Tears leaked from my eyes as Bee drove down the dirt road. "Lisa-maybe we should stop?" Bee suggested through the radio as I stayed silent, picking at the dry blood on my ripped shirt.

"Please talk to me." He begged between radio stations as I glued my gaze out the window, pushing my knees to my chest as I curled up into a ball on the passenger seat.

"Leave me alone." I grumbled as I closed my eyes, taking in a deep breath.

Suddenly he pressed on the breaks causing me to lurch forward, nearly smacking my head off his dash.

"Bee what the hell?!" I shrieked as his hologram fizzled up. I spun around to look at him. Furry and anger filled my eyes before they widened just as I took notice of his condition.

Overall considering how his alt mode and actual protoform was in such a bad horrific condition, his hologram was also looking like crap.

He had a many cuts that littered his body. Many were deep which needed stitches and considering how deep they were continued to bleed. Most of his wounds were scraps and small cuts which hadn't bled a lot and thankfully more of them had stopped bleeding.

My eyes wandered over his entire body. His caramel toffee coloured skin was stained with dark blue, purple and yellowish bruises.

Most of them stained his face. Along his cheek, dark blotches along his jaw line and along his neck.

His hair was messy and his clothes smelt like fire and black powder. The lack of sleep had really shown in his features. The faint bags under his eyes including how his caramel skin looked so pale.

I tried to fight back any emotions that was coursing through my veins as I gritted my teeth. "Keep driving." I spat as his baby blue eyes dimmed in colour as he shook his head.

"Not till you talk to me Lisa." He replied as his voice shook and cracked with every word he forced out.

My heart began to hammer against my chest. The fact that he wanted to talk about what I had to witness. What we had to witness made my blood boil.

I felt my stomach go into knots and just like that; I snapped at him. Everything I had in me just snapped. As if two wires lost connection and everything came crumbling down.

"WHAT IS THERE TO TALK ABOUT BEE? WHAT IS THERE TO SAY?!" I screamed at him, as my lungs burned with rage.

I snarled in anger, kicking his dash out of frustration. My hands formed into fists as my nails dug into the palms of my hands.

"THERE IS NOTHING TO SAY!" I screamed again as I felt the tears in my eyes forming, threatening to escape and roll down my cheeks.

"There is EVERYTHING to say!" He fired back as I snarled, feeling all the raw anger just bursting at the seams. "JUST FUCKING DRIVE!" I screamed, nearly tearing my hair out from my skull.

He clenched his jaw and reached out to grab my wrists with such force that was for sure to leave bruises later on.

"We're all that's left for fuck sakes! Who know if there is any Autobots left Lisa!" Bee yelled at me as he shook my body back and forth while I tried to break free of his hold.

"JUST CONTINUE TO DRIVE!" I screamed as the tears clouded my vision and made everything blurry. "We need to talk about this. I can't-we can't go on without talking." He demanded as I snarled, trying to let the tears stay in my eyes.

I tried my best to hold myself together. To contain myself from breaking any more. I tried so hard..so hard to not become weak.

"What do you want me to say Bee?!" I snarled as I finally looked up and glared at him.

"THEY'RE ALL DEAD! THEY'RE ALL GONE! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT FROM ME?! TO CRY AND EXPRESS HOW I FEEL?! TALK ABOUT IRONHIDE OR SIDESWIPE? OR MIRAGE? WHAT THE HELL IS THERE TO TALK ABOUT?!" I shrieked as Bee tighten his grasp on my wrists making me cry out in agony.

"ITS NOT JUST THAT!" He yelled back as I went ridged. My heart hammering against my chest. My lungs squeezed as I felt my airways close on me.

"Then what?!" I sneered. With the endless battle of holding back the tears; they finally escape my eyes and roll down my cheeks like rushing rivers.

I whimpered, feeling his hard grasp on my wrists tighten and the heated pain flourished through my body while the salt of my tears burned the cuts on my pale cheeks.

"You're all I have left." He replied brokenly, as he hung his head. I bite back the sob as I take notice of the tears rolling down his cheeks and roll off his chin and fall onto his leather seat.

We both stayed silent as his soft sobs filled the silence of his alt mode. "You're all I have left." He choked out between sobs as I watched him with wide growing eyes.

I had never seen Bee cry..never mind cry but be this vulnerable. My heart clenched as I hanged my head. My whole body trembled as I hear his sobs rebound in my ears. I caused this..

I made him cry..

My lower lip trembled as his breathing became heavy. "I failed you. I failed you. I failed Sam and Carly. I failed my team." He rambled out with his voice thick and raw from his yelling and his sobbing.

I whimpered as I shake my head, trying hard not to sob. I bite the inside of my cheek, not caring if I broke the skin of my mouth.

The metallic engeron like taste filled my mouth as I tried to fight off the rancid words that filled my head. 'You're a monster..'

'You failed him. You failed everyone.' My eyes widened as I hanged my head, fighting off the throbbing pain that traveled through my entire skull.

"No..you-you didn't fail me." I choked out as he raised his head. I met his gaze as I clenched my hands around the leather seat I was sitting on.

"You didn't fail Sam or Carly. If anything I failed you." I choked out as he stared at me with his watery blue eyes.

"I shouldn't have snapped at you. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I shouldn't have..I.." I trailed off as I fight back the sob.

"We both lost people. We lost our family but you did not fail them. You sure as hell didn't fail me." I said as I cupped his face with my shaky hands.

"You are my everything. You're my rock. I..I'm sorry I made you sad and I'm sorry of what we had to face..I know that we-t-that we loss..we.." I hanged my head as I take in a sharp inhale.

His arms raised up as he held onto my hands that were resting on his face. "Lisa..baby look at me." He whispered as his voice was heavy and thick from crying.

I raised my head as I looked at him. "You shouldn't have to be sorry. It's not your fault." He explained as I shake my head.

"But it is. Instead of yelling at you I should've been comforting you but I was so stupid for yelling at you. I love you so damn much and if anything happened to you..I don't know what I'd do." I choked out as the tears fall down my eyes as my shoulders began to shake.

"I-I'm sorry." I sobbed out as he pulled me in his arms. "Sh, baby it's ok..its ok." He whispered as tears fall down his cheeks.

"It's not ok Bee. Here I was yelling at you and.." I trailed off as he cupped my face. "It's ok baby. I know you didn't mean it." He said softly as I met his gaze.

The whites of his eyes were slightly red from the crying he had dome. His beautiful features showed some many emotions. So many feelings that not even I could define.

"It still doesn't make it right..I.." I clamped my mouth shut, biting on my tongue as I take in a deep breath through my nose.

I lowered my gaze once again feeling angry, tired and depressed all at the same time. How could I let this crap get to me like this?

How could I let my emotions do this to me? I asked myself as I furrowed my brows in anger. I worked down the lump that formed at the back of my throttle and finally looked up at him.

The sharp and heavy heart beats of my heart hammering against my ribcage rebounded in my ears. Bee smiled softly at me.

His beautiful teary blue eyes filled with that wondrous light again. My heart rate slowed as I felt butterflies form at the pit of my stomach.

He stroked my cheeks with his soft yet rough pads of his thumbs as he leaned down and left a soft delicate kiss against my cheek.

"It's ok baby..it's ok." He said as he pulled me in his arms and hugged me. My eyes widened from his sudden embrace before I closed my eyes and hugged him back.

I don't know how long we hugged for but it felt good. Hearing his soft heartbeat again my ear and the softness of his warm breath against my neck.

"Do you think we can continue driving?" I asked him after a while later as I pressed my face against his chest.

"And go where baby?" He asked me softly as he stroked my head, pressing his chapped lips against the crown of my head.

"Anywhere..just drive.." I whispered in reply as he chuckled. "How about we find a motel so we could clean off, and get some rest?" He suggested as I clenched a handful of his shirt before nodding.

"O-okay.." I whispered as I pulled away from him. He looked down at me as I rested my hands on his chest.

"Lisa?" He asked me as I looked up at him. He smiled at me once more before pressing a soft kiss on my sweaty forehead.

I leaned into his lips, biting back the sob once again as I closed my eyes. He deserves so much more.. I told myself as I felt my body trembled at the thought of it.

Once he pulled away, I fought back any emotion that was surging through my veins and crawled back to the passenger seat.

Bee watched me with a soft gaze as he remained on the drivers seat. "Ok..lets get going then." He said as he deactivated his hologram and started up his alt mode once again.

The loud grumble of his engine came to life. It no longer brought me pleasure. The smooth purr was long gone now. This engine coughed and sputtered for a few moments before he revved it a little harder bringing out a healthier purr.

I sucked in a deep breath as he put himself in drive and he continued to drive down the dirt road.

I sighed, putting on my belt as I leaned my head against the window, finding myself falling into a deep sleep.

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First chapter of the book! Well second if you count the prologue..anyways..I've decided to start to book off with Lisa's and Bee's journey of staying in hiding.
Any feedback would be well appreciated!
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