A/N:

Hey everyone! Welcome back to To My Dearest... Now I just want to tell you right now before shit drops, okay? This is not an update nor a chapter, so if you don't want to read this note, you can go ahead and skip it all and move along with your day. XD I don't mind, I feel like I'm just gonna rant here anyway.

Okay... Now, who ever is still actually here to read this note, thanks for reading To My Dearest, and all your support up to this point. I want to thank everyone who gave in suggestions, voted and commented on this story.

Now, forgive me for being mushy in the next few paragraphs here, and just a trigger warning, that I will be talking about depression and suicide so please read with care.

People who had asked to remain anonymous, have been asking me why I wrote this particular story and why the plot was just so crazy and unbelievable. 

And here's the reason to my frequent updates on this story, and why I just don't want to let it go yet. 

Like Sakura in this story, if you all remember the chapter where Eisuke found her in the bathroom collapsed, I suffer from depression. Not many people know about this, and not even my closest friends.

I suffer from depression. I cut myself. I am suicidal.

And that's a part of me no one but me knows. But now all of you do.

I can't speak for all of us here, but I just want you to know that no matter what, even if it's just the smallest thing, I'm here for you. And if you once ever consider to kill yourself, think about everyone.

Think about all the people who are there for you. The people who care for you. The people who love you.

I love otome and anime and all that shiz, don't get me wrong. But it wasn't the entire thing that kept me alive this whole time on the inside. It was me making my own versions of that.

Being able to make a life that I've always dreamed about, being able to have power to control whatever I want, change whatever I want.

Be whoever I want to be.

And writing, not only to myself, but for you readers... It has changed me, and it has brought me to a brighter path, one that actually... One that I can see a future in.

All your positive comments and words, all the votes you gave and just reading my crappy writing in general. It makes me feel like I'm actually wanted in this world. It makes me feel that I can actually make people smile, help people be happy.

Now for the whole 'Soryu forgetting Sakura' thing. That's also something that happened in my life. Something eerily similar. 

I was once in love with a boy when I was younger. We were the best of friends, and we met in science class. We were partners in almost every science project we had, and we spent as much time as we could together even though we didn't have many classes together.

Even though it was awkward, I had actually asked for the second button of his jacket before I left my home country and moved to Canada, where I lived now. And just like Soryu in the story, he had given the second to someone, not knowing what it actually meant.

I had received the fourth button, and a letter from him on my desk at the end of the day. But once I left for Canada, we still contacted each other through social media but gradually just faded away from each others lives.

And no lie, I am still in love with him to this day but as we grew apart, he naturally found out about my huge crush on him from an old friend of mine who still lived in my home country. And that's one of the biggest reasons we just... Walked away, I suppose.

I found new friends, and he found new ones as well. I had recently found out about his relationship with my old best friend and how they had been together before I left actually, even though my girl best friend knew about my huge crush on him.

It was... heartbreaking, to say the least. But I think with the help of my new friends here, I had been able to get up and move on. And I've recently found another guy who was just perfect. So much better than him.

Hopefully this will work out better than the last, haha.

But yeah, that's the reason I made To My Dearest, because I could relate to it the most. 

I had actually planned writing this for 1 year now, but never had the courage to. I had planned this story way before all my other ones like 'Love Doesn't Count' or 'Broken Perfection' or 'Twisted Two'.

And once more, before I finally do close the book on this story, I just want to say that... Again, if you suffer from depression like I do, don't hesitate to talk to me or anyone you trust because you're important to this world, don't think for a moment you aren't.

You were made by God and you are here for a reason, no matter what others say.

And yeah, sorry if this was really long and boring but whoever stuck around this long, you are a tough nut to crack...

Thanks for reading, wait for the sequel, it'll be up soon! And for the last time ever in this story...

Ciao!

~Dark Angel