Chapter 76: Disagree

            "Jimin... You love me even if I'm capable of murder. I don't want to lose you. I don't want you to grow insane and end up falling out the window as a way to escape." Jungkook added and grabbed both of Jimin's hands. Looking into his Lover's eyes with a sigh. "If you want to travel and work... Go. I'm not going to hate you or hold you back now. You're free to do it and I accept that. I won't hold you down..."

            "Jungkook... Come with me. You can't be Jyunhu forever. What will the landlord think? This seems sickening at the same time. Imagine how he feels about some other man playing to be his dead son?" Jimin wondered as Jungkook then stood up and walked over to the cabinets by the bed and pulled it out to take the letters from before that Jimin was curious to read.

            "This letter... I know how much you wanted to read them. All of them sound the same so I'll let you read just one. Read it now.." Jungkook added and handed the letter to Jimin and watched how the man sat up to look at it. He then turned on the lamp beside them to light up the room a bit.
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Jeon Jungkook.
                                  
            I know you're in there... In the same room my son owned. I know you still have his things, his clothes, his mask, his big black sweater, his jobs and his checks. Were you really willing to actually say Jungkook has vanished so you can play the part of my son? Jyunhu is dead... I know he fell out the window and it's okay. My son wasn't so stable and I should have warned you.

     Your parents collected your things from the other room since you were late on rent. I know you want to take over and live his life for him... I don't know what happened that night but I wish I could see his body for a proper burial. But he's lost at sea now and all I could do is just wonder if he would watch over us both.

         There are still rumors about you... Everyone would stare at you and think you are Jyunhu... And they also would think Jungkook is the one that fell off that night. So they connect those things and just think Jyunhu is in a relationship with the dead... 'Freak' 'creep' 'weirdo' I hear that every day in the lobby pointed towards you.

         Please Jungkook, stop this now and I'll still forgive you. It's not your fault. I let this happen because I know you're still hurt to see something like that. I won't press charges. I know deep down you still wish to hear Jyunhu's beautiful singing serenade the other residents and I know you try to sing to them and you sound amazing because of that... Yet that's what made others run away. They didn't think a ghost sang to them... They all thought a creep was singing to them... No longer the Jyunhu from before.
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         "S-See..? It's not your fault. He won't press charges. He just wants to end on good terms. He won't hate you!" Jimin continued and set the letter away to sit up and look at Jungkook. "We can leave.. Start a perfect life together and travel! Just you and me.."

          Jungkook walked up to the window and pulled the curtains open to look out to the sea. "I told you. If I leave... It's like I'm at fault. It's not fair when he was alive, I yelled at him and mentally abused him to stay... And he stayed. But then he grew sick of me, he loved me but he despised staying here and as soon as I told him I didn't love him... He just cracked and refused to leave the apartment knowing I'll be alive. He wanted to kill me and I was able to catch it before he could do it. I'm at fault... I kept Jyunhu alone here with me and he just wanted freedom. Now you know it's not safe to stay here. It's not fair for him. He just wanted to live long but I was his worst mistake that drove him insane. The least I could do is stay behind and stay here until I die... Just so he could feel like he lived long and we stayed by each other." Jungkook stated but Jimin only shook his head.

             "Jungkook. I am your boyfriend. Jyunhu is dead and gone. Are you willing to let me go because of guilt? You need me as much as I need you. Please think this through. I'm not going to stay here at Busan and you know it. Leave with me, your boyfriend, and spend your life as Jeon Jungkook or just stay here, alone and living as someone you're not..." Jimin claimed and folded his arms. "Follow me... Don't stay behind I love you too much to let you go like this."

          "You don't understand... If I was to tell you I was going to end it, dangling off the outside window.. But still holding a knife as soon as you pull me up so I could kill you. What would you do? Let me live and end up killing you or you'll let me go?" Jungkook asked as Jimin walked up to his lover and hugged him softly in his arms.

           "Stop talking like this... Can't you see that I want to live my life with you? You aren't coming with me..?" Jimin asked as Jungkook looked up at the man.

           "I... Need time.." Jungkook whispered as Jimin sat back down on the bed and let out a sigh. Time is what Jimin didn't have. Very soon he would be due to leave Busan to continue work but Jungkook made it so difficult to do so that he couldn't even think of leaving like that. Only until it came to him, he would know if he's ready to go.
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          Taehyung sat down in the cafe as Yoongi was ordering coffee for the two. It felt like a date but Taehyung knew deep down it wasn't. It would be another argument to fight over Hoseok and that was what made the younger feel stressed. He set Hoseok's flowers right by him as he sat down and patiently waited for Yoongi.

          Not a moment too soon, Yoongi came back with two coffees in his hands for the two. He sat down in front of Taehyung and handed him the coffee and looked at him. "I hope you aren't busy... I wanted to talk to you about Hoseok. Not surprising..."

         "That's fine... I really don't know what we are doing..." Taehyung said and looked up at Yoongi. "You love him.. I love him... What are we doing? Why do you love him if you had your chance already?"

         "Feisty aren't you? Hmm.... I love him because I miss those good old days where I held him close every night and hugs after mini arguments. Is it bad that I love him?" Yoongi asked as Taehyung took a sip out of the coffee and folded his hands to listen to Yoongi. "I... Never wanted to leave him."

          "Then why did you do it?"

           "I... Had to because my parents said so. They thought Hoseok was a bad influence for my future career but little did they know, he was going for the same career. Ah, I want to love him at times but I know deep down he'll never let me in again." Yoongi sighed. But Taehyung knew Hoseok was in love with the two. He just didn't want to let Yoongi know so he wouldn't stand a chance. Taehyung had to be selfish with what was his.

           "Hoseok and I confessed to eachother. We're together now." Taehyung added as Yoongi looked up at Taehyung only to look down again.

           "So this is how it is..? I guess I held a one sided love with Jung Hoseok. I never wanted to move on. I never wanted him to leave me... Do you know how tough it was for me? I'm pretty sure it was tough for him too. I just thought... He would at least have something for me in his heart so he would think of me at least once. When you weren't there for him... I held him close at night even if we weren't something. He was heartbroken... Even worst than how I left him. We both hurt him yet... He chose you... Is that how this ends? Me staying with a hole where my heart sits?"

          "Yoongi, you had your chance. We both hurt him but he let me in... If you loved Hoseok, you wouldn't have done what your parents told you and still kept him. Isn't that what love is about in the first place? Stay true to the other no matter what. If you still loved him... Why did you listen to what your parents said?" Taehyung asked as he watched Yoongi clench his fists and look down at Taehyung's cup of coffee.

           "Do you know... how tough that is? I can't disrespect my parents and you should know that disrespecting the elders results in punishments or what ever they have in mind." Yoongi said and looked at Taehyung. "I'm trying to hold myself back from shouting... I'm sorry.."

           "It's okay. I... just love him and he loves me... It's not healthy to stay thinking of someone who is already taken. Have a good day." Taehyung said and stood up to feel Yoongi quickly grip onto the younger's hands.

          "You just think you're going to leave so easily like that?" Yoongi asked and glared at the younger. "Would it hurt to listen for a while?" Yoongi said, pulling Taehyung by the hand and pulling him down to sit down on the spot next to him in the booth. "I love him... But I couldn't keep him in my life. Only because my parents weren't the only reason why I had to break up with him." Yoongi said and stood up with a smirk.

           "What...?"

           "Oh but you know... 'It's not healthy to think of someone who is already taken' I'll see you around." Yoongi said and held his coffee in his hands before looking back at Taehyung. "Since the two of you are something. Why don't you ask him what he did that made our relationship toxic? I'm sure you'll reach the bottom of it." Yoongi added and winked. Leaving the younger to sit there in silence to think of what the older said. Hoseok was a saint. What could he have done to result in Yoongi's relationship with Hoseok to end like this?

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