Ichimatsu's POV

...When I think back to it, life was dull when I wasn't around Jyushimatsu. For some stupid reason he found it in his huge heart to want to spend all his time with trash like me. Still, I'm not saying I'm not great full or anything. I mean, I get a weird feeling when I'm around him...For some reason I always find myself smiling. I guess it's just something that always came with Jyushimatsu. A smile. I mean, I don't think it was always this way....No, even someone like Jyushimatsu has his fair share of harmful memories...

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(( Matsuno brothers first year of high school))
"Oi, It's time to get going Jyushimatsu." I grumbled in my normal tone as I softly shook my snoring brother. It was odd that he wasn't up and yelling by now.

"Jyushimatsu," I went on beginning to softly poke around his cheek causing the sleepy Jyushimatsu to let out a slurred giggle and slowly open up his eyes.

"Hm?" He asked as his normal opened mouthed smile tugging onto his lips.
"It's morning. If you don't hurry up we're going to be late." I said softly allowing myself to sit next to him beginning to hug my own knees. I didn't know why but that smile of his always managed to make me feel so odd...

"Ahh! Good point Nii-San!" Jyushimatsu said throwing himself out of his bed beginning to run around the room to collect his things. I sighed relaxing against the floor with a light chuckle. My little brother was just too cute.
As Jyushimatsu continued to scatter himself about the house I decided It'd be best to roll up the futon. I then began to work not noticing Jyushimatsu watching me at the door. Then, the floor creaked below him causing me to look up from what I was doing.

"Hm, what is it Jyushimatsu...?" I asked continuing to pack up the futon.

"I-I need Nii-San to look away..." he stuttered hiding into his striped Pj sleeves.
It was rare for Jyushimatsu to act nervous so it always caught me off guard.

"Eh? Why?" I asked gulping to try and keep my composure.

"Cause, I-I need to get changed and stuff..." he mumbled beginning to shuffle his body back and fourth. I felt my face heat up.
'Damnit, why am I blushing now of all times?! I'm being too obvious.' I found myself thinking before catching Myself. 'Obvious about what...?' I questioned before realizing I had Dosed off.
"O-Oh sure." I agreed with a stiff nod. I didn't mean to stutter but it was hard to remain blank when he was acting like this. I continued to pack up the futon not looking behind me. I wouldn't want to make Jyushimatsu upset by peeking

"Ahaha, Thanks Nii-San!~" Jyushimatsu giggled in that care free tone of his. I heard his heavy footsteps as he walked around the room doing what he had to do. Specifically getting into our school uniforms.

"Mhm..." I nodded in response looking down at the closet as Jyushimatsu began to hum. I sighed and smiled. School always sucked but at least I'd go by easier with Jyushimatsu by his side.

~ Timeskip Presented by Admin~

Well, I was right. We ended up being late. Still, out of the brothers I opted out to walk to school with Jyushimatsu while the others ran. Choromatsu always had this thing about trying to keep perfect attendance. Whatever, I didn't really care about any of that stuff...

Jyushimatsu noticed me in deep thought causing him to tilt his head. "Hm? Whatcha thinking about Nii-San?" He asked. His voice shining with curiousness.

"Hm? Oh, it's nothing..." I murmured not wanting to worry him. He nodded. His large smile never once fading from his face.

"Ne...Jyushimatsu?" I asked turning to face him. To which he turned towards me.

"Hm? What is it Nii-San?" He asked eagerly. The ahoge on his head swinging back and fourth like a puppy dog tail.

"Why are you always smiling?" I asked lightly tracing my fingers around the corners of his lips. When he averted my eyes I pulled away quickly coming to the realization that I must have must have made him nervous or uncomfortable again.

"Ahaha, W-Well-" he giggled taking a pause. He was blushing....
"I'm just really happy whenever I get to spend time with you Nii-San!" Jyushimatsu admitted boldly.

"O-Oh, is that so...?" I stuttered looking away. 'Damnit, I shouldn't have asked!' I mentally scolded myself feeling my heart pumping hard in my chest. I knew these feelings weren't ok...So I had to scold myself for feeling them. After all, Jyushimatsu is my precious little brother...Nothing more.

"Hehe, Yup!" Jyushimatsu said latching onto my arm and holding it into a cutesy embrace. "Because I love my Nii-San!" He said grinning up at me sweetly. He looked shorter now that he was bent down to hold my arm. I never realized how adorable that was...

"Y-Yeah I love you too Jyushimatsu..." I murmured using my free hand to pet his head. He obviously loved the praise as when I did so his blush spread. I did my best to play it off as brotherly love but he just made things so damn difficult. I had to hold back...After all, Trash like me could never be with someone like Jyushimatsu.

Jyushimatsu hummed a cheerful tune as we began to approach the school district. I noticed that his breaths were fogging. I guess I never really realized how chilly the early spring mornings could get. I sighed and smiled unraveling the scarf which had hung around my neck and placing it around Jyushimatsu's. "Stay warm ok?" I asked not caring that my neck was now cold.

"Yup! Thanks Nii-San!" Jyushimatsu agreed smiling warmly as he dug his face into my scarf's material.

"What are you doing...?" I asked as we approached the gates into school.

"Well, it's really warm, and Nii-San always smells nice!" Jyushimatsu said making me turn away. A small unintentional 'Tch,' sound arising from my lips with a scoff. After all, the others always complained about my smell.

"Y-Yeah whatever," I stuttered. "Hurry up and get to class ok?" I asked not wanting him to be late.

"Right, Right!" Jyushimatsu agreed doing a mock solute before running off doing his usual chanting.

I too began to walk just much further behind now. Since we were so late the halls were basically empty. I looked down at my arm Jyushimatsu had been hugging. His warmth lasting on them. Then, without warning images of Jyushimatsu danced around in my head. I just couldn't wipe Jyushimatsu out of my head... I guess it wasn't a bad thing, but I knew I'd have troubles focusing today.

~ After class~

Once again I was right, I could barely focus on the lesson being taught. Luckily, the teacher hadn't called on me while I stared blankly out of the classroom window. She was probably to scared to anyway...

Suddenly, the bell marking break time went off. I sighed leaning back into my chair. 'Thank god that's over with...' I thought staring up at the roof for a moment before forcing myself to get up and walk towards the doorway. Which like usual, Jyushimatsu was waiting there. It sucked that we weren't in the same classes anymore. He still, came to visit though...Which was nice.

"How was your day...?" I asked to break the silence between us. We had been walk down the halls for a little while now.

"Oh, Mine was great! How about you?" He asked casually.

"Meh...Boring." I murmured.

"Right?!" Jyushimatsu agreed. I was about to ask him why he changed his mind before I realized he probably just said that for the sake of agreeing with me again.

Nothing really seemed out of place for the remainder of the walk. Jyushimatsu and I just chatted about random things we could come up with. Then, we passed by a few senior boys. Without my noticing at first, Jyushimatsu clung onto my arm once more. After a little while I felt him beginning to tremble.

"What's the matter Jyushimatsu?" I asked staring down at my trembling little brother. He just shook his head quickly. I sighed taking the hint that he didn't want to be around those guys. So I quickened my pace causing Jyushimatsu to as well. Once we were out of the older boy's ear shot I tried asking again.

"Did something happen between you and them?" I asked rephrasing my question. Jyushimatsu began to tap his hands together indicating to me that he was hesitating.

This made me angry, why couldn't he tell me? We always told each other everything ever since we were just kids! I began to grit my teeth. "Jyushimatsu...Tell me." I warned not noticing how threatening my tone sounded.

Jyushimatsu began to tremble much harder now. Even his smile was now quivering.

"Jyushimatsu!" I demanded pinning him against the lockers causing a loud bang like sound. Jyushimatsu's cheeks turned dark red. When he attempted to speak out all that came out was a whimper.

"I-I'm sorry Nii-San...." Jyushimatsu whimpered. His tone pleading for release. He then stared up with me. His eyes glazed with tears of guilt.

My eyes widened as I realized what I had been doing. "Sorry." I said stiffly pulling away and stuffing my hands into my pant pockets. 'What the hell are you thinking?! Don't scare him like that!' I scolded myself biting my lip. I turned around to face him causing Jyushimatsu to flinch as if he were expecting me to turn around and hit him.

To this, I was stunned. 'Is he....scared of me?' I thought feeling something within me shattering. With a trembling hand I slowly reached over to Jyushimatsu and pet his head. "Please don't be scared of me..." I begged. I didn't want him to think of me the same way everyone else did. I wanted to be special to him, but the fear in his eyes was the same fear that anyone who opposed me had had in there's. Even my own mother. I had now bitten my lip to the point of drawing blood...Not that I cared though.

"N-No, it's not your fault Ichimatsu Nii-San!" Jyushimatsu insisted trying to sound encouraging. I sighed and pulled him into a soft hug.

"Liar..." I whispered to myself. It was my fault.

"I'm sorry Jyushimatsu...I was just scared...I lost control of my anger." I explained not caring about the weird looks people walking by gave us.

"I know, I-It's ok! I was just a little frightened for a second because I don't like Ichimatsu being mad at me!" Jyushimatsu exclaimed pressing back into the hug.

I felt relief flood my body. With a lazy smile I used my free hand to continue petting his head.

"After all, I love Ichimatsu Nii-San so I'd be sad if he hated me!" Jyushimatsu concluded with a warm innocent smile.

This Caused me to freeze up. 'Damnit, there he goes again with that love stuff...' I thought pulling away from the hug.

"R-...Right I love you too..." I murmured beginning to walk. I turned back signalling he should follow.

Jyushimatsu's eyes lit up with joy. "Hurray! Ichimatsu Nii-San loves me too!" He exclaimed following after me with a childish hum.

I sighed and smiled. I guess it was ok...After all, Jyushimatsu was still mentally a child so I was sure he didn't mean anything by it.

However, I was DEAD wrong.

End of part One~

( A/N)
Hey guys it's Admin here! Don't worry, this is only part one of chapter one! The Yandere shit will kick in next time ;)

Still, I wanted to post a little something just to make sure you guys know I haven't given up on writing this story!

Special thanks to Rynnymatsu- who inspired me to continue writing! You're the best Bb!

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