I'm having writer's block

Major writer's block

It's like I'm on one side of a river I can't cross, I need to get to the other side but like I need a bridge. That bridge being scenes happening after this chapter, and the other side being the hell train arch and some other ideas.

Weird metaphor but ok

Also

Shameless plug: I wrote another Tog book, a Bam x reader. Do I have a problem? Maybe.

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Iris P.O.V

His diary diary stuff was lame, is he secretly a teenager? Wouldn't that make my mom a pedophile?

Unless she's a teenager- or actually a pedophile-

No, seriously, how could he actually write something like that, ever. It's so embarrassing.

I can't believe I'm related to someone who writes redundant stuff, does that also make the person who wrote it redundant too? 

No matter what other better things he has written, whatever that stuff is can't make up for how redundant the redundant things he's writing. Right?

I say yes.

And if nobody agrees I'll just mind control them to do my binding.

Seriously, how am I related... I think I'd rather be disowned and raised by ocelots in Danville.

And it's not like I'm really not exaggerating. Seriously!

Have you ever read that stupid book diary about a teenage girl named Nikki having a crush on a dude named Brandon. Weird shit happens like her dad has this roach van, I bet that roach, not van, is a certain blonde person I know. There's this lip gloss obsessed girl, which reminds me of a certain short brown hair girl.

Then there's this Greg guy writing in his diary, committing wack shit. Blaming his friend Rowley, for almost everything. He does other questionable acts to humanity and has two wack brothers.

Yeah, my farther's diary is worse than those, he doesn't do questionable stuff, but it's way cringyer than both books combined then tripled.

I'll save you the cringe-fest, it was a nightmare to read. It took me hours to read the whole thing, not because it was so cringingly long, but because it was so cringing that I had to take a breather.

Trust me you don't want to read that, so I'll be an angel and save you the hassle.

Back to the part where the sticky note was placed, held a whole ton of information.

There was some actually decent stuff written. Like:

History on the tower.

Plans about the tower's structure, including ALL the floors.

How shinsoo was brought in as a method to cleanse the tower but turned into a whole thing of life.

All because of a dude named shin being tasked of 'shooing' the dirt and grim away.

But I'll spear the elaboration on that.

Along with scanning the book and connecting all the information to my lighthouse, information just kept flowing.

I now had a decent understanding of things, and actually have a plan.

It's not the greatest plan I've ever come up with, but at least it's way better than other people's greatest plans they have come up with.

But that's when I came across a very particular page. It was the last page as the rest after that were blank.

It dated to the night before he left in search of my mother, and never came back.

I don't know about you, but I smell an irresponsible parent.

Shame. On. Him.

But I'm not going to hold it against him, I'm not that petty.

Besides I could take care of myself, even when I was born, I could practically take care of myself. But I didn't need to since I had maid and butlers at my disposal.

The page was all about this hidden secret. A secret that could be game-changer, also part of the reason my father and mother left.

Wow, just wow. They were so secretive they didn't even tell their own daughter.

Maybe I was adopted, or they weren't my parents. Or I secretly have another sibling or siblings. Maybe if that were true it would be a boy who died because his mother's obsessed admirer killed the child of a woman he loved who did it with another man.

Naw, I'm overthinking it, I do look a lot like my parents. But if something 'shocking' were the case I wouldn't be so surprised.

But there was a very important note, at the end of the long, detailed explanation.

'Throughout this book lies everything you'll need to know, the secret of the world, but it is extremely valuable. So it must be kept hidden until a worthy person will be able to light up the unseen things by the naked eye.

I know it will be you, but first, you must become worthy.

Become the god you were always meant to be. A god worthy of their worshippers.'

I read it over a couple of times...

I don't have a clue what on what's this old redundant man is talking about.

JK!

Of course, I know what he's talking about, I'm not in the slightest stupid or idiotic, despite what others say.

I don't like it, but it must be done, the show must go on.

I'll have to create and unleash a devil inside me, a totally different me.

But how am I going to stage that?

I got it! I'll just sell myself on Lightlist, it's totally not shady alright.

And I'll do a bit of that stuff, and this stuff, even these things.

I definitely won't like that. At least I won't be conscious.

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Published: June 22nd, 2020

Word count: ~ 1000 words

Next update: Umm maybe after next week

So if I just don't update next week, it's because I can't find a bridge to cross the river.

And that's why you might find chapters that are 'Say what-' or 'confusion'