Niall and I talked about the complications that I was thinking at that time that cause me to do such a behaviour then apologised right after, he swore his words when he said that he wouldn't leave without me, we stayed in the rain for a long time and stayed even after the rain has gone. The moon started to peek but we remained there seated, just feeling each others' presence. On that day, I promised to myself to never get more attached to Niall, we may have fixed our problem but I wouldn't approach him like the way I used to, we'll simply be just strangers living in the same roof.

Several days passed that lead to this day to come. Niall started to go back to his work since the day after he followed me in the rain, just like what he used to do, just like his normal life. I begun to do some room service for his apartment as a payment for letting me stay once more, I didn't want to stay any further since we still have a little bad blood between us but maybe it was just me who's putting a wall between him and I. I started the day with cleaning the house and feeding Irish and now I'm on the couch, waiting for what's good to come this day. I feel helpless and hopeless that I started to live a life here in Ireland instead of going back to my business, I think I'm just gonna forget about it for awhile because I want some time for myself as well, I can't keep stressing out on that.

Niall felt new to the way I see him the day after I ran away from his flat, at first he was still trying to act like nothing happened but started to adapt to our new approach to each other. We're neither friends nor enemies, we're simply just strangers fulfilling the need of the other and nothing else.

But as a day passes by, I feel as if something's on my back that just gets heavier and heavier, I don't want to feel this way, I know it's because of the problems I'm facing and can't even solve the problem myself for being to naive in the real world but I just really don't want to feel this way. Sometimes I wonder if I had died right then and there on the rain if Niall didn't came, it would have been such a great thing but no, an angel saved me once again and it just means that I need to finish a mission.

Irish came to me and sat with his tail wagging once again, I guess he's trying to cheer me up. In all honesty, Irish is one of the reasons I still gain hope, maybe it's because of his power to cheer me up and make me smile, it's because of his energy that radiates whenever I feel sad. When Irish is there, I feel like I can loosen up a bit and forget about the problems I have and I love it how in spite of my situation, there's still something that I can smile about.

I pat his head and continued to harass him because of how cute he is, I really love him and I hope he feels the same way too, it may sound crazy that it's a dog that I'm talking about but I care more about dogs than guys. The feeling that I'm feeling right now resembles that time when I first met Niall, he made me forget about the things that was on my mind and he managed to make me smile and crack a joke without failing, I smiled at the memory of it, I guess Irish got it from his daddy's genes. I really wish I could just be happy again, I don't want to feel this way, even if I'm thinking about all my problems when I first got here, I didn't feel this much grief and the heaviness because in someway, I could still be happy and smile because of Niall and him being all like Irish, it's like whenever I am with him, it's impossible to ever feel gloomy because he always have a smile on his face to cheer you up and that adorable puppy face.

Thinking about all those just lead to my conclusion - I miss Niall. Even though we see each other and we're living in the same flat, I still miss him because even if we're here inside the same place we're still distant with each other. I miss his funny anecdotes, I miss it how he always has something to share, I miss his inspirational stories and quotes and I most definitely miss his voice and it makes me sad.

"At least you're still here" I mouthed to the dog, still with his tail wagging around with his tongue out just like what most dogs do. I heard the click of a door knob but I didn't bother to turn around, the door's locked and I'm sure it's just one of those times when your ears perceive you into hearing things. It's also not Niall, his shift ends later at 5:00pm but it's only past noon, he shouldn't be here yet but I was wrong when I heard someone call for me. I lift my legs on the couch and put my hands on my chest for I got surprised at the sudden call from another person who wasn't supposed to be here yet. It's Niall standing in front of me, unlike back then, he would always be full of energy and his eyes would always seem to look like it's smiling but what I see in front of me is just a lifeless Niall with his lifeless voice.

"I bought you food by the way, if you're ever hungry just eat" I wanted to ask him what he's doing and why he's already home but I didn't want to dip on his business if I don't want him dipping on mine. He left and walked away as my eyes shifted to the ground, thinking about how everything would never go back like how it used to be. Irish left my side as well and probably followed his daddy. I closed my eyes for a little while and tried to space out until a force pushed me that almost got me tumbling on the ground. I yelped and looked back but saw no one there, I freaked out a little as I may be getting haunted, I looked back and saw Niall in front of me once again, changed into his comfy clothes with droopy eyes. "Victoria! What even is your problem, woman?" He cried out to me and held my shoulders to shake me.

"Uhh... What do you mean about that?"

"You're not noticing me for days now and you seem like you're still mad at me because of our little fight, I'm fine with you being here" he complained and sounded frustrated but his voice full of life just like how it used to be. "Is there a problem with me?"

"No, it's just that I-"

"If there's none then why are you like that? I have a company but I still feel so lonely because you're not even talking to me and I'm getting all paranoid because of that, you're the reason of my insomnia and early awakenings, because of you I'm not a somnolent anymore and-" Niall continued to rant on and on and I just looked at him with a surprised face. Just observing his expressions and listening to his accent, I missed all those things about him.

I can't help but smile at him as he ended his speech with a worried face and a pout. "Just please, I'll do everything, just talk to me again" he faked a cry but I guess he's serious about wanting me to talk to him again, but I promised myself not to get close with Niall anymore, I don't want any connections with anyone here in Ireland, I'm not here to make friends or anything but how can you just reject a guy like him? I thought guys were secretive when it comes with how they feel and think but I guess Niall isn't like the typical guys. We were alike in a way, neither of us are typical for a guy like him and a girl like me.

"Okay, just... Let's go-"

"Change your tone of voice, I don't like it" he demanded me, I didn't knew what the big deal is with my deep tone of voice but it made me laugh, I guess I understand because I didn't like his tone of voice either when we were arguing. It made me laugh and I felt myself slowly failing my pledge to myself to never talk to him again and stop developing the bond and relationship between us, but he's just irresistible.

"Then what kind of tone do you like? Like this one?" I said with a chipmunk tone, it's good to see his smile again and it's relieving to know that I made him a little happy with my approach and action.

Niall cried again and he slowly kneeled on the couch to reach and pull me into an embrace, a very tight embrace and I felt paralysed, this is the second time he did this. I didn't flinched nor moved but I didn't hugged back too, he pulled away right after and pouted while I still sat there, gazing at his figure. "I missed you so much, Victoria" I rolled my eyes but a smile plastered on my face was impossible to hide from him.

"Yeah yeah, let's go eat the food together" I got up and saw nothing placed on the table.

"About that, there's really no food, I just told that to start a convo with you but, I'm treating you out  and will tour you around in Dublin since you're supposed to tour here anyway" he commanded me to go dress up but I didn't knew what to say or how to react. Going out means more exposure, but I didn't want to argue with Niall again since we just made peace with each other. I decided to just follow him, my face would not be remembered by anyone anyway and I wanted to look around as well and if I start a fight again, I'm pretty much sure for myself that I would regret it afterwards, I didn't want to feel that longing to talk with Niall again.

I dressed up in a simple all black style, with a tank top and leggings and a blazer I stole from Niall's closet and the shoes I was wearing when I got here. Niall was in all white but then told me to wait just to change his top into a black shirt and when I asked why, he said hat he could match with my style. We left his apartment along with Irish, he couldn't stand leaving the little guy alone. We made our way out of the building and we walked a couple of blocks and brought me to some Italian restaurant right after he checked Irish into a dog playhouse.

When I entered inside, I can smell the very savouring smell, getting excited with the type of food to be served but when I looked around my surroundings, all I saw were couples flirting with each other. The hostess lead us to a table for us to sit on, Niall sat at the opposite of my seat and I slowly pulled the chair to sit on and continued to observe everyone around. I felt insecure for a second, I'm already in my twenties and yet... 14 year olds, like the ones opposite our table are in a relationship.

"What are you thinking?" Niall queried suddenly.

"There are loads of couples here, I feel so degraded" he looked at me with a confused face but just returned with me pouting my lips, worried about my love life. "Never mind, you won't understand" I told Niall and looked at the ground, not being all that sad but just worried for myself. I'm sure Niall already had a girl back then so he really wouldn't understand.

"Uhh, I hate it when people do that, just tell me what it is, it's not like you're gonna tell me something in a different language"

"It's nothing, really" I flashed a smile to tell him that I mean nothing but out of the blue, he brings up a topic about my love life and I can't help but break down a little bit and faked a cry just like how he did earlier. He was indeed very nosey about it, digging me up and trying to investigate but I didn't responded to any of his questions until I had enough and spilled it out. "I never had one, okay"

"A what?" Our food came and the waiter aided us with the food, he set down our meals and drinks then left. I reached for my plate and ignored Niall but then asked the same question.

"A boyfriend, now can you just please shut up and eat your food" he looked surprised with what I said but he obeyed my instructions right away.

I'm far way different to the typical girls, I'm kind of boyish with my actions and the things I like but I'm also a girl. No matter how much boyish I can get, I still dreamt of a prince charming of course. Sometimes, I wonder why I didn't had any guys after me, it makes me question if I was that ugly for them to stray or is it just because of my attitude? I might as well go lesbian but I hate girls more than I hate boys, maybe I'll just go and be single forever, after all, I can still feel my death coming very soon.

Niall made me snap out of my thoughts as his voice rang on my ears again, I guess he wasn't finished earlier, he continued to ask me questions about my love life such as if I ever tried it out with someone and answered honestly but told him that we didn't worked out and so we remained friends, pertaining to Zayn in this subject. In all honesty, I think I never felt such infatuation to a person before, I never experienced that puppy love every women warn teenage girls from, I never felt anything romantically other than being mutual.

I dropped the subject as Niall did the same. We finished our meals shortly then went back to fetch Irish from the playhouse. Niall insisted to tour me around to some of his favourite spots in Dublin despite me rejecting his offer politely as possible but he can't be helped, not just because he's irresistible with that kind of face and actions but because of his stubbornness too. Conclusion made - both of us are stubborn, our stubbornness lead to our argument and so one has to be humble to the other, I let myself be the one to get down on my knees since I just missed hanging out and talking freely with him and every second is a second never will I regret, it was a good idea coming with Niall, he brought me to loads of places, travelled with countless transportations, it felt like I already flew to another country but it was still Dublin. We toured a lot of museums, we came to the zoo, to an aquatic park, to gardens and farms that it actually seem like an educational trip but it was a healthy snack for our brain, it fed us with a lot of new and interesting informations, we even came to some sort of scientific place where we stargazed and watched a movie about DNAs and stuff, it was mostly Niall sleeping at that time along with Irish on his lap, it was a good thing pets were allowed to most of the places we went to, I wonder if the dog understood anything as to what his owner is dragging him into but nevertheless, he obeyed anyway.

Lastly, we went to a church, I wasn't much of a person who seeks help whenever I need help or if I ever want to thank anything but Niall always makes me admire him and look up to him. He dragged me to a bench and there he prayed, I didn't knew exactly what to do but his actions drew me to do the same and for the first time, I learned how to plead, thank and ask for forgiveness, it was a relieving deed to do that. Right after we said our prayers, he started to tell a tale once again, saying that his parents got married here. He stood up and I followed him, we walked on the aisle and there I saw the marvellous paintings on the ceiling of what heaven looks like until I stopped on my tracks when I realised that I was in front of the altar now and Niall was there standing beside it, it made me feel some type of way and shivers went down on my spine, my heart palpitated and I got nervous, if I can't stand looking at Niall right now standing beside the altar what more if the guy for me was the one standing in front of me now. I was daydreaming once again about a guy, I hate it how I realised just now how much of a hopeless romantic I am.

It didn't took long for me to realise that Niall stopped talking and just stared at me with an unreadable expression, I called his attention and he gained back his senses, guessing he was imagining and daydreaming as well, he flashed a smile with that gleam on his eyes then we headed out of the church to go back to his flat.

"And that ends our tour" Niall says as we climb a bus on the way back. He asked if I enjoyed the day and of course I did.

"Do you normally do this to the other strangers you take in your flat?"

"Nope, you're the first one that I have did this kind of thing with. Normally, the people I take in are either homeless elderlies and children or runaway teenagers. I leave the elderlies some home for the aged instead of them wander around the street, and the children to some orphanage while I just give some piece of advice to the runaways and let them stay until they're ready to go back to their home" I nodded as he explains. "And since you're a tourist who ended up homeless, it just popped into my mind if I could at least tour you around instead of wasting your days off in my flat" it was nice of him to do that, it left me with a happy expression and a grateful smile, I mouthed a thank you and he replied with the same expression that I have and a "not a big deal".

We got home late and Niall still needed to sleep for work. We got in the bed after a shower then called it a day.

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A/N hello, people who are even reading this 😂 I recklessly decided to join a contest for this book, I don't even know what I was thinking but fook it, I wanted to live life with no regrets 😂. And look at the date March 25, the day we all dreaded last year but HEY! MIND OF MINE IS OUT! What are your thoughts about it? I haven't listened to it yet because to be honest, I'm not that much of a fan of Zayn anymore 😔 his music is not my type. Baby Freddie's out and about with daddy Louis today 😂 and Niall just made a snapchat 😮, I might as well make an account so I can view his stories 😂. Liam and Harry are very discreet lately, I hope they're doing fine. I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter. Votes and Comments would really be appreciated. Have a nice day everyone 😊.

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