To my bff and literally my everything http-Penguin

Now the thing above is literally most of my thoughts but there is more that I haven't mentioned.

You make me love life. You make everything so fucking amazing it's literally insane. You may just text me for 5 minutes but it makes my day.

You are the only person that has ever put a smile on my face every time that I've ever texted you.

I hate only one thing about you, and that's how lowly you think of yourself, because you are the best fucking person I know (sorry everyone else) you make everything amazing. I'll be super depressed and you just saying "hi" will change me into a happy mood

And now that your cancer may go away I want to spend every second near you, I no longer want to be so distant, and constantly in fear that one day you won't be around

I've dreaded the thought so much I've tried so hard to forget about you. So it wouldn't hurt so much if you died (that's fucked up ik) But, I had to come by now and again and tell you how I felt

And hearing that I made your day made me so happy. You're just so awesome it's crazy

Now I'll say it again, that your cancer is going away I'm just seeing one thing

My friend won't leave me

Because without you I'd be loosing the biggest piece of me. The one person that can make me explode into happiness by one word

No one has this affect on me so this is crazy. You say that you don't deserve me and honestly that's true. I'm honestly a pretty bar person in life, and I regret so many things I've done for being so mean.

It's just you make me want to be a good person, because I know I don't and never will deserve such a person as you

And if I was to ever hurt you I'd be fine with you leaving me because I just want you to be happy

That's all I've ever wanted for you, was to be this healthy happy guy

And you're so fucking strong. You're battling your own thoughts, others, and a diseased and you're overcoming it all

I'm complaining about homework while you have everything against you

Which is so unfair because you deserve the world.

Today when we were texting I checked my phone every minute hoping you responded like I was a teenage girl thinking I'd be asked out by the person I liked.

You just have this amazing affect on me and I don't ever want to loose that.

I never want to loose you Ozzy, even loosing you for a hour is hard

So loosing you forever would be destroying, I love you so fucking much and if you EVER need something I'm here