The aftersound of the rain was the only thing I could hear in that silence, the hospital was calm, and I was just sitting on the hospital bed wondering why am I even here , the doc said I can go, but it just doesn't feel like it.

I just want to be still not here not anywhere in particular but wherever my body is , I am just so tired, tired of everything, my mind just hurts now, this anger this rage in my mind I just want all of it to go , but it just won't. No one can help or understand whatever I am thinking, everyone will just hear it but in the end i am the one who needs to do things noone is going to put the extra effort for me.

My body aches all over, thoughts of that night just won't leave me alone, they are not haunting me it's the opposite, I am just constantly thinking why didn't I die that night why did he spare me, he should have just killed me, he should have just grabbed that piece of beer botel and and stabbed me inside my stomach and just rotate it inside until I die.

"Hey , you can go now your wounds are fine now" the doc said again
Ofcourse he doesn't want to occupy an extra bed by a perfectly fine person

"Yeah I'll go now"

"Thankyou very much"

I stood up changed to my normal clothes, took my bag and got out of that building,..

"Hey Josh, where are you?"

"Oh I am outside the country for a while my mother needs me"

"Oh okay take care dude"

"Yeah you too"

He ended the call, guess I am alone for a while now,

'i wonder what Stacy is doing '

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"Hey Jason its your mom"

"Yes" Jason was serious

"Hello aunty how are you?"

"Hey Stacy! Looking good as always, how's mom?"

"Oh she is fine"

"Tell her to meet me or give a call sometimes"

"Sure I will"

"How are studies-...." before she could say anything Jason cut her in between

"Why are you here mother?"

"Oh Jason I just came to meet my son and his girlfriend can't I do that?"

"Oh no aunty I am not his girlfriend I am just his friend?"

"Oh still,? It's been like what, more that 4 years right?"

"Yeah" he said

"You guys are young you should atleast try to get into relationships and all"

"Ofcourse Jason has experience in all these stuffs "

As I said Jason turned towards me with his cheeks a little red, and then suddenly Drake's face came in my mind and I looked away.

"Jason I need to talk to you" she said

"What about"

"Let's go outside not here"

He went outside the shop with her, they talked a little and then Jason came to me and said

"Sorry Stacy I have to go,"

"You okay?"

"Yeah I'll catch up with you later"

"Okay" I said and then he suddenly hugged me, and I just got more uncomfortable i didn't reciprocated that hug, he sensed it and left me

They got in a shining car and went away.
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I reached my home and put my clothes in laundry, ofcourse I dont want bloody clothes,

I opened the fridge, it was empty

"Fuck, now I have to go outside again" I said closing the door in anger

I went to the closest grocery shop but it was closed already,

So I went to the other side of the sector,

'wow this park sure is beautiful'
As I was walking by I saw a drunk man lying on the ground near a closed wine shop

'what a greif' i thought

Then I saw a shining black car passing with pure black tinted windows,
'pure beauty'

I reached the grocery shop, i started looking for milk, as I was searching for it I saw her sitting on the other side of the shop,

And then I just couldn't stop looking at her, I just noticed her every facial structure, every mole on her face, I just couldn't stop, I noticed the shopkeeper giving me creepy looks,

'oh shit' I went outside

"Hey" what are you thinking

"Woah Drake?! You scared me " she said

"Haha scaredo"

"Whatever"

"What are you doing here"

"I came to eat something but then I met a friend"

"Oh where I don't see anyone"

"He has something, so he went"

"Oh you sure you are not hallucinating?"

"Shut up"

"Wait what are you doing here,you were in hospital right?"

"Yeah so what I am healed now"

"But you should rest "

She said in genuine concern, I just looked her in the eyes and then her lips she was flawless

"Hey you ugly brat let's grab a drink or something I am thirsty"

"Stop calling me that!!"

I bought two cokes, and passed her

"You sure you don't want to rest? I mean you have to rest right?"

"I am fine chill"

"Okay okay" she said waving her hands

She looked at me for a while

"By the way what are we" she asked

"Huh?"

An awkward silence filled the gap between us,

"What do you mean?" I asked

"What do you think I mean?"

"I mean we are friends right?"

"Do friends kiss each other" she asked as always straight forward

"Well it's different in our case,"

"Yeah I guess" she said and now her eyes turning less affectionate

"Let's go" she said

"Yeah"

We both stood up and then we started walking in the dark as there were no lights on the street

A sudden blow of wind passed through us , I got goosebumps all over my body, she removed her muffler above her jacket and rapped it around my neck,

"Hey you don't have to-"

"Shut up"

As she was wrapping it around I looked at her lips and without caring for anything I just constantly looked at them and then I just kissed her, her hand which were just tight now on my neck got loose, her lips felt soft as always, I just didn't stop i continued to kiss her , I first kissed her upper lip and then went to lower one and then I felt the essence of intimacy in between, I folded my hands as I was too afraid to hold her but I didn't stop kissing her and then she holded my neck, her tongue interwined with mine our lips just inseparable and I was lost at that moment,

She didn't wanted to stop and neither I wanted to leave her, at that moment it felt like my whole world could collapse within her arms, and then when we finally took a moment to look at each other she came closer and closer to me , she whispered something in the dark near my ear, I heard those words crystal and clear, the words that I haven't heard in a while but still took my fear as she said i looked in the sky which was turning dark from blue and the words were

"I love you"

We took a minute to absorb the situation, a girl who has been with me in my wounds and when my mind was dizzy has confessed to me about her feelings, she was passionate,
I could tell her eyes had a different look,.

She was looking me hoping that everything turns out to be fine and everything just goes as the way she wants and to be honest I wanted it too.

I wanted her, I wanted her love her warmth , the deep care she had for me, the feminine aura she had, has adored me in these past few months, the first time we kissed is too different from now, my lips just wants to be a habitat of hers.

I looked at her she looked at me too expecting a reply, i just couldn't form words or say anything rather I just wanted to keep looking at her but I knew I cannot or i will just kiss her again , the sleeves of her jacket were still on her arms as if she was insecure about what might be my answer and then I soon realised the answer was within my thoughts only, i was noticing everything, the necklace she had her eyelashes and then I took a step ahead she stayed still I just looked her in the eyes and again kissed her, this time a short one and then I finally mustered up the courage and said

"Would you like to walk with me in the dark until we reach the bright side ?"

I moved my hand forward for her to grab,

She took a moment to learn my words and then gently she holded my hand tip and said

"I'll walk with you forever"

We couldn't speak after that, we just walked in silence and just looked at each other at different intervals,

I walked her home that night.

"Bye... uh..Stacy"

"Goodnight Drake"

"Yeah goodnight"

As I was turning

"Drake" she said

"Uh yeah?"

"This is all real right,?"

"Yes I want it to"

"I mean we won't forget all of this tomorrow right or regret it somehow?"

"I won't make you regret anything from now on Stacy"

"When will you go to university tomorrow?" She said blushing a little

"Our time"

"I see, goodnight then"

"Yeah"

"And Drake never say bye"

I sensed something in her and hugged her...

When I left her, her cheeks were red her skin soft as usual and her lips more sensitive than ever.

Finally I turned and started walking towards my home, as I was walking down the streets thoughts of her filled my mind and slowly i realised I was familiar with these thoughts already they always have been there just I was ignorant about them.