have you ever
Pondered your heart out
At a night sky?
Your lips are
Laced with the tears of
Your own baby blue eyes.

And than you flashback
At your blurred visions
And your strange, heart twisting, dry mouthed words
And your body
Collapsing in of itself
Like a supernova, forming on the darkest night to implode;

Have you ever
Questioned why you have your
Scars?
That line your arms and your
Belly?
What made you do such;
A vial act?
Self hatred?
Discourse in your
Brian?
Clashing and fighting?

I feel my
Stomach cramping and my
Heart pounding and my
Intestines walling
As I cry;

I compare these tears
To vomit.
Because when you puke and puke
And never feel better
Something is wrong.

And everytime
My bitter tears spill
And my fists clench
All I can really say
"Babydoll?
You okay?"