Last year, on April 1st, 2015, I had arrived home from my part-time job as a babysitter on the otherside of town. I was a freshman in highschool, and was absolutely normal. I had a small job as a babysitter, kept good grades, and had the most beautiful boyfriend named Xavier. (That is not his actual name, as he hated revealing his actual name on the internet. I'm respecting his wishes and keeping his actual name private.) I had begun my studying for the day when my phone rang. It was Xavier's sister Gennie, or Gennifer. I answered it, thinking she just wanted to come over and have some help on her homework.

I was dead wrong.

She was sobbing. I had asked what was going on, she told me the one thing I never thought I'd hear.

Akari/Eryn, it's about Xaiver. There was a hit-and-run, and he didn't make it.
Xavier's gone, Akari/Eryn. Someone killed him.
He's dead.

My world had shattered. I've known him my whole life. Since we were three, we were always together. We did everything together.

He was my first love, my first kiss, and my first sad heartbreaking end to something great. He was my first friend. My first true love. He was taken away from me.

The next few days were difficult.  They explained what happened over the intercom the next day at school, and I broke down when they mentioned me and him and our relationship. No one knew how to comfort me, and they just left me alone. I was given time off from school work, so I babysitted the kids I usually babysitted more often, as they didn't know what was going on. My family, which was just me, my stepmom and my two stepbrothers Jack & Lawrence (my father left when I was eight and my actual mom died before I could even talk.) was trying there hardest to comfort me. They gave me video games and a Netflix account, and things I had always adored. Anime and Manga were most of the stuff they gave me.

About a week after his death, i was given everything inside his locker. One of the items was a picture of us cosplaying as Levi and Petra the year before and Eren and Mikasa before that year at Halloween. I loved the show, as he did. He probably already knows how the show will end.

Then his funeral. It was the hardest thing ever. I had trouble socializing with his relatives. Gennie was there with me, tho. And then the school year came to an end about a month or two later. I had decided to transfer schools, as it brought back to many memories.

I know he is watching me from above, and that he is alright.

I miss you.

My dearest Xavier.

-Akari/Eryn

† RIP †

January 24th, ——  -  April 1st, 2015

Lost but never forgotten.