Whewwwww...

This has been a...very wacko month.

Got home from a vacation and my sister went straight to the hospital... She's back now tho...slow recovery road ahead

Thank u for your guys' patience, vote if u enjoy :]

(Above is a sKetchhh of this scene lol...unfinished, but I might finish it later??)

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RECAP

     As my thoughts wandered in a more pleasant direction, that old darkness began to have other thoughts. Before I was ready, it again appeared in the corners of my vision, preparing to force back the memories I had blocked out of pain and fear, out of guilt and anguish. Quickly spreading over my sight, enveloping my body and chest, my heart with cold, it again forced me into unconsciousness, opening again into another place I remembered...one I did not want to remember...

     Steeling myself, I gave up my body and mind to the memories. No matter how I resisted...I could not escape... Until I had remembered everything from my past...

     ...I would be trapped...captive in my own mind...

     ...until I awoke, burdened with every last ugly detail of my former life.

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My Long Ago...

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HEROBRINE'S POV

     Run...

     All I could do was run...

     Throat burning as I gasped in air, heart pounding as my feet slammed against the ground.

     Run.

     Energy gathered deep in my chest, and I threw my body into the void, out again, nearly slamming into a tree.

     Run.

     The end of this floating isle was coming up quickly, so I teleported again, to another island not far away.

     Running, running.

     He was dead...it was all my fault... My worst fears had made themselves known, had become my reality. I couldn't control the gift of the immortals...

     Run.

     No forgiveness would wrap me in an embrace of mercy...punishment would rain down on my deserving head from above, I knew it.

     I knew it, and yet, I still ran.

     Fear coursed through my veins along with my blood, driving me to again use my cursed, limitless energy as I threw myself into the void, out again. Regret and guilt and physical pain beat through my heart, causing tears to flood and sting my eyes, roll down my face in streams of agonizing grief.

     Run.

     He was gone...he was gone. My brother, my steady foundation, my fellow-creation...gone, dead. His once-joyful eyes were now glazed, forever staring at a wall his two hands had made, his body lay in a pool of his own blood...

     ...a pool I had made.

     No longer would he breathe the pure air of the world he lived in. No longer could he create and discover and learn alongside me. No longer would I hear his laughter, see a smile light his face, now pale and cold.

     Run...run...run...

     They would find me before long...I knew it. I couldn't run forever. No matter how limitless my power seemed, it was nothing compared to theirs...compared to his...Notch's.

     I stumbled, felt my knees slam into the unforgiving ground. But before I could register the pain, I was up again.

     They would make my nightmares come true...would take me and berate me and disown my existence. Just like the ground that had just torn up my knees, they would be unforgiving, rightfully so, and they would tear me apart. They would cast me out and lock me away and start over...they would kill me, and I would be forgotten...

     It was what I deserved...but I feared it... I feared death, I feared their punishment and anger.

     How pathetic...I could not face what I had just given an innocent...

     It was the second time I fell, rolling and scrambling to stop before I slipped off the edge of this island...that I came upon an idea. As I laid there, panting, gasping for breath, one of my arms hanging off the side of the hovering chunk of land...my mind formulated a plan.

     I had to flee where none could follow...and erase the only path there...

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     I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...please...please I'm so sorry.

     I was sitting in the most secure room I found, one of several that hadn't crumbled in the quake I had brought down upon the town. I had driven the people out and tore open the ground to swallow up my creator's anchor. Börja...the first city of the humans... I had laid waste to it, I had driven away its people, kept them away from their safety for my selfish goals, to preserve my undeserving life...

     Fire and lightning...I had used elements created by Notch himself to drive them away...and I had killed even more of Notch's own so I could keep myself safe. They had fled for the hills surrounding this safe place, out into wild, unexplored, dangerous territory...exactly the opposite of what their creator wanted them to have to do.

     Why...why was I even created...

     My arms were wrapped about knees pulled up to my chest, my face hidden. I rocked back and forth, back and forth as the awful reminders assaulted me day after day, night after night, driving me to insanity.

     Murderer...

     Merciless...

     Killer...

     Disgusting...

     Undeserving...

     Coward...

     An agonized cry tore from my throat as my hands clawed at my face, my head. The accusations were true, so true, and yet every one drove a dagger of fresh grief into my heart, over and over again, ripping open that sensitive wound, driving deeper and deeper until I could stand it no more...

     Unforgivable...

     Demon...

     Heartless...

     Unworthy...

     Selfish...

     I released another wail, feeling my body hit the ground, and I curled up.

     I couldn't stand it anymore...the memories kept replaying...over and over and over... Every time I closed my eyes, I saw his face, I saw those who had lost their lives defending their home, and I regretted my decision to preserve my own life. I could no longer live with myself...

     ...and yet I was too afraid to return to those who could take my life. As far as I knew, I could not be killed, certainly not by my own hands.

     I lifted my head a little, smacked it into the ground, wishing for something...anything...to take these voices away...

     ...and the answer came to me. I had been given excellent command over the mind, according to my creator. Could I not use this to my advantage? I had tested it but little...

     ...but I had to try.

     So, gathering my pathetic form off the floor, where I had lain for who knew how long, I set about forcing myself to go back, find and gather, mark all the memories I wished to fade...

     One after another I relived them, one after another, the memories tore me up inside again, and the accusations continued to flow through my head. I gathered them all up and began to build a wall in my mind, a solid wall with no cracks. It hurt...the process hurt, and I cried out many times, agonized over quitting for hours on end as I tried to deal with the splitting ache.

     And one at a time, my memories began to vanish.

     Before I took them all away, I took blood from a body killed in the quake I brought upon the town...and wrote my name directly above where I knew I would hopefully wake up...just in case...

     And then, laying myself down, head throbbing, I closed my eyes and finished the wall, finished ripping away my humanity. Even my emotions were severed from my very being, locked away with my memories...

     ...and when my eyes opened again...nothing remained but anger.

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     Again, I awoke with a gasp.

     The sounds of my breathing and the heartbeat of a human echoing about the small cave grounded me, reminded me of my whereabouts. A soft groan left my throat, one that didn't nearly describe the pulsing agony in my head. How long had I been out now...how long had she been left without care, trapped alone in this place with her captor...

     A shuffle came from beside me, a little cough.

     "H-Herobr'n..."

     I flinched a little at how worn her voice sounded, how dry. She needed food and water immediately, before my memories forced me into sleep again, revealed the past I had locked away. Why did I suddenly care so much...?

     "A-Ava..."

     "Hey..."

     With that, she sat up, grunting quietly. Her breaths became smaller, quicker, as she rose, experienced the pain I had wrought upon her when I lamed her all those years ago. She appeared in the corner of my vision, looking tired, pale, thin. Her hair, now long and shining from the light of my eyes, fell tangled before her face. Her clothes were dirty and wrinkled from the cave she now was forced to sleep in, one she would never have chosen to spend the night within. Dark circles were beneath her eyes...though the tiniest of smiles still graced her lips.

     Such bravery from one so weak...

     "H-how long...have I been asleep."

     "Mm...not sure. Seems like a long time since I ate the food you brought here...thank you."

     Choosing to not waste energy on words, I stretched out my hand, forming the least amount of energy possible, in order to go undetected, and drew in food from a source not too far away. It smelled like cooked rabbit...and from what little I could see; it was on a wooden plate. A wooden cup of water accompanied it.

     There must have been a camp of sorts nearby...

     "Thanks..."

     "Don't mention it...please."

     As she sat up a little more, hurriedly taking and downing the water, I gathered my strength to speak again, feeling it beginning to return, strangely enough, "A-are you cold."

     Her voice held embarrassment when she spoke again, "Not at the moment. You're...very warm. I had t' lie down really close t' keep from freezing..."

     I grimaced a little, "I confess...I forgot winter was approaching... I can summon a blanket f-for you now..."

     "No...I'm alright. Save your strength."

     "W-will you not be cold?"

     "I'm alright now... I wanted you t' save your strength...and tell me um..."

     "Yes...?"

     "...what exactly are we running from? Why did you flee?"

     Her small hand gestured to my prone form, a frown of concern flitting over her face, "And why are you shaking and crying out and sobbing whenever you fall unconscious?"

     I couldn't help my small flinch, and I forced myself to roll over to my side to face her, wincing as my body protested with sharp aches.

     "Y-you wish to know...my side of the story..."

     Her greenish eyes flicked away, slight guilt in their depths.

     "Yes..."

     "...I hardly know anything about you, despite being...well...kind of your prisoner for nearly a month or so now."

     "You are not my prisoner... Y-you..."

     Her eyes held a slight sadness, "Then...what am I to you? You've saved me, after wanting to kill me...let me live despite what you did to other humans... I'm not a pet right—?"

     "You are no pet!!"

     A soft shiver wracked her body, mouth thinning a little at my outburst.

     And, panting, I continued, "You are no prisoner, nor are y-you a pet, huma...I mean, Ava. Y-you...you are m-my..."

     "Your what?"

     "M-my proof...that I am n-not a monster...that I...I c-can be better than who I was."

     She took another gulp of her water, swiping the back of her hand over her mouth, eyes still not meeting mine.

     "So...you're trying t' change then?"

     "Yes... A-as soon as I can stand again...I am taking you out of here and handing you over to someone who c-can care for you better than I. Y-you will not get in the crossfire o-of my past...that pain i-is for me alone to bear."

     "I still...want to know what happened t' you. It might...help me make sense o-of what you did."

     A sigh passed my lips, "Humans...ever the curious creatures..."

     I was rewarded with a slight chuckle from her, encouraging me to again draw breath, prepare myself to speak.

     "It began...w-when I was first created..."

     Ava quickly tugged her legs closer, wrapping her arms about her knees as she began to eat the food I had provided. The slightest hint of a smile ghosted over my face as she did so, before my eyes looked past her, my mind becoming distant.

     "Humans...they are born, they grow up and learn and discover... For me, it was different. I just...came into existence."

     Ava nodded, eyes fastened on mine with rapt attention as I continued, "I didn't...exactly know what had happened. It was like I had...woken up, but I remembered nothing prior to it. I didn't quite understand until...the creator approached me, put his hand on m-my shoulder...and spoke the first words I ever heard."

     Ava's eyes grew rounder.

     "He said...' welcome, little one, to the Aether'."

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soOO I tried something different with this chapter lul...five spaces' indintation instead of ten... Ten takes....a long time

Also, this chapter has to be broken into two parts...or I wouldn't be able to get any of it out lul

Vote if you liked it!! Fallen Honor will likely be the next update, we're getting so CLOSE to the end of it!