I look in the mirror,

The girl staring back

Is nothing like the girl

You told me I was.

You said I was thinner,

Better than ever.

But I look in the mirror

And I frown, confused.

I hear voices telling me

I'm too fat, not enough.

Tears fall down my face

And I see what they see

My tummy is falling

out of my pants.

My arms are too big,

My things rub when I walk.

Could it be possible

That what they said was just talk?

I look in the mirror,

Look at all the bad things.

The voices are right,

I must not stop to eat.

Food is for thin girls,

Who get all the boys.

My stomach is flabby,

My cheeks are so chubby.

I starve myself daily,

Skip a meal,

Skip two.

It used to be easier,

Now my body begs.

It wants to be fed

But we don't deserve it, I said.

The voices tell me good,

Not eating is well.

I can't stand it anymore,

I'm hungry, I'm starving.

I think I need food,

My vision is failing.

My head is just hurting

And my body is too heavy.

They tell me to stop, the guy said I should rest.

But I don't want to stop,

I don't wanna rest.

I want to keep going,

I need to be best.

But they put me on break

And give me a sweet.

I eat it whole

Everything is clear.

My sugar is too low,

This girl is not eating.

Gymnastics and starving,

Nuh uh, no binding.

I learned this the hard way,

You don't eat, you fall.

Yet the voices still tell me,

To shut up and starve.