Request from Tumblr(a very long time ago oops..) "Can u do #30( "Did you ever love me?") from the angst dialogue list thing for Haz or Peter plz 🙏 ps luv ur work"

Y/n thankfully got off work early, so she decided to do a little shopping for groceries and some.. selective clothing for the night to come. Recently, y/n has been buried in her textbooks, studying for difficult classes and her boss has been giving her the worst attitude ever. So, saying she was distracted was an understatement, With that being said, she rarely ever had time for her lovely boyfriend Harrison Osterfield. So to make up for it, y/n was going to give him the best night of his life.

Carefully, she set the bags down in the kitchen then made her way to the bedroom to change into the black lingerie, just in case Harrison also came home early, As she scanned her body in the mirror, she smiled and thought to herself, 'tonight will be amazing.' That is, until she heard the door open. Now the first part of her plan was ruined - she wasn't even able to start cooking and look sexy while doing it. "Look I.. I don't know" Harrison voice wavered. 'He must be on the phone with someo-'
"Hey, c'mon, Harrison it's not like she's even home...besides, no one can fuck you like me." A seductive female's voice made y/n's eyes widen and scurry into their shared walk in closet in panic.

"Listen, Britney I think..." Britney cut him off by pushing her lips onto his, and as if he was in a trance, he pulled her closer. 'Strawberry' he thought, imagining that the lips he was kissing were y/n's- the woman of his dreams. "Let's take this to the bedroom, yeah?" Britney smiled seductively as she pulled him towards the room that he and y/n share every night. He felt bad. Hell, he felt horrible, but he's been so, so desperate lately.
He had seen Britney at the bar he was sat in, thinking of ways he could help y/n de-stress, until he thought he did see her, when in reality he had seen Britney. He only noticed it wasn't her when she talked. To be fair, the bar was dark (stupid lights) and before he could get himself out of the situation, she convinced him to take her home. He tried to tell her that he had a girlfriend, to which she just rolled her eyes and kissed him again. And now he's here.
He feels dirty and stupid as he attentively watches Britney strip for him. She smirked as his eyes traveled down her body, thinking his thoughts were on her. 'y/n's is better,' he thought to himself as Britney straddled him.
"You gonna-" she was cut off by the sound of movement coming from the closet. Britney flew off of his lap screaming "what the fuck!"
Harrison carefully opened the door to see y/n standing there with tears in her eyes, her bottom lip trembling.
"y/n.." he tried to touch her arm but she quickly pulled away and looked behind him.
She wanted to scream. She wanted to pull both her own hair and Britney's hair out; then her eyes landed back to Harrison who was scanning her body.
'That's perfection' he thought.
"I..." y/n turned and picked up a sweatshirt from the ground to cover how exposed she felt she was.
"I'll just leave you two" Britney said, rolling her eyes as she picked up her clothes and stormed out.
Harrison's eyes widened when the situation finally registered in his mind.
"y/n... i can explain-" she shook her head
"Save it." she walked past him and pulled out a luggage bag from underneath the bed
"y/n, c'mon I...." she turned to face him, his eyes were watering up "No, Harrison what the actual fuck! You don't..." she gulped. "You don't fucking.. I know I haven't been paying much attention to you with school and work but I... you brought a fucking girl home! To our home" she sobbed, sitting on the bed burying her face in her hands. He wanted to comfort her and to hold her and to make her feel better, but the whole reason why she's upset was because of him.
"Tonight was.. it was supposed to be me and you, and... I was gonna cook us dinner, and then we would..." she looked at him with a frown. "Tonight we were supposed to.." she shook her head, deciding not to finish her sentence and instead, pull the luggage bag to the closet.
"y/n... y/n stop packing please.." he was now a mess, his vision blurry thanks to all the tears "please stop, we can make this better, I ca-can make this better, I'll be better! Fuck, I... Fuck, y/n, I love you!" Her movements of throwing clothes in the bag stopped abruptly.
"Did you ever love me, Haz?" She asked, her voice steady with no emotion "Because, if you did. You wouldn't have brought her here." Venom courses through her words. He bent down to his knees and pulling her hand into his.
"I love you. I do! I love you so much, please, I made a mistake, y/n..." she shook her head, pulling away from his grasp.
"Taking someone home while you have a girlfriend isn't a mistake, Harrison. And you know that! You also know why I can't forgive you for this." His whole body shakes. He knows that y/n hates cheaters- hell everyone did, but y/n hated them on a personal level; she thought she had met to love of her life but he cheated on her - he made it hard for her to let anyone one in, until she met Harrison, who as of right now is doing the exact same thing.
"Please.. y/n give me one more chance, I promise.." she shook her head.
"I can't, Harrison. I just can't. I'll, uh... I'll be staying at Tom's for the night, then I'll be back in the morning for my stuff." she stood and cleaned off her knees.
"Y/n..y/n.." is all that Harrison can choke out while he follows her like a lost puppy.
"Please stop, Harrison... You're just making this harder for both of us." He sobbed loudly
"I... I understand." And he did - he knew that she's hurt by his reckless actions.
"Can..can I at least have one last kiss?" she stepped towards him and reached up to cup his cheek...
"I'm sorry." she pulled away before she could make the mistake of giving him what he wants. "I... I can't, not after... after I saw her all over you. I... I'm sorry." she ran out the door. It takes Harrison a while to catch up, and she's already in her car driving out when he finally gets outside.
"y/n!" He cries over and over again, running after the car the best he could. When the car had outrun him by a mile, he falls to his knees and sobs into his hands, internally yelling at himself for being so stupid.

When he gets back to the apartment, he feels his whole body become numb. He decides to look for beer, wine, any alcohol to numb the inside and the ache of his heart. He looks through the bags y/n had brought in. Inside, he finds a box of condoms, among other things. A deeper frown comes upon his face, only lighting up lightly when his hand touches the neck of a wine bottle. When that's finished, he decides to go on a walk to either the bar or liquor store. Right when he steps foot into their shared apartment after his walk, his phone buzzes wildly in his pocket. Without thinking, he pulls it out.
"y/n?! Babe, I-"
"Its Tom, Haz.." Tom sighs loudly. "Thanks man, I feel the love." Harrison flinches at the "L word".
"But.. y/n's crashing on my couch tonight, care to explain why she was such a mess when she got here? Fuck, man, I haven't seen her like this since Ky-..." The line falls quite until the sound of the door shutting breaks it.
"You fucking bastard!" Tom yells at him. "Tell me I'm wrong, Harrison!" Both ends are silent until Tom smacks something, hard.
"Harrison, you better tell me you didn't or I'll..." Harrison sobs like a child being yelled at.
"I didn't..."
"You didn't?" Tom sighs in relief.

"N...no I... I didn't mean to, I just-" a loud thud comes from Tom's end.
"Harrison! Goddammit!" Tom throws his head back in frustration, pinching the bridge of his nose. "How could.. what the hell happened, Harrison?"
Harrison poured more wine down his throat.
"I'm a fucking idiot, Tom." Tom rolls his eyes.
"You are, Harrison, even more of an idiot because I know you're drinking yourself into oblivion right now!" Tom cringes when he sees part of the wall crumbling where his fist met it.
"She won't take me back," Harrison slurs quietly. "And that makes sense. And I understand that. But fuck Tom, it hurts. It hurts so fucking bad." Tom licks his lips.
"How drunk are you?" Harrison shrugs, forgetting that Tom wasn't right in front of him.
"Probably super."
Tom peaks his head out of his room to see y/n sleeping peacefully, then shuts the door, sighing to himself.
"You know what else hurt, Harrison?" He hummed on the other end. "The fact that I accidentally set up my best friend and the girl of my dreams... then seeing her like this because said best friend hurt her by doing the one thing she's most afraid of." Harrison frowns again.
"Wait..Tom, do you mean.." A bitter laugh comes from Tom. "I'm in love with her, Harrison, but once I saw the two of you showing interest in each other, I backed off. I thought that if I did, you two would be together til the end and..well shit man, I..." Harrison now feels guilty for two things.
"Mate, I'm sorry.. I... I didn't know, I..." There's silence from both ends once more. "Um... do you...I..." Harrison groans. "I know she's not an object but... but when she's ready, you... you take her, yeah? I mean, she... I could tell that when I first met her, she liked you, a lot, and, I think she still does," Tom shakes his head.
"She fell asleep crying because of you."
"And she went to you right after, Tom. I think... I think she... she loves the both of us, and only said yes to me because I was the first to ask." Harrison licks his now dry lips.
"Do you love her, Harrison?" he nods with no hesitation.
"Yes. God, yes, Tom, I love her so much, that's why i'm not going to stand in your guys' way. You both deserve to be happy, and I screwed that up for both of you. I'll... I'll step back, yeah." Tom stands up from where he was sat on the bed.
"Harrison.."
"Just until..-"
"No, for fuck's sake, Harrison, you're my best friend and you have been for years! You can't just walk away like that!" Harrison sobs some more.
"But I... I hurt you, and y/n."
"You didn't know I loved... well, love her Harrison, you didn't hurt me on purpose. And y/n, she'll.. She'll forgive you in time. But not enough to take you back, Haz. You've been a big part in both our lives, you can't just up and leave" again, more silence
"How can you just... just keep being friends with me after what I did to both of you?"
"Because you didn't know, and you're owning up to your mistakes," Tom sighs. "Just..stay in touch, okay, I need you... we need you."

*6 years later*

"Zendaya, the first to marry from the gang" Tom smiles, kissing y/n's head. "I know. Jacob and Tony both bet it would be the two of us before we even started dating." He nods.
"Speaking of... I know it's Z's big day and all, but I just..." Tom sighs then gets down on one knee, pulling out a black velvet ring box, biting his lip when he realizes it opens the other way. When he turns it to face her, he takes a breath.
"y/f/n y/l/n, I know we've been friends since.. .forever now, and that we've been through... a lot even before we started dating, and I know that you still think dearly of Harrison after it all, so I... I asked both him and your dad before I asked you this, and we all really hope you say yes, not only because Zendaya's standing behind you - I guess my extra 5 minutes with the maid of honour ran up - uhm.. y/n, will you marry me?" y/n's jaw drops and a smile grew as she nods.
"Yes! Yes, Tom!" he smiles wildly and picks her up, giving her a twirl and pecking her lips lightly, then placing the ring to her finger.
"I love you, Tom."
"I love you, too, darling."
"Great, we all love each other. C'mon now, it's time for me to meet the love of my life at the end of the aisle."

Zendaya's party isn't super big, but there are many unfamiliar faces there.
"Do you have to sit away from me?" Tom frowns.
"Don't worry, Tommy, it's only or dinner. You can survive a few minutes without me." she pecks his pouty lips.
"Fine... meet me at the open bar later, yeah?" Chuckling, she nods, heading over to the designated "big part of the wedding". After many glances at each other as the food was being given out and while they ate, Tom and y/n finally meet at the bar.
"Hey stranger," she greets Tom with a light nudge.
"Hey beautiful" he smirks, wrapping an arm around her whilst kissing the top of her head. He looks around and his eyes land on Harrison.
"Hey, you order us something yeah? I'm just gonna go talk to Jacob." y/n nods before kissing his cheek as he left.
"This seat taken?" a shaky voice asked from her side. y/n knows that voice, but she hasn't heard it in almost 6 years.
"H-Harrison?" He licks his lips.
"So... I see you said yes when Tom popped the question?" y/n looks up at him.
"Uh..yeah. He... he asked before the ceremony." Harrison nods.
"Well that's... that's great. I'm happy for you guys." y/n smiles.
"Hey, Haz, I just, in a way, I'm grateful you broke my heart." He can feel the tears brimming in his eyes.
"How, uh, how are you now, though?" the bartender sets down her drink, as quietly as possible.
"Thank you." she mumbles, as she took a sip. "I'm uh... well, Tom's still helping me pick up pieces of my heart, but I'm okay." Harrison nods.
"Good. That's... that's good. I just want to say I'm sorry, again." She places her hand on top of his. "You better be apologizing for completely leaving me, Harrison, because I told you the last time I saw you months after our break up that I'd forgiven you enough to be friends again." He sighs as he slowly pulls his hand away.
"y/n, can we talk outside, just to..to have some privacy? And so we don't be party poopers?" She glances towards Tom across the room, then nodded to Harrison. "Let's go."

Once outside, the two sit on a bench in silence, until y/n turns her body to look at him.
"You could have told me why you left, Haz."
"Isn't it obvious?!" his voice raises before he looks down at his feet. "Sorry. I... hell, y/n, I left because it was so hard watching you fall deeper into love with Tom." y/n frowns.
"But you still kept in contact with Tom. I just felt like, like I did something and you realized that you... you didn't even care for me. I tried to call you, over and over again when I noticed you acting weirder whenever we all hung out and you never picked up..." Tears were blurring her vision.
"I'm sorry. 'm so sorry... I just... I fucked up in so many ways already and I just... I thought that by disappearing slowly no one would really notice and I wouldn't cause any more trouble." y/n shivers from the cold. Without even thinking, he takes off his blazer and wraps it around her shoulders.
"Leaving us... leaving me... that felt worse than when you cheated on me, Harrison." he closes his eyes, letting the tears cascade down his cheeks.
"I never meant to hurt you again, y/n, I'm sorry..." she takes both his hands and holds them in hers.
"Please come back into my life, Haz... I need you. You were my friend before anything else and now everything is just... it's not the same." Harrison flips their hands so now he's holding hers and he carefully brings her knuckles towards his lips, leaving a feather light kiss upon them.
"I'm sorry, y/n... but I can't." Her body shakes as she sobs and throws her arms around him.
"Please, Harrison, please." He wants to stay. God, he wanted to stay so bad, but he can't. He knows he isn't over her yet, and he never will be.
"I'm so sorry y/n... I love you." He carefully pries her arms off himself, and right when he stands up, she doesn't try and pull him back, she just sobs on the bench, watching him walk away as he pulls out his phone.
"Tom, yeah, she's on the bench outside. You should... you should get her back inside, alright? I'll talk to you... whenever. Bye."

I had to upload this like 3 times sorry