"hey mom" i said while tying up my shoes lace on the park bench

"Hey Stacy, how are studies?" She asked with concern

"They are fine mother"

"Well are you focusing on studies?"

"I am mom, don't worry"

"I can't help but to worry about you"

"Yes mom," a big awkward silence filled our conversation

"Okay mom I'll hang up now I gotta go"

"Okay hon," she ended the call

I sometimes ask myself, why this has to be like this, I kissed that idiot on his forehead today, I don't know what he'll be thinking about me.

I was just sitting on the park bench, thinking about every insignificant thing I shouldn't.

I saw an autumn leaf falling from a tree, I stood up and placed my foot on it, it felt very satisfying.

I sat on the swing, and I just sat there for a while, and it started raining. And then I remembered that idiot's face.

'why is he coming in my mind!?, And why the hell I kissed him yesterday!'

It's okay, friends can peck each other to show care right? It's really normal he won't be thinking anything about it, he would have taken it normally, he doesn't even care.

I stood up, and felt my stomach growling,

"Let's eat something Stacy" I said to myself

I went to the nearest shop and grabbed some candies and a  soft drink, while I was eating, I had a lot of thoughts about him. I placed my drink on the bench and got lost in thoughts .

'will he be okay now?'

'those scars looked a lot'

'who could have beaten up DRAKE so badly'

'Drake is like one of the most athletic people I know'

'Police thinks he was involved in violence'

'but I know he couldn't have'

'he can't be right?'

'i know him'

My inner thought said 'really?'

I heard a laughter, two kids were enjoying the swing now on which I was sitting, they looked so happy, like they don't give a damn what is happening around them, they are just focused on enjoying just like when we were kids.

Why can't I go back to the kid I was? Why did I have to grow up? And why am I feeling nostalgic now?!

"Hey young lady," A man said from behind

I looked behind

"Would you like to buy some earings?" He said with a large smile

'just a salesman'

"Oh no thanks" I said

His circular smile now started to follow the equation of straight line, he went to the other lady.

I stood up again and at that day I just roamed the city walking in very street and park i could find.

'why am i thinking about Drake?"

'do I like him?'

'no way'

'but why am I concerned about his health then '

'its probably nothing, it's just your kindness Stacy'

'yeah that's right '

'but people don't kiss each other in kindness right?'

'It was just a peck'

'well that party night it wasn't a peck, it was long beautiful kiss'

'i was drunk'

'so was he'

'atleast i have a thing that I want to remember from my past now '

'back then the only family I had was kids of my age in an orphanage, until a lady adopted me, she took me to her house and provided me with everything she had , it wasn't until I turned 16 that I found out that the person i call my mother has a unstable mental state, she enjoyed arguing with me, she just wanted attention , but not positive one just wanted me to blame her and be the victim, she enjoyed it but for me it was the worst memories, my childhood went in lonliness and selfdom, sure i found friends in highschool but then again, highschool sucked i don't  even remember much, the people who promised would never leave , left first.'

As I was thinking all this my hands searched for something in my pocket they couldn't find, and then I looked down, my candies were finished i have was still hungry, I went to another shop and bought some candies, as I sat there eating them I looked in the sky which was raining, atleast i carried an umbrella.

'Its late now, i can go home but it's not like someone is waiting for me'

"That shit will kill you know"

I heard a deep voice, I looked behind i saw a tall person wearing a black shirt, he came running from the rain

"Jason!!" I said with excitement