Warning: angst, badwords and its shitty.

Listen to : *Happier than ever*by billie eilish for best experience.

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In life, we always met different types of assholes.

But the one i met was the worst one of them.

Let me tell you the story of how we met 3 years ago.

He was standing outside the nearby flowershop while smoking his cigarettes. I was the shop owner, he looks like someone my dad would hire.

Why?

Because my dad was a mafia boss.

But, i was nothing like him, i grew up from my mom's care and she teaches me to not follow on my father's filthy foot steps.

She would always remind me "if you want to have a bloody path, be like your father..!" she would nag about a lot of stuff everytime i come home with bruises.

When i was younger, i use to be a member of Brahman. But, i decided to quit and look at the reality that i don't have a future with them.

After 6 years, im already 23 years old and has been married with a man named Hanma. Everything was great from the start and my mom likes him a lot, she even said that Hanma has a great sense of humor.

Yes, i married that man i saw at the flowershop.

It was such a random thing.

I got attracted to him from the moment i saw him.

He reminds me of my dad.

He was a gang member, in fact. Not just any gang but the most powerful gang in tokyo named Toman.

I still choose to marry him cause i really like everything about him. His smile, the way he looks and care for me, the way he talks about our future together and how he touches me with those gentle hands.

For me, everything was perfect.

I couldn't think of anything else more perfect than this.

It has been 2 years and living with hanma was getting difficult with each days passes.

It felt like I've been living with a different person from 2 years ago. He would go home late and rarely talks to me, he even ignores my presence sometimes but i wouldn't mind since couple tend to lose interest sometimes and for some time it will eventually comes back. I thought.

That's what i thought.

But i was wrong.

I wont be too humble it i say im not pretty, its just im pretty plain and dont wear a lot of make up and revealing clothes. But i knew i was above average.

Hanma started to lose interests in our marriage and he even come home early in the morning.

Still, even if i ask him about it. He wouldn't apologize which hurts me like hell.

Everytime im bringing it up, he would get angry and act like it was my fault for nagging at him.

I was preparing dinner for him since it was our anniversary, i cook a butter steak and bought a fine wine. I texted him to tell him that i will wait for him to come home.

It has been 3 hours and still no Hanma. Its already 12 midnight. I stood up and took my jacket and car keys. I'll just visit him at work.

I arrive at one of nightclub Toman owns. They literally manage every club here in tokyo.

I went inside but i didn't see hanma, but i was lucky to spotted kisaki on the upper deck of the VIP lounge. He saw me and wave.

I went closer to greet him and other toman members. However, i was unlucky cause Kisaki said that Hanma wasn't there.

If he is not here.

Where the fuck is he..

I told them that i cant stay longer cause i was looking for Hanma. On my way down stairs a girl who looks like a prostitute bumps on me and didn't even apologize.

I stare at her but she throw shades at me instead.

"How can someone like you! Get in here?!" she said while looking down at my baggy clothes. I was currently wearing big black tees and tattered shorts.

"I mean look at you!"she added.

The girl beside her whispered but unfortunately i heard it.

" forget about her, hanma is waiting for us on room 203.he said we can do threesome tonight. "the girl whispered then hurriedly left with her friend.

I was left there standing with  disbelief.

What did i just hear?

What was that? Hanma? Threesome.

I snapped and come back from my of my deep thoughts and i didnt realize that ive been spacing out for a while.

I recall that the girl said it was room 203. I need to go there and see for myself.

I reach the front of the door and i can hear faint moaning.

Am i prepared?!

Can i handle it? What if its really my husband.

My hands were shaking as i grip on the door knob. Its not locked, how careless.

I gulped and close my eyes as i slowly push the door open.

I was right.

It was him.

It hurts.. Fuck!

I drop my phone and it made a thud sound that made them look at my direction. I can't really explain what was happening but yes it was a threesome. It was disgusting.

They were all naked.

But my vision got blury because of tears forming in my eyes.

Hanma's eyes widened when he saw me. But, he then ignored me and stood up to get some robe from the couch.

I was facing his back and he didn't even turn around.

"i was right all along, how long have you been cheating on me?!" i shouted at him with rage and anger..

"its been a while, i can't talk to you now cause your like this. Go home!" he said as he stared at me eye to eye while my tears fell down on my cheeks.

He pulled my wrist and drag me outside. The slamming of the door made me lose myself even more. Knowing those girls are still inside that room with him.

But, i decided to drag my feet and leave.

I was at home. I change my clothes and call my mom for comfort, i didn't tell her yet cause i wasn't ready.

After a while, i heard the sound of the door opening. So i was expecting Hanma to be home. I need to calm down.

I was preparing myself for the confrontation, i need to know if he still wants this marriage and if he still loves me.

Hanma enter the bedroom and saw me sitting at the couch near the window. The room light was turn off and i told him to keep it that way. I dont wanna see your face right now.

"Since it all come to this. Lets just end it." he said without even apologizing.

"Thats all you have to say? After all you've done to me??!" i stood up and walk towards him.

"What else do i have to say? What you saw earlier wasn't enough for you to leave me ?" he utter and my hands starts to tremble. I wanted to slap him but i was never the violent type.

" do you know how much i love you Hanma? Do you even care about me.. What happened to you? You were never like this! " i said while trembling and crying at the same time.

" i was always like this, i think i am not my trueself when im with you. I don't want to pretend anymore! "he walks out the door and i followed him.

I followed him without flipflops and bare footed.

He get into his car and i tap the car window signaling him to come out. No dont leave me like this. Not like this.

Im not ready to end everything.

He stared at me then drive away.

I dont know what's gotten into me but i chase after him, i ran as fast as i can but his car was way faster. I got into the road but a car was blinded into the intersection and was about to hit me.

I saw Hanma's car stopped and he ran to my direction.

When he saw that i was sitting in the road and unharmed cause the car that was about to hit me has step on the break on the right time.

He stared at me with annoyance and anger.

But i still hold his arms pulling him cause he was about to leave again.

He pushed me and it made fall back sitted in the middle of the Street. Then the worst part happened.

He took the ring in his finger and throw it on the nearby pond.

Without staring back at me, he went back to his car and drive off.

I was left there.. Staring at the pond and back at the night sky, no one ever treated me this shitty.

I broke down on my knees once again as a gripped a handful of grass and scream in anger.

I dont wanna scream to death cause it makes me think that im was wasting my breath. But, it fucking hurts.

It took me hours to have the courage to stood up.

That's what happened 3 years ago.

Now i was holding a 2 year old boy and we are happily playing bubbles at the park. My days was so much better with him. Everything was always perfect.

I sold the flowershop and work as a fashion designer instead.

I was dressing nicely and decided to dolled up so that my son would see me as a beautiful mom.

"Shin, come here baby, lets go home. Its getting late!" i shouted while looking at him playing dirt.

I chuckle after seeing his appearance. He is the only thing that makes me happy nowadays.

I held his tiny hands that was full of dirt.

He was mumbling a few words while walking  and singing some nursery rhymes that i taught him last month.

We were so happy and not minding anyone around us.

It was just the two of us and i wanted it to stay that way.

I carried him cause he seem to be tired. Arriving in front of my house i saw a black sports car.

After getting closer a man wearing a suite comes out and my eyes widened seeing Hanma.

I ignored his presence and walk pass him.

"you cant hide the fact that he was mine." he mumbled and that made me stop from my tracts.

"so what? You dont have any rights to be his father. You are just an asshole Hanma and please continue to live as one."  i exclaimed.

"for a moment there i kinda wish you were dead to make everything easier to explain." i added then chuckle while my back was still facing him.

I walked inside my house and took a deep breath.

After laying  my son on his bed, i whispered to him then peck his cheeks.

" i was happier than ever now that i have you! "

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Authors note :

I bet you are all angry 😂 spare me.

Dont let anyone treat you like a shit, if someone does then don't let them continue treating you like one. 👍🏽