Jungkook took a moment and still held the knife in his hands. The way he still kept it showed that it must have meant a lot to him. Jungkook let out a sigh and gazed at his reflection through the knife's blade. Staring at himself as Jimin didn't care how uncomfortable the tied rope hugged his wrist. He needed to listen to Jungkook's secret that took so long to listen to.

Flashback

          Suddenly, he pushed me out of anger as I hit my head. The pain.. It was unbearable as I rubbed the part of my head I hit against the wall. I couldn't stop the feeling.. But only then... I felt nothing. The pain was gone.. I was still alive but at that moment I couldn't feel pain anymore.

         "A-Ah.. Jyunhu! F-Fuck.. Stop!" I cried. hoping he would stop. I felt there was something wrong when I couldn't feel the pain on my head.

               "Y-YOU BROKE MY HEART AND YOU THINK I'LL JUST STOP?!" Jyunhu yelled and quickly grabbed a knife by the counter and approached me... I didn't know he would come out to be this way. How could I miss the signs?

               "Jyunhu.."

               "Don't Jyunhu me... I loved you... I treated you so perfectly to the point where I EVEN MENTIONED MARRIAGE AND YOU BLEW IT OFF LIKE IT WAS JUST A JOKE!" Jyunhu sobbed and held the knife, by now his heart darkened. "Jungkook..." He whispered as he quickly stroke down the knife but I was quick to roll to the other side of the room and dodge another strike. I started to panic as I quickly stood up to see him look up in Despair. There was nothing I could have done. I couldn't have loved him just to pity him further.

          "J-Jyunhu... I'm not going to fight you or hurt you!" I said but that didn't stop him.. He was insane now.

           "NOW YOU WANT TO KEEP ME SAFE?! DID YOU LIE ABOUT BEING HERE TO PROTECT ME FROM OTHERS?! MY JUNGKOOK LIED TO ME...AFTER ALL THIS TIME!" He continued to shout as he ran in, no longer wanting to love, but to kill. "Silly me for saying that I loved you everyday and silly me for thinking you felt the same! NOW YOU KNOW THE REAL ME!" The boy shouted and I couldn't stand there and let him threaten me... I had to get the knife from him.

           I charged at him to grab the knife but he slashed up my arm, yet I didn't flinch at all to it. My nerves were completely dead and I only felt the iron just drag up my arm like nothing. Followed by warm blood that dripped.

        "LET GO!  I WANT TO HAVE YOU!" Jyunhu sobbed as I suddenly pushed him back so he wouldn't strike my chest.

        "JYUNHU CALM DOWN!  W-We'll get through this together!"

         "Just so you can cancel my feelings and soon result in me falling in love again WITH YOU?!"

         "I'm not going to hurt you!"

          "You did it once you can do it again!" Jyunhu cried and pushed me back to the open window until my back was over the rail. I was close to falling as he pulled out the knife again and rose it up to my neck. Just staring at his beady and sad eyes made my heart grow heavy. I didn't mean for this to go too far.. But turns out he finally showed me his true side and I was afraid.

        "Jyunhu! This isn't safe! S-Stop! You won't kill me would you?"

         "Say you love me! SAY YOU WANT TO MARRY ME AND TELL ME YOU WANT TO SHOW OTHERS HOW PERFECT WE ARE!" Jyunhu kept sobbing and softly caressed my face as he pressed his forehead against mines. He loved me. But didn't love him, I turned my head away and this caused him to quickly raise his knife up to end me but I was swift to push his body up and toss him back... Resulting in him quickly gripping onto the rails while he struggled to hang over the window. Not wanting to let go.

             I realized what I was doing and I quickly gripped onto his hand. I almost kicked him out of the window and down to the sea where there was rocks almost like shards along the shores.

           "N-NO DON'T LET GO! I'LL PULL YOU UP!" I shouted. Even if I didn't love him... He was still a brother to me and I didn't want to let him go. I couldn't risk losing my best friend. However, Jyunhu looked at me in silence. Letting out a sigh and looked down to the sea.

           "What the hell am I doing with my life..?" He cried silently and I could feel my heart break from hearing those words.

            "N-No Jyunhu stop being so stupid!  Come on! You need to try and pull yourself up!" I continued as he grasped onto the knife and looked at me.

            "I tried to kill you over love... Imagine what I'd do to you... I can never be free from this apartment and my father keeps me trapped here! I have no escape." Jyunhu was giving up on life. I didn't know deep down he suffered being trapped in here because of his father and just knowing I didn't love him was enough to show that he had nothing to look forward to.

         "No! What about the tournament! I take it back! I take it back I won't hate you if you leave! Please go... You can't leave like this.. Not so soon." I begged him not wanting to see my brother figure leave me. But in his eyes.. I knew he was suffering. There was something I didn't know and that was his secret he kept from me for so long.

          "I'm sick... I wanted to kill you... I have dark thoughts and a thing like me shouldn't live. I'll save every future victim of mines from the drama and say... I want to end it here..."

          "Stop! No I'll pull you up and these thoughts will go away!" I said already crying. If only I knew he was suffering.. I wouldn't have mentally abused him and told him to shut up and go away. It was my fault he wanted to end it. If only I knew what he felt deep down so I could help him.

        "Let go... Or else I'll take you down with me..." Jyunhu warned but I didn't want to let go until Jyunhu suddenly brought up the knife to try and stab my neck and what it looked like, he had perfect upper body strength to pull himself up in order to kill me and still live after that. I just couldn't understand him and his mixed, psychotic feelings he really hid from me so I could love the outside of him... Not the crazy man he was within.

         Jyunhu brought up the knife and this made me loosen my grip on his hand, resulting him to suddenly hold on to my arm and pull himself up to try and kill. He brought up the knife again and swung the blade and at that moment... I knew he wasn't trying to kill himself... It was me.

       I let go of him and he fell. His eyes widened as the knife slipped from his hands. He kept his hands reaching out to me as if he was shocked I was able to see through his plan. I watched him plunder down the long drop of the third floor and down onto the rocky shores. Causing me to watch in fear while he landed on the rocky shores below... I heard his bones crack from far down. Just then, he was lifeless before me, gazing up and no longer breathing. Yoon Jyunhu was gone forever...

Present

              Jungkook still held the knife in his hands. The knife that Jyunhu tried to kill Jungkook with. He didn't know what the boy went through and what else he could have possibly done. But at the end, Jungkook lived and Jyunhu was the one that fell to his death.

          "He's been missing... For so long in everyone's eyes... But I know he isn't ever coming back. His father knows too. That's why the landlord and I can't get along." Jungkook whispered as Jimin wished he was free so he could hug his lover close but all he could do was stare at Jungkook. "I... Killed him... Now I wish I could have pulled him up and healed him in his mind. But I pushed him off for trying to kill me. Even if I didn't love him... I should have told him I did so he wouldn't be dead. So he could travel the world happily and smile again but it's all my fault. I'm a killer.." Jungkook cried and started to have his usual breakdowns of guilt when he'd look back and think of ways to save him.

           "Jungkook..." Jimin said as the boy shook his head.

            "No... No don't call out to me... I've made a mistake.. I-I shouldn't keep you here. Save yourself from me and leave.. Travel the world and leave me behind. It's for the best." Jungkook added and quickly  cut the rope with the knife as Jimin was set free. "I don't want to repeat history.." Jungkook whispered as Jimin rubbed his wrists and threw his arms around Jungkook to hug him. Wanting to comfort him like always.

           "You did what you had to do to survive..." Jimin whispered to the boy as Jungkook dropped the knife and held Jimin close on the bed.

           "H-He... Still haunts me to this day.. He sleeps by me when I'm alone and I talk to him through the sea but all he does is stares at me and gets jealous whenever you're around me... I never want to leave this place because I know if I do, I'll forget about him and he'll watch me leave him." Jungkook cried. "He didn't leave me and I don't want to leave him... I can't bring myself to do it! I.. Took his name and his identity." Jungkook whispered to Jimin as the older looked at his lover and softly caressed the back of Jungkook's head. "Everyone sees me as Yoon Jyunhu and knows Jungkook is no more. That's why they are quick to say things like 'He's in a relationship with a ghost.'  'He's a freak..' 'Before when Jungkook was alive.. It was cute. Now it's just weird Jyunhu dates beyond the grave' I can't stand their judging eyes!"

             "Jungkook, look at me..." Jimin said as the younger looked at Jimin in the eyes.  "It's okay... You can come with me.. It's better to move on so he knows you'll enjoy life and still think of him.

             "Jimin... No... I can't... Jyunhu is a jealous boy." Jungkook whispered and softly kissed Jimin's cheek. "I'll let you go.. Ignore me if you have to just leave and go enjoy life. I'll take my punishment and stay here forever with him.. Stay with my mask on and go by Yoon Jyunhu for the rest of my life. Ignore me and go live life to the fullest. His father knows I'm not his son..he sends me letters to try and convince me to stop but I ignore it..he only lets me because he knows I'm hurting. But you? I can't let you see me like this... Ignore me and leave..."

          "I can't ignore you..." Jimin whispered and cupped Jungkook's teary face to softly kiss the boy again. "You're my Jungkook... My strong Jungkookie. I won't ignore you because I love you. Love is something to treasure.. Not to ignore.."