A rain shower has now started when I first opened my eyes after a nap, its noise is heard throughout the whole bedroom but it's a noise that I can tell is soothing for me to hear. The sound of the drops of rain is like the glass with the half water inside it, you decide if it's half empty or half full, it's all a matter of perspective, if the drops of rain were noise or music to your ears. For me, it depends whatever my mood is, right now it's a very wonderful music tat delighted my ears once I gained consciousness
when I woke up, it's so gentle yet so heavy but it also yearns me to take a nap again but I have to stop taking naps, my mother taught me that I should not sleep and slack off every single while, we need to make something productive that'll be a step closer to what we want to be someday, but I was a very stubborn child, I guess she wouldn't be proud of me once she sees me slacking my butt off but nevertheless, I lived up to her word, I love to slack but I resist on doing that as best as I can.

The rain continued to pour but it's a good situation for us since we're not at the very top of the building, if we were then we won't be able to hear anything, not even a thought in our heads would be audible enough to hear. I stretched my limbs and headed to the door to check out on Niall who's in the living room but as soon as I heard another form of music, I stopped on my tracks and paused for awhile to hear the sound of a music box and a voice so gentle but loud enough for me to hear. A voice so pure and gentle like the breezy wind with the accompaniment of the music box plus the sound of the rain, I bet this is what heaven sounds like.

Hello, the music is calling me
Let's listen here, outside and hear how splendid it could be.

The voice sung the lyrics of the song but then hummed afterwards, it sounded like a lullaby, lulling me to sleep again, times like this I wish I didn't grew up with my mother's words so I wouldn't feel guilty when I take a rest.

The music box continued to produce music but the angelic voice earlier couldn't be heard anymore other than the hum, following the melody of the music until the music ended and the hum ended as well. I saw Niall putting down the box on the coffee table and closing it along with his eyes and his shoulders rose and let out a deep sigh. I haven't known his whole story about the moving on thing, but it must be really hard for him to sing again since he only remembers the past by doing it.

"Hey" I heard him call out, it was different now that I've known that he has a voice of an angel when he sings, hearing his speaking voice made me feel like something new happened. I stood there while his eyes continued to stare at me without even blinking, I started to get scared. "Did you just got out?" My heart raced and pounded really fast, Niall might react badly if I said that I have because he might not want me to hear him sing.

"Uhmm... Yeah, oh that nap was really helpful though" I stretched once again and moved from where I stood to get near him, trying to act natural since I know I'd fidget because of lying, I was never good at it. I saw him tuck the box inside the pocket of his sweater and rested his body on the couch as if he wasn't doing anything earlier. I sat right beside him and Irish followed a long with his signature waggling tail as he places himself in between me and Niall, his daddy pats his head and it was evident how the puppy loved being patted on the head. "If you don't mind me asking, why does Irish have an injured leg?" I pouted right after my sentence feeling a little sympathetic to the pup.

Niall picked him up from the floor and placed him on his lap and continued to rub his little body. "He got tumbled over by his siblings when they were still newborns and since he was the weakest pup, he broke his bone on the leg region and he's permanently sprained. No one wanted to adopt him since he's injured, and most people don't want to adopt an injured pup of course, so when I came to the animal shelter, there were only three pups left and the two others were most likely to be adopted because their much healthier than Irish who has a broken leg and very thin body but I chose him over the rest, but now, look at him and look at how much he made me happy. I think we're made for each other" he looked down on the ball of fur on his lap and caressed him, I was so touched by their story and it made me a little teary eyed.

"Sorry, I didn't meant to tell th-" I sniffed and fake cried but in the inside, I was really about to break down. Niall is such an angel with an angelic face and an angelic voice.

"My heart" I continued to make noises and touched my chest, it hit me right in the feels, it was such a touching story. "Stop being so kind, Niall, you'll end up getting hurt"

"I'm not kind, I just really want to help out those who need help the most, that's how I lived the rest of my life, to serve those who are in need"

"You're making me cry" He laughed on what I said but I didn't find the funny side at all, he was really torturing my heart with all the good deeds he's done, it makes me feel guilty because of how horrible of a person I am especially that I'm tasked to kill someone, hell I am such a demon.

"Irish has been a bad boy earlier, I think he was chewing some sort of paper with scribbles, I don't even know where he got it since I just swept the floor yesterday" just as Niall said that, I remembered something. My crying heart hesitated on crying and beating, my whole body froze and my eyes went wide, my breathing became uneven and I'm sure that I was sitting right next to Niall looking like a statue. I didn't knew what to do, if I should or should not stand up and frantically find it because chances are, that's the paper Irish was chewing. The paper with Sheryl's number is already inside Irish's stomach.

"Where's the paper?" I asked with a shaky voice.

"Some parts were eaten and I threw the rest on the bin"

"Fuck" I cursed and stood then ran quickly to wherever the bin is but I found nothing but a clean bin.

"I already threw the garbage outside, is there something wrong?" Niall asked and I just slapped my hand on my face because of my idiocy, I left it somewhere around here when I was getting Niall a glass of water this morning. I groaned in frustration and I never felt this disappointed in myself, I'm so hopeless. I just assured Niall that I didn't had any problem at all but then out of nowhere, he just said the words I dreaded a lot that I am pretty sure he would insist me to do. "By the way, my friend scheduled you on a meeting on the local police station so the investigation of whom stole your things woukd be quick" I got rankled instantly at Niall he shouldn't be doing this and most especially not dipping into my situation, he could have just stayed silent and everything but no! He called someone who can call the authorities about the stolen things but he just can't understand it.

"Niall!"

"Why? That's my surprise" he said with a smile but I didn't knew what my face looks like right now when his expression dropped and curiosity was on his face. "Is there something wrong?"

"Argh! You can't understand, why do you have to do that, Niall? You could have just left the business to me"

"I was trying to help, you're not making a move and effort to find your things again, I thought maybe I could help since you're in a foreign country"

"Look-" I sighed and tried to cool off,my hands were in my waist and breathed in water slowly, the rain seems to keep getting stronger. "I really appreciate your efforts, Niall, I really do, but you need to stop helping me, the least you can do is to let me stay here in your flat for a couple of days, you didn't have to report"

"Why not? Victoria, what would your parents say about it when they find out that you got robbed? Ju-"

"Niall, just-"

"I'm doing all this for you now and the least you can do is to help yourself too by cooperating with me and-"

"Niall, just shut the fuck up please!" I was starting to get irritated and annoyed, he's pushing me too much. It wasn't really necessary for him to do that, what am I even supposed to do now? I'm revealed too much right now and I would most likely to fail my mission if Niall's not gonna shut up about finding the authorities and the robbed things, he needs to stop doing this.

"-and I really want it to be reported so the both of us can go back to our normal lives and you would get to enjoy your vacation, not living here in the same roof as I am because you ended up homeless along your trip" the tone of his voice was weird and it made his sentence sound like he's not happy about me being here, he could have put that off nicely and asked me to leave if he's not happy about me disturbing him and making his head ache for taking care of me, I can handle myself, why did I even accepted his offer to stay? I knew someone wouldn't be that nice, everyone has an attitude and a mask, he's just like Mr. Minami, they're no different from each other. My whole body started to shake, the cold temperature didn't bother me anymore because my whole body is boiling with anger, not to mention that I am still on my period.

I was right all along, he was a wolf wearing a sheep's costume to appear all nice and pure but deep inside, he's a douche. First, he's talking about how much he wanted to help, I really appreciate that and I love that but now he's just helping me since he's pissed off and wants me to get a damn home so I can finally leave him alone in his apartment. If that's what he wants, I'm easy to deal with, I can fucking leave.

I didn't hesitated to do what I wanted to do right then and there, I passed through him and accidentally bumped his shoulder. I headed through the door and exited his room, I hear my name getting called with that same voice asking me where I was suppose to head off. "Go back to your normal life 'cause I'm leaving!" I shouted but didn't want to turn around to see what his reaction is.

I got in the elevator and as soon as it reached the ground, I quickly walked towards the exit and made my way outside and started to feel the cold rain drops touching my skin, my clothes got drenched in just a few seconds standing here outside the apartment building, I didn't want to get drenched any further and so I rushed to wherever there is a roof I can stay on.

I ended up on the same park as to where Niall found me sleeping but I can't remember how far I walked to get through here, I can feel my body freezing up because of the strong wind along with the rain, I couldn't stand to walk or move any longer but all I did was approach the bench where I sat on the other day and cried because of how cold it is, what's the point of sheltering myself? I'm gonna end up dead here before I even knew it.

This is it, this is the time where I will really die now, I only got some extensions but I know I'm gonna die now. There's no point in living now, I give up, I know anyone else who knows what I'm going through will tell me that I'm such a weak person but what can I do? I am really weak, I can't even manage to make myself stay alive how can I even manage to do my mission to change my parents' lives for the better if I can't even handle my own. I'm stupid and such a disappointment, I already have the answer and the solution for my problem but I neglected about it and the paper that can save my life just got eaten by a dog, this wouldn't have happened because of my idiocy, the things I was carrying wouldn't be robbed if I wasn't such a naive girl unaware of her surroundings. The only guy who can help me live my life for a little longer which is Niall, if I didn't overreacted to his words I would have been warm inside his flat, I knew he didn't mean to say that in the way I was thinking but I just can't help myself, it's all my fault why I'm in this conflict now, if only I didn't let PMS get on the way then this wouldn't have happened.

Now where am I supposed to go? I don't know anyone here and I don't have anything as well, I guess this is really my fate - to die cruelly, not because I got beaten up or something but because I died with a lot of unsolved cases and problems, I died knowing that my family is still in jail and I could have done something to get them out of there but failed miserably because of my idiocy, I died knowing that I can't do anything for myself and knew how irresponsible of a person I am and I died knowing that I left everyone counting on me.

I guess this is really it, I should embrace what the results of my mistakes were, humanity has all the same fate and that is death and I guess I'm about to face it sooner. I lie down on the bench just like how I did the first time I was here and cried vigorously as the rain still continues to pour on and on, feeling the cold metal on my legs followed by the heavy and cold drops.

My eyes started to get droopy and soon, Someone would see me lying in the bench not because I'm taking a nap or I'm asleep but because I already left this world, it's impossible to stay alive with the cold temperature. There comes a point in our lives when we just want to die because of how done we are with all the happenings lately, you tried your best and did your hardest but I think giving up is always an option whenever you feel like you can't keep on going any longer, I was a person with an opposite perspective but right now, the rain drops just turned into noise and my thinking got reversed.

I took a gulp and waited for death to swallow me over, I'm not wishing or hoping, I know it's already coming that's why I'm waiting.

A sudden moment, the rain stopped dripping on my body but I can still clearly hear and see the rain drops. I guess my time has got to an end, Victoria Murray has officially left the land of the cruel human beings, I am probably just a soul levitating on this bench but a sudden terror and fright was what I felt, I had goosebumps all over my body not because of the temperature but because someone's voice just spoke. I sat up on the bench then realised that someone is standing behind me, I slowly turned my head to see him standing there drenched and shivering but his expression remained with a smile on his face. I couldn't quite make a face but all I know is that he's seeing what I was feeling through my eyes. It took me also awhile to see that an umbrella is above me, preventing the drops to drench my already wet body.

"I knew you'd come here" he said with a shaky tone but I didn't replied for I didn't knew how to answer, I also don't even know what I should feel about this. "I'm sorry if that turned out offensive for you but whatever you were thinking, I didn't mean it to be that way, I wouldn't help if I didn't wanted to and I wouldn't tolerate you if I was unhappy with your presence"

"No-" I finally responded, his mouth got shut and he's all ears. "I guess I may have overreacted earlier, I'm really sorry"

"Let's talk about it further on the flat, wouldn't want the both of us to get frozen, right?" He said, in spite of the very cold temperature, he still manages to make a welcoming and warm smile to flash. I was skeptical, I didn't want to look like a fool for running away then suddenly coming back like nothing happened, I'm not that typical as most girls are seen on a daily basis and the movies, the guys always have to convince the girl just so they'd be in peace, I'm different. "No, don't think of it that way, I'm welcoming you again and you really are welcome"

"I'd rather stay here, you can go now" I looked down on the ground, I felt numb like I couldn't feel the coldness anymore. I guess Niall had already walked off, I couldn't feel anyone behind me anymore but I was wrong not until he surprised me when he sat beside me on the bench, still holding the umbrella up for me, I looked at him with a confused and shocked look.

"If you stay here then I'll stay too, I won't go anywhere without you, you can stay here as long as you want but as long as I'm with you" our eyes met and neither of us wanted to look away, I didn't knew how to respond to that, I felt little tingles throughout my body and some warmth spread over me.

"Why do you care so much?"

He replied with the same answer. "Because it's my job to help you"

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A/N hello! (The music is calling me) 😂 the song above is entitled "Hello, hoshi o kazoete" it's a Japanese song by Hoshizora Rin (Rippi), Koizumi Hanayo (Shikaco) and Nishikino Maki (Pile) from the anime "Love live : School idol project". Well I can't say that I translated it 😂 I made up some words but took the melody from it, the music box is from youtube. About 1D, well we had a lot of hackings lately 😑 so just wanted to plead everyone to respect each other's privacy! It's really wrong to hack 😕 and yas! It's my first double digit chapter 😂😂🎉 and I was thinking if there would be a kissing scene here (because rain) but I'm like "nah, too fast" so I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter. Votes and Comments would really be appreciated. Have a nice day everyone 😊

Next update : 03/25/16 (😭, I'm sorry if it landed on this date)
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