I was staring at the ring he gave me last month.

How did everything come to this. I tried my best to give him everything and stayed when everyone left him.

Now that he has everything, he would forget about me just like that.

Maybe, he didn't really love me. Maybe he was just scared to be lonely.

I drag my luggages towards the door, it was a nice place but i dont feel like i belong here.

Trying my best to stop the tears from falling. He is not worth it, i can find someone else.

It was great from the very start, he showed me so much love. Sometimes i even wonder it all of it was real or just for show.

I didnt expect that it will end like this. He fell out of love from me.

Kisaki barely go home and spend the night with me this past few months, he doesnt even bother to call me. Why did he change so sudden, i wanst ready for this.

Maybe he finds me boring and plain, he probably found someone else.

Knowing kisaki, he was a very smart person, he needs thrill and he was always busy with his work but he was never like this. I don't think ive done something wrong. He lose interests in me and decided to dump me?.

I called hanma to ask him about kisaki because everytime i was trying to ring his phone who would turn it off or ignore it.

Hanma Shuji was a close friend of Kisaki, i knew him since we are in high school.

According to Hanma he was currently busy this past few months thats why he hasn't been able to spend time with me.

I dont believe him, he's a good liar. Just like his friend.

I carried my luggages to my car and came back to the condominium Kisaki bought for me.

I carried the remaining items together with my phone.

I shut the door close and signed. I've been staying here for 2 years now. Kisaki and i had a lot of great memories here.

I remember those times where he was busy solving some equations on the kitchen table. I really admire how smart he is, it's sexy.

I would hug him from the back and he would hum then turn around to face me, placing a kiss on my forehead before going back to what he was doing earlier.

Our life was quiet and i feel  contented when im with him.

If he was the only person in the world with me. I wouldn't complain.

I sat on the drivers sit and started to drive.

I didn't tell anyone where or what i was planning to do.  I didnt even have a proper break up with Kisaki.

But i think this is the best way to end things.

He left me there hanging and ghosted me for months.

I can no longer stay and wait for him to came back whenever he wants to.

I decided to leave outside Shibuya, the more isolated the place is, the better.

I dont want him to find me anymore. Also, i left the ring he gave me in the condominium.

He didnt even look for me after all this time.

Its been 2 months since i left Shibuya. Now, i work in a town municipal as treasurer and i met a lot of new people to hang out with.

Im starting to get over kisaki and preparing to welcome a new partner in my life.

I still couldn't believe that we ended things like that.

i am not that important for him afterall.

Compared to his gang and Mikey, i was a nobody.

I planned to end it completely by breaking my phone to celebrate the day i was free from heart ache.

I smashed it with hammer while drinking a glass of tequila. Damn, that feel so good.

I was planning to date someone again and start over.

After a year, i started to date a person that lives in the same neighbourhood. He was the Mayor's only son.

I was on my way to buy groceries with him, he would sing while driving his car and i find it very cute.

He was so different from him, but i guess he is better.

You stared at the person beside you then pinch his cheeks. You make me happy.

"Im glad" he said while giving you a warm smile.

He drives you home and you thanked him for accompanying you to the market place.

"Thanks Riyu" you said and unbuckle your seatbelt.

"Lets go out again tomorrow" he asked while staring at you.

"Yes, that would be great. I dont have work tomorrow" you place a peck on his lips before exiting his car.

You were carrying the groceries inside and place it on the kitchen counter.

You open the fridge to get a glass of cold water to drink.

After that, you place the glass on the dining table next to the fridge but immediately flinched and stop when you saw the ring Kisaki gave you before. I left this on my condominium.. I swear, i didnt bring this ring with me.

You pick it up and scan your surroundings. Did he find me? Why would that bastard look for me.

You had a bad feeling about this so you ran upstairs to pack up your things.

This is bad, i need to get out of here now.

You enter your bedroom and immediately took your luggage out and started packing your things aggressively.

You heard your door shut and from the dark corner of your room you can see a person standing but couldn't see his face.

"Who are you?" you speak while your heart is beating so fast and you started to sweat.

"found you" he said and that familiar voice was Kisaki's. I know how his voice sounds like.

" Kisaki?" you mutter while slowly standing on your feet.

He decided to came out of the dark and took his cigarette on his mouth then place it on the table beside you're bed.

"I saw you earlier with him, lets say i told my men to follow that piece of shit and end him." he smiled and it creeps you out.

"No... Please kisaki dont hurt him, he has nothing to do with this" you reach for his hands even though you were too scared.

"I'll spare him if you come back to me" he grin and you can see he has everything prepared already.

You closed your eyes and the tears finally drip down on your cheeks.

You hugged him and felt the gun placed on his waist.

"I dont love you anymore kisaki" you whispered while hugging him. His eyes widened when he heard it.

You gasped for air before pulling the gun on his waist and taking a few step backward then aim at him.

He froze on his spot and look at you with disbelief.

What is he expecting..

I am no longer the woman that loves him.

I'd change for the better.

You're hands were shaking while you point it at him.

"You ran away from me, I spend almost a year to find you. I am in a difficult situation when you left me. I was confined in the hospital after Mikey tried to kill me." he tried to reach for your hand to calm you down.

"I didn't tell you cause i dont want you to worry" his voice softens and he started to take a step closer to you.

He looked you in the eyes while your hands are shaking.

You kept pointing the gun at him while your index finger is already touching the trigger.

You closed your eyes and let go of the gun. I cant kill him.

I hate myself.

Kisaki kicked the gun away then ran to hugged you tightly. Like he misses you so much.

After a while you hug him back and started to sob loudly.

Its been a month since you came back to Shibuya with kisaki. You were sleeping next to him in his newly bought condominium in Shibuya.

Staring at his thick lashes and facial feature while he snore.

You kissed his nose and caress his cheeks.

"Were you scared to be lonely?"

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