Chapter 39: It's complicated

           "W-What are we?" Jimin thought in his head. He was sure that Jungkook was lost at this question too. Thinking Jimin knew the answer to but sadly, he didn't. Neither of them did and now they were confused on each other. The two never thought this would become of them after such a pleasuring intercourse together.

            "Well..?" Jungkook asked pointing his attention towards the older man who was silent on the question. "Answer me, Jimin..." Jungkook whispered. He didn't like that Jimin grew silent when he would ask a question. Even during sex, Jimin would dodge them like nothing!

           "I don't know..." Jimin responded looking out to the sunset with Jungkook. "We can't be a couple... That's only if we have feelings for each other." Jimin said. Still holding his one-sided love for the boy.

              "I doubt friends do this too..." Jungkook added onto Jimin's comment and patted the bed softly while letting out a sigh. "So we aren't friends either..."

             "We're somewhat in between... Either we continue what we do here just for pleasure... Or never talk about this again and stay as friends."

             "Jimin... What if I want this too? It felt... Good to me and I don't want that to stop. Yet, I wish we'd still be friends." Jungkook mentioned as Jimin began to think of the relationship between the man and woman from the film they watched together.

            "Just like that movie, huh? Friends with benefits?" Jimin asked. Going along with anything he can have just to stay in Jungkook's life, kiss him and allow his touches like a couple. But still give Jungkook time to think about his feelings to come out as a friend.

            "O-Oh... Yes. Ah, Jimin I'm sorry I did this..." Jungkook apologized but deep down he had no regrets and didn't mean it. He just displayed a perfect and sweet tone to his voice whenever he talked to Jimin. It was enough to make Jimin believe Jungkook was still a little pure in his heart.

            "Don't apologize~ I know what you can pull off in bed so don't act so sweet!~" Jimin giggled and nudged Jungkook while they were sitting closer together and gazing at the sun that was setting now. Just seconds before sunset, Jungkook pulled Jimin into a kiss and held him in his embrace. Almost making Jimin wish this was out of love. The older was slowly getting obsessed with Jungkook like this and knew he would have to tone it down eventually. Just so things wouldn't get too toxic.              Jungkook caressed Jimin's face into the deep kiss while he layed Jimin down on the bed and kept kissing him. "Then... What we do here is just between us... Okay? I know I won't go off telling everyone since I'm a loner... But you... You shouldn't tell anyone my name to begin with." Jungkook instructed Jimin as the man tilted his head.

            "It's obvious you live up here... Do you want everyone to believe those stupid rumors?" Jimin asked, cupping Jungkook's face in his soft and small hands.
         
            "What... Rumors...? There's no rumors.." Jungkook whispered as he looked at Jimin. Stopping Jimin's words before he could continue. "Enough about that... Just don't mention me to anyone. Not even Taehyung. I don't care how close you are to him but please don't. You mentioned me to him before... But now, don't. Understand?"

            "But the rumors are abou-" Jimin said until Jungkook kissed Jimin passionately. Pressing his lips against Jimin's and cutting off what Jimin had to say on purpose. Jungkook pulled his lips away to place his finger over Jimin's lip and hushed the man silently with a raspy and low hush.

          "Shhh... Don't need to speak about it..." Jungkook concluded before kissing Jimin again. This was something Jimin questioned and he knew Jungkook hid something. But now, Jimin wasn't going to wait to ask.
             
           "What are you hiding from me, Jeon Jungkook?" Jimin whispered in between the kiss making Jungkook stop and look at the older.

            "What do you mean, Jimin? I'm not hiding anything! I'm just the way you want me to be. Normal and not hiding a thing. Very open and free to tell you everything." Jungkook added with a smile and caressed Jimin's cheek. "Should we go back to cooking so we could finish up the film? We had to cut it short for that 'you-know-what' session." Jungkook added. So quick to change the conversation.

             "You just changed the conversation... And you never tell me about a thing even if you hide it... Is
it really that secretive and life changing to keep from a friend?" Jimin asked as Jungkook sat back on the bed and gazed at Jimin to tilt his head.

             "-with benefits. Don't forget that one." The boy corrected Jimin and suddenly his gaze changed from sweet and innocent to possessive and sly. "Park Jimin... I can't tell you why But just don't mention me to anyone. I don't like it."

            "Am I... Really to ignore what's on your mind? Jungkook..."

            "If you want to ignore it. Ignore it. If you want to waste your time completing the puzzle, go ahead. But I'll stay silent. I just... Can't tell anyone since, I'm not ready to do that. Even going outside scares me. In reality, I don't know if I can bring myself to leave this apartment in time for the festival." Jungkook confessed making Jimin look down. Growing upset.   

          "But you said you would... Did you just lie so I wouldn't leave you? Why are you so insecure on that too?" Jimin spoke without thinking as Jungkook tapped the fingertips of his fingers against each other as he gazed to the window, got off the bed just to look out to the sea again. "I have to answer to you but you can't to me?"

            "Jimin, I didn't say I would end up not going.... I could try but I just told you not to have high hopes about it... And.. I didn't answer because I was listening. Yes I'm insecure on you leaving... But what's so wrong about that? I have every reason to worry." Jungkook added as Jimin listened to Jungkook. Hearing out the younger and finally understanding what he meant. "Did you forget that you are my only friend?"

           "I'm... Sorry. I was just a little upset." Jimin confessed as Jungkook let out a sigh, followed by a cute smile.

            "That's okay. If we argue on the little things. We'll mend them." Jungkook stated. Jimin then smiled gazing up at Jungkook. "Even if I keep a little secret, isn't that still okay? We all have secrets in life and choose not to mention them. Do you have a secret?" Jungkook asked as Jimin nodded. "Alright. So I guess we are on the same page now, Jimin!" Jungkook chuckled and looked out to the sea, opening up the window to hear the sounds of the waves crash onto the shore at night. "The tides are rising." Jungkook added with such a happy smile, gazing at the froth that washed up at the rocky shore like a child opening a gift on Christmas day.          

        Jimin walked up to Jungkook to gaze out to the sea together. Jimin did have a secret and it was his love for Jungkook  that he held back from saying. Just so when the time comes, he could confess his love on the right time. However, he held back and took any title he could get like friends with benefits. Jungkook rested his head on the palms of his hands while gazing out to the sea with Jimin, feeling the older lean his head on Jungkook's shoulder. Displaying such a beautiful couple image to Jimin. But to Jungkook, he thought of it as a friendly thing Jimin would always do when it came to soft moments like these so the least Jungkook could do was return the favor.

           Jungkook wrapped his arm around Jimin and brought him close into a hug and allowed Jimin to rest his head on his chest softly. This made Jimin gaze up at the younger and sigh to himself. "Ah... Jungkook if only you understood that I want to love you... But this patience thing is killing me slowly..." Jimin thought, watching the moonlight bounce off Jungkook's glistening eyes. "I love you." Jimin whispered to himself, mouthing the words and hardly making a sound.

Jungkook suddenly looked back at Jimin, feeling that Jimin moved his jae to mouth the words yet Jungkook was only confused. "Did you... Say something?"
         
            "Oh... No I was only yawning." Jimin lied and kept his gaze out to the sea. "Only yawning." Jimin sighed to himself. Feeling glum slowly weighing him down from just holding a one-sided love.

            "Hey Jimin?" Jungkook called out as Jimin instantly looked up.

            "Y-Yes?"

            "Do you... Want to stay here with me for the night? You don't have to if you don't want to. I figured you're already here and you do look comfortable. So won't you stay? We can do whatever you like. Cook, finish watching the film and sleep together if you'd like... All up to you." Jungkook suggested causing Jimin to smile and nod his head excitingly. Only making his heart throb even more for Jeon Jungkook.

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