Closer~

I think during the time my abusive boyfriend started to really hurt me and betray me, we got closer. I started to open up more to you and get closer to you. I fell in love with you. I had lost all hope with my abusive boyfriend, I lost all feelings towards him, except I gained a new emotion, hate. I wanted to end my relationship with my abusive boyfriend, I knew it was never going to get better, but I was terrified that if I tried, he would hurt me, possibly kill me. I wanted to be with you so badly that it killed me to keep pretending that I still had feelings for my abusive boyfriend. But I felt like we were growing closer, and that kept me going and me mentally sane. I just had to be patient.