Chapter 13: Forgiveness, Can You Imagine?

John

Saturday morning was not the best morning. I woke up around 9:00 AM with a pounding headache from a hangover.

Alexander was still asleep in his own room. It felt so unnatural to not feel his small body pressed against mine.

After having some coffee, o got dressed in a sweater and jeans and headed out. I honestly had no clue where to go.

FeminismCalled📞: Hey, I heard what happened. I'm rlly sorry John.

🐢🐢🐢: It's fine ig

FeminismCalled📞: Eliza Peggy Maria and I are going out today. Wanna go?

🐢🐢🐢: Yeah sure.

FeminismCalled📞: K come to Eliza's dorm

🐢🐢🐢: Why didn't u call it ur dorm???

FeminismCalled📞: Oh yeah. Forgot to tell you, I moved in with Thomas.

🐢🐢🐢: oof 😬

I knocked on Eliza's door and Peggy answered. "Hey John!" she said and hugged me. I hugged her back.

Maria walked up to the door. "Hey Gay turtle."

I rolled my eyes at the name and entered the room.

Angelica was sitting on the couch. Peggy and Maria sat in some dining room chairs and I sat down in an arm chair.

Angelica placed a hand on her stomach and smiled at her phone. "Thomas is so sweet."

"How tho?" I said.

"Because, he just is," Angelica said sarcastically and stuck her tongue out at me.

I did the same and look at my phone that had just gone off.

MyHeadache🤕😍😘❤️: John where are you?

MyHeadache🤕😍😘❤️: John Plz answer

MyHeadache🤕😍😘❤️: John I'm rlly sorry about last night at that party. I love you

MyHeadache🤕😍😘❤️: I know Sorry doesn't cut it. I know I don't deserve you, John. But hear me out, that would be enough. I would never do anything to hurt you. I fucked up last night. I shouldn't have left you and gone off with Seabury. And I don't deserve to be forgiven. I love you so much I rlly do.

I ignored the messages and looked down at the floor in disgust and sadness. I love Alex more than anything in this life. But he really hurt me. What if that kiss could have led to more?

"Ready to go?" Eliza asked as she came out of her room, carrying her little purse.

I got up off the couch and shoved my phone in my back pocket.

2 hours later, we finally got back to the dorms. I've gotta remind myself to never go shopping with them ever again.

I arrived at my dorm and turned the key in the lock. When I opened the door my breath was taken away. There were some rose petals on the floor leading to the counter.

I set everything down on the counter and read the note that was left.

John,
You probably won't see me when you get back home. I had a meeting with Mr. Washington (class stuff). I love you.

~Alex

The rose petals weren't needed for this, Alex.

I sighed and laid down on the couch. Maybe I should forgive him.

About 5 minutes later, the door opened and Alex came in, carrying his laptop and charger.

I jumped up off the couch and made my way over to him.

He put his laptop on a table beside the couch and stood in front of me.

"John, I am so sorry. I love you so much."

I shook my head and pulled him into a hug. "I forgive you Alex. Just, please don't let it happen again."

He smiled and pecked me on the lips. "It won't, I promise."

5/19/18