A knot fills my stomach

Of uncertainess and fear.

The unknown world is calling,

My oportunity is coming.

Yet my mind fills with fear

And my heart beats as fast.

I don't know what's happening,

I don't know what to do.

I'm leaving,

I'm leaving for a while.

It's my dream come true

Yet it seems like a nightmare.

I'm scared, you know?

I just want to cry.

My mind goes to overdrive,

Thinking of what could go wrong.

Millions of possibilities

Of what will happen next.

The floor starts to move.

It messes up my steps.

It goes down, it goes up,

Then it shifts and I fall.

My heart feels like beating

Out of my chest.

I'm afraid it'll stop,

It's going too fast.

I think I am dying,

Is this how I go?

My heart goes so fast

That it just explodes?

My breaths go faster,

Too fast to be okay.

If I will not die

Then I will soon faint.

I remember I read once

That you could faint of fast breaths.

Somehow I remember this

But I don't know my name.

I don't know the time,

The day or the month.

I don't seem to remember

Anything to help,

But somehow I realize

The place where I'm at.

I can see them all looking.

They're all so confused.

Have they never seen a girl

So scared she might die?

Is it really that weird

That I'm frozen in fear?

The stares become stronger,

The confusion becomes pity.

They don't know how to stop it,

I don't know how to breathe.

Lips start to quiver,

Tears fall down my face.

The world moves around me,

Faster than I can see.

My food dares to come back up,

But I won't let it go that far.

Somewhere in my thoughts,

The ones that go faster

Than my small heart can beat,

Bring back a word

That I thought I'd forgotten.

I can even hear my mother

Saying this to me.

Suddenly the world

Is clearer than before.

The floor is no longer moving,

The people are no longer staring.

My head won't explode,

And my heart won't stop.

The tears stop falling

And my hands stop shaking.

The fear is gone,

Now I am calm.

I guess maybe the answer

Was closer than I thought.

I just need to remember

To breathe in and out.

No other way

To kick this nonesense out.