Zhehan felt weak, like really weak.

He was exhausted and once they came back to the mansion, he ran straight to the room and took off his coat and all, as he sat on the bed before Simon also came into the room.

"How do you know... Yibo?" Simon asked.

"Shut up." was all Zhehan replied and Simon clenched his fists, "I asked you something Zhehan," he said in a more firm voice.

And Zhehan finally got up but since he stood up abruptly, a sudden wave of headache and nausea hit him but that still stop him from glaring at Simon, "can't you just shut up!"

Simon closed his eyes and did his best to control his anger. It was just a simple question, but Zhehan has to make a mountain out of a molehill.

Why can't he answer just a simple question! How tough it is? it's like Zhehan is deliberately trying to anger him and start an argument.

Simon looked at Zhehan and was about to say something however he saw Zhehan keeping a hand on his forehead he looked in pain and he stumbled back however Simon grabbed him and gently sat down on the bed beside him.

"Zhehan?" Simon called out his name before he kept his hand on Zhehan's forehead and found it burning.

"This guy..." Simon mumbled before he made Zhehan lay on the bed, took off his ties and loosened the buttons of his shirt and undid his belt, and opened the button of his pants.

Before he got up and bought some medicine, Zhehan had eaten food with him so there was no need to feed him.

Simon gently made Zhehan sit as he sat beside Zhehan such that Zhehan's body was leaning against him and Simon placed the medicine in his mouth and helped him drink water.

Zhehan drank the water and swallowed the pill before he laid back on the bed. And Simon grabbed a towel and bought a bowl of water as he sat beside Zhehan and wiped his face, neck, and hands.

Zhehan enjoyed the coldness on his burning skin as it gave him comfort.

And he tried to open his eyes but he couldn't keep them open for long however he did feel Simon's gentle touch and caring stare.

At this moment Zhehan suddenly felt that he was back in time everything was well nothing was wrong, his and Simon's relationship was good as before and there was no misunderstanding or arguments.

It was just him and Simon once again.

Zhehan did not think about anything and just stayed in this moment beside Simon... how good it will be if everything can go back to how it was before, how good that would be if he can forget everything.

Back then Simon used to care about Zhehan just like this Simon never said things he showed his feeling through his actions, taking care of him when he was sick, and bringing his favorite things whenever Simon came to meet him.

Observe Zhehan's surroundings and if Simon noticed that Zhehan needed something Simon would bring it without being asked or told anything if Zhehan was in a problem Simon would know it.

Then how come Simon's this wonderful ability vanished?

Did he do something wrong? was it him?

Is everything his fault?

These self-deprecating thoughts and the pain from fever and a muddled head filled with only nostalgia and pain and misery made Zhehan cry unconsciously.

He was crying in his sleep and he didn't even realize that.

But Simon saw his tears and Zhehan's tears were like cold ice needles stabbing his heart.

Simon grabbed Zhehan's hand and wiped his tears and kissed his forehead, as he whispered sweet words, "It's okay Zhehan... I love you...  I will always love you... I am here... you are not alone."

Zhehan heard these words and he unconsciously opened his mouth to reply as well, "but you... weren't there... when I needed you..."

Simon heard these words and he thought that Zhehan was talking about the time when Simon had left to take care of business abruptly without telling Zhehan and Zhehna must have felt lonely.

However, Simon only looked at him and said, "But... I reached out to you Zhehan you were the one who refused to take my hand."

Back then Simon's company had nearly gone bankrupt and William was abroad, he wasn't able to handle the stress and pressure and it took a toll on his health so he had collapsed and when Simon heard this news he had immediately booked two tickets for himself and Zhehan on the same day however Zhehan did not answer his call or messages.

Simon got angry, so angry that he tore Zhehan's ticket and left him alone, and even told everyone that there was no need to tell Zhehan anything and let him be wherever he was.

Simon had felt betrayed so that same day he left without Zhehan and after that didn't contact him for six months and neither answered his calls because he thought that Zhehan was so busy with his life and other things that he barely had any time for Simon when he needed him.

And Simon didn't want to be distracted by thinking about Zhehan because he knew that he would only feel angry at Zhehan and might get into a huge fight with him.

And after six months when his business was back on track and his father's health was improving, Simon finally decided to call Zhehan.

But Zhehan never replied to his calls and messaged and Simon thought that Zhehan must be angry... so he decided to go and surprise Zhehan however he was the one who got surprised.

While everything was back on track his marriage was ruined.

While Simon thought all this he looked at Zhehan with wet eyes, what went wrong?

Was it him?

Was it his fault?

Was he not enough?

Did Simon really did a mistake?

If he did then he was ready to correct it he was ready to do everything in his power to get his Zhehan back. Even if it mean using force in any method no matter good or bad Simon was ready to use it, any remedy no matter good or bad Simon was ready to take it if it meant he can have the love of his life back.

Simon looked at the man in his arms who was sleeping and gently kissed his lips gently before hugging, "Come back to me... please."

Author's note: phew... my god these four people are going to give me a headache