about to cry over all my friends on here because i'm fucking stupid and don't belong anywhere and and and and and and and and and and and i can't breathe and why am i crying and why do i have to lose people why is it that i HAVE to lose and i have to sleep in twelve minutes and i'm gonna cry myself to sleep again and i've cried the last four nights and and and and and and and and and i don't know i'm sorry