Tyler sighed as he had to pull back from his boyfriend's lips.

Josh pulled back as well. "Sorry, baby," he said softly. "I-it's just hard when... w-when you're in the moment."

"I-it's okay," Tyler said, shaking his head. "I-it's okay."

Josh got back into his spot on the couch, sitting an awkward distance away from Tyler.

Tyler sighed and crawled over to him, gently kissing his cheek. "I love you," he reminded him.

"I love you too," Josh said quietly.

"I'm sorry I'm like this," Tyler said softly.

"You know I think you're beautiful, right?" Josh asked. "That I don't think you could possibly be any more perfect."

"I-I know, Joshua," Tyler replied. "I know."

And Tyler did know Josh loved him, and he believed that Josh liked his body, but he was just so insecure. Whenever Josh touched Tyler's belly, his insecurities immediately heightened.

So Josh always had to remember not to touch Tyler's belly. But it was hard when they were in the moment to remember.

"Is there any way I could make you feel... more confident?" Josh asked after it was quiet for a few minutes.

"I-I dunno," Tyler shrugged. "Why?"

"Because I love you," Josh said. "I-I Love you and you deserve to be confident a-and love yourself as much as I love you a-and... and enjoy being touched."

Tyler played with his own fingers silently.

"Plus," Josh continued. "W-we've been dating for six months now. I think it's time we... maybe we try to take our relationship a step forward."

Tyler was upset that he was the reason the boys couldn't have sex. He knew that'd been on Josh's mind for a while and was very important to him.

"I-I'll be ready some day, Joshua," Tyler said. "I promise."

"I-I don't wanna rush you," Josh said. "I don't want to do it if you're not comfortable."

"M-maybe... maybe if I could keep my shirt on," Tyler said. "Maybe if I could keep my shirt on, w-we could try it."

Josh shook his head. "I-it's fine, Ty. I don't want to do it if you aren't completely comfortable."

Tyler shrugged. "I-I feel comfortable with you. I-I know you're gonna take good care of me. L-let's just try it."

"My parents are here," Josh said. "They'd kill me if they heard us."

"I-I have some money saved up," Tyler said. "Let's go to a hotel."

"I-I don't know, Ty," Josh said. "I-I don't even know if I'm ready."

"Let's at least go to the hotel," Tyler said. "I think that'd be fun."

Josh nodded.

So the boys packed a bag full of Josh's clothes, a shirt and sweatpants that were a bit too small for him so they would fit Tyler.

They found a nice hotel. Tyler called and reserved them a room, and they were on their way.

***

They made it there, checking in and heading to their room.

They got into bed, Josh not expecting Tyler to immediately crawl into his lap and start kissing him. But he certainly wasn't going to stop him.

10 minutes later, Tyler mumbled something. "I-I wanna try it, Josh."

"Are you sure?"

Tyler nodded.

Josh softly kissed his boyfriend's lips, gently lying him down on his back.

They continued to kiss for a while, their pants eventually coming off.

But then Josh noticed Tyler was tugging at his shirt.

"C-can I keep it on?" Josh asked.

He hadn't realized he was insecure of his body until now.

Tyler nodded. "Y-yeah, b-but I think you have the best body ever," he said. "I-I'd kill to look like you."

"I-I'd kill to look like you," Josh replied.

It was quiet for a minute before Tyler spoke up.

"I-if I take my shirt off, w-will you feel okay to take yours off too?" He asked softly.

Josh looked down for a minute and shrugged. "I-I guess."

Tyler nodded, softly kissing Josh's forehead before taking his own shirt in his hands, hesitating did a minute before pulling it off.

Josh did the same, and they were both left just staring at one another.

The boys didn't end up having their first time that night. Instead, they decided to just focus on building their confidence.

Which, the other did incredibly well for each other.

"I-I think you have the hottest body ever," Tyler said with a shy giggle as he sat on Josh's belly.

Josh grinned and blushed. "I think you have the cutest body of all time. So fitting of your personality."

Tyler giggled and blushed, kissing Josh's nose. "I love you."

"I love you more, baby," Josh smiled. "More than anything."