I couldn't find the strength to get out of bed.

Today was one of the worse days of the year, my mother's birthday.

It was worse next to my fathers birthday, my birthday, and the day they passed away.

It was horrible because every year I had to face the fact that I'd never get to spend another one of their birthdays with them.

As much as I didn't want to I dragged myself out of the bed.

On top of that, I was all alone today.

Yoongi hated me for some unknown reason and I didn't want anyone else.

I only wanted Yoongi.

I quickly got dressed then grabbed the flowers I had off my dresser.

Once I slip on my shoes I headed out the house. I didn't say much to the guys as I made my way out.

When I got halfway down the street I heard my name get called.

When I turned around I saw Yoongi jogging in my direction.

"What are you doing here? I thought you were ignoring me." I say dully as I continue on walking in the direction of the cemetery.

"I may be acting this way but that doesn't mean I would let you come here alone on one of the hardest days of the year." He says while keeping his eyes focused on the road ahead of him.

"How considerate of you." I say and he looks like he wants to say something but bites his tongue.

When we get to the cemetery I go to my mother's grave and squat down.

"How are you doing mom? Happy Birthday. I miss you...a lot." I say and by then I was a mess.

I couldn't hold back my tears as I buried my face in my hands.

I felt arms wrap around my shoulders and I turn and cling to Yoongi and cry into his chest.

"It hurts so much." I say as more tears fall.

"I know." he says stroking the back of my head.

All I could do was cry and helplessly cling to him.

"Why do you hate me so much all of a sudden?" I ask, crying into his chest.

"I don't hate you, y/n." he says as he lets out a sigh.

"Then why are you acting so cold towards me?" I ask as I dry my face.

He doesn't say anything and I let out a breath and push myself away from him and stand up.

"(Y/n).." he says in a breath but I continue to walk away.

"Y/n!." He calls out from behind me but I don't stop.

If he didn't care about this friendship why should I.

"(Y/n) stop!"

"Why?! Why should I Yoongi? You don't give a fuck either way so just leave me alone!" I yell and his face turns to anger.

"What? Nothing to say because you know it's true?" I ask.

"Stop saying that!" He yells and I flinch.

He had never raised his voice to me like this before.

"Why?!" I yell back just as powerful.

"I do give a fuck, Y/n! You told me you didn't need me! We've been together for so long and you tell me you don't need me! Do you know how that fucking feels?!" He yells and my eyes widen as my jaw meets the ground.

I had never in my life seen Yoongi explode his feelings like this.

"Yoongi.." I manage out but he just drops his head.

"Just forget it. I'm going home." he says and pushes past me but I grab onto his arm as I feel tears welling in my eyes.

"Let go of me." he says sternly but I shake my head.

"(Y/n) let go." he repeats.

"I need you okay. I need you so much and I just feel so lonely and empty that I can't bare it! I need you so badly you don't even understand. I can't do this alone..I can't do this without you." I say as tears drench my face.

When he doesn't say anything I feel my chest tighten.

Then I feel myself being pulled up and pulled into the warmth and safeness of Yoongi's chest.

"I'm so sorry." I say crying once again.

"Sh, it's okay." he says, trying to calm me down.

We just stand there as I cling to him and cry.

He's all I have....