Bee's POV~

I stepped out of the motel, hearing her small foot steps from behind me as I closed the door and the click of the lock on the handle.

I sucked in a deep breath as I faced the now locked yellow motel door. I hated leaving her like this. Seeing her so shaken and broken kills me.

I felt that pain in my gut as I forced myself to walk away and cross the street to the thrift shop.

I had a few bucks in my pocket so I could maybe grab a few things. I stepped inside the store, the little gold bell dings as I opened the front glass door.

An elderly lady smiled at me as she sat at the front check out desk. "Hello Ma'am. I'm wondering where you have the female clothing?" I asked as she pointed to the back row of clothing.

"We are having a sale. Fill up a bag of clothing for three dollars." She exclaimed as she handed me a yellow bag.

I nodded in thanks as I walk to the female aisle and scanned the racks of clothing for Lisa's size.

She was about a medium in all her clothing and surprisingly can fit into kids clothes still which was pretty cute.

I grabbed a pair of grey sweatpants, a dark blue sweat shirt, a black tank top and a white t-shirt for her. I looked around and found a good looking pair of combat boots that were about her size. Maybe a smudge bigger than her shoe size but it'll do.

I grabbed a pair of blue shorts that she could use for underwear until we find a proper place to buy actual underwear for her. Heat swept through my cheeks for a moment as I sighed, quickly putting them in the yellow bag that was provided for me.

I looked at the male section as I scanned my own clothing which were covered in dirt and partly ripped up.

I sighed as I grabbed a black fitted t-shirt and blue jeans. I place them in the bag and looked around and found one of her favourite movies.

I hummed, picking up the case and smiled. We had a old t.v that I think worked. Maybe it would cheer her up.

I placed it in the bag as I then walked to the front desk to check the items out. The women smiled at me as she scanned through the bag for a moment and nodded, typing in something on the cash register and smiled.

"Five dollars please." She said as I handed her the change with a weak smile. She smiled back at me. "Thank you. Have a good night sir." She replied as I walked out of the store and across the road once more and over to the motel we were staying in.

I eyed my alt mode for a moment, hating how scratched up it was from Chicago. Dirt stained the yellow paint. Parts of my grill and front bummer were missing.

Dents and scratches covered my once sleek exterior. As for the interior of my alt mode, my seats were dirty, the leather was dull and scratched.

My front windshield is scratched and has a few cracks around the sides and a faint crack right down the middle.

I sighed, taking in a deep breath before I walked to the door and knocked four times.

I hear soft whimpering on the other side and I felt my stomach drop. I knocked four more times but she didn't come to the door.

I quickly pulled out the keys and barged in, causing her to bolt up from the bed and let out shriek.

I quickly closed the door and ran over to her. "I'm sorry I scared you!" I rambled out as she was shaking all over again. Great going Bee. Way to give her a heart attack.

Her face was wet with tears and her skin growing pale. Not only did I scare her but she must've been having a bad dream again.

"It's ok." She whimpered softly as she had her eyes half opened and half closed from lack of sleep.

I smiled tiredly as I rested my hand on her cheek. "I got clothes for both of us. Would you like to bathe now?" I asked her as she nodded, shakily getting up, nearly falling over as I caught her before she could fall.

"Would you like me to help you?" I asked her as she stared at me for a moment before shaking her head.

"Ok, I'll just help you in the bathroom then." I said as she nodded, holding onto me as I helped her into the bathroom.

I then handed her the clean clothes. "The shorts are for..you know." I trailed off as she nodded, forcing a smile as she kissed my cheek. I smiled at her, kissing her forehead as I went to give her space.

Once she closed the door I sighed, and went to sit on the bed as I stared blankly at the switched off t.v as I tried my best to stop myself from crying as I hear her soft sobs from the bathroom.

Lisa's POV~

Taking off my clothes was one of the hardest things I had to do. The more I moved my limbs the more my wounds had opened up and began to bleed again.

I whimpered, fighting back the sob as I continued to undress. By the time my body was free from the blood and dirt stained fabric I stared at myself in the mirror.

My skin was as white as a ghost, fresh bruises and cuts littered my body. I had a few scratches on my face and a deep cut down my jaw to my neck. I bite down on my lower lip, trying to fight back the tears that were forming in my eyes.

I grabbed the sides of the white marble sink because it felt like everything was spinning. I hanged my head as I felt tears hot tears leak from my eyes and roll down my cheeks.

My chest tightened as I held onto my breath, trying to work down the lump in my throat. I felt like shit, I looked like shit, at this point I think I'd rather die than live like this. Overall I felt weak, stupid, I hated feeling like this. Feeling so small and worthless.

I hiccuped a few times as I tried my best not to sob. I didn't want to break down again. I just wanted to make it through the night without crying but I guess that wasn't going to happen anytime soon.

I felt my body tremble, my legs shaking as I slowly sink to my knees. I can't take this anymore...

I burst into tears, sobbing my heart out as I clenched my hands into fists before pressing them against my face. I hate my life..

I coughed and hiccuped as I tried to stop myself from sobbing, just to try and calm myself down but nothing was working.

I felt my stomach clenched and I felt a sharp pain travel through my entire skull. I hunched over as I began to dry heave.

My eyes widened as ran to the toilet and began to throw up. I tightened my grasp on the toilet as I jet out nothing but stomach acid.

My head was spinning and all I could see was black dots. I groaned, leaning away from the acid smelling toilet before scrambled away from it and wiped my mouth.

My lower lip trembled as I hugged myself, trying to stop myself from shaking so much. I pressed my knees to my bare chest and I pressed my face against my knees.

Be strong Lisa..

Please be strong..

Please be strong..

You have to be strong. I kept telling myself over and over again, allowing the words to repeat over and over again in my mind. "Y-you h-ha-ha-hav-ve t-" I stopped myself, sucking in a deep breath as I tried to stop my stuttering.

"You have to be strong." I forced out as I dig my nails into the palms of my hands. Be strong..

I clenched my jaw and let out a furious shriek as I sobbed. "Lisa?" I hear Bee ask from the door as he knocked softly on the door.

"Are..are you ok?" He asked me as I worked down a swallow as I hummed in response. I heard a heavy sigh come from him as I forced my body to get up from the cold tile floor and towards the door.

"Do you need help?" He asked me, my stomach clenched as I hear his voice break and shake with every word.

Tears formed in my eyes as I rested my cold sweaty forehead against the wooden door. "I don't know.." I croaked out as my lower lip trembled.

"I don't want you to see me like this." I choked out as I stepped away from the door. "Lisa..if you need help.." He trailed off as I heard him sigh once again.

"If you need me I'll be right here." He whispered out as I walked back towards the bathtub and turned on the hot water knob and I watched the hot water stream out from the tap and into the ceramic tub.

I shakily grabbed one of the white towels and placed it underneath my bare feet and grabbed the soap for the body and hair.

I sucked in a deep breath, stepping into the hot water. I winched just as I put my foot in the water. I felt the hot liquid burn my skin. I bite down on my lower spilt lip and drew blood.

I adjusted my balance before I sit myself in the bathtub. The water lapped at my body, burning my skin, getting into my wounds making the pain blossom throughout my body.

I sucked in a deep breath, reaching out to the body wash. My bones cracked with each movement. Tears blinded my sight as I placed some of the body wash on the palm of my hand and began to do my arms, running my soapy hand over my scarred arms.

I sank lower into the bathtub. My heavy breathing echoed through the empty bathroom. Once I felt ready I get out the shampoo and began to lather the shampoo through my wet hair.

I closed my eyes trying to ignore the pain shooting through my body with each movement. I reached out and pulled out the plug and let the water drain out before I shakily stood and reached out for the shower head and began to rinse the soap off my body and take out the shampoo from my hair.

I closed the knobs and let the water drip down my body and drip from my hair. I sighed as I squeezed the water from my hair and wrapped it up with another towel and began to dry my body just as I stepped out of the tub.

I reached down and picked up the clothes Bee had bought me and put on the shorts, sweatpants, the tank top and the sweater.

I let my wet hair fall from the towel and gave it a quick towel dry before tying it up in a messy bun, letting my long bangs fall down my face. I gathered up the wet towels and placed them in the laundry bin  and stepped out of bathroom to see Bee standing by the door.

"Hey..you ok?" He asked me as I nodded, hanging my head as I brushed past him and sat on the bed. He sighed following me to the bed and sat down beside me.

"I...I got-well I found one of your favourite movies at the thrift shop. Would you like to watch it?" He asked me as I shrugged my shoulders, staring at my hands.

"I actually want to go to bed." I croaked out as I peeked through my curtain of bangs since I was too scared to look at him and I could see the light fade from his eyes and a frown formed on his perfect lips.

I wish I could be strong. Be all things Bumblebee calls me. Just be the perfect girlfriend that he deserves but I can't.

Not with me like this. I can't be someone I'm not. I know he loves me, and I know he doesn't want me to pretend. I love him so much for supporting, for taking care of me but God he deserves better. He deserves love..he deserves so much more than what I could ever give.

Tears weld in my eyes as my stomach makes those knots and dips. Bee nodded, putting the movie on the nightstand on his side of the bed just as I pulled the covers over me and I laid my head on the pillow.

"Good night.." Bee whispered as he closed the lights and I fall into a deep sleep.

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I hope you all are enjoying the story so far. More coming soon! Bye!
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