked up again in the sky..

Finding stars at a rainy night,,

Stars, can you bring back Zia to me ?

Please ?

I know this stars owns Zia..

Now..

later..

and..

Tonight..

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12-29-12