So I recently just posted a little chapter in this not so serious book  that is now slowly becoming serious. It was basically about how I've been used and left behind by so many people and if you want to read it was two chapters ago. One of the parts was talking about my fear of losing yet another friend for an unknown reason.

Well I now know what that reason is. Can't believe I'm saying this but now I wish I didn't. I didn't even hear it from him. I heard it from my "fellow dime" who heard it from one of our mutual friends that he still somewhat talks to.

It hurts. Apparently we are too "immature" for him and our friendship has gotten boring to him. I sent him a very upset text that I doubt he'll respond to.

Basically I notified him that a mature person doesn't just do that and that he's basically on scale with a person who has been lying to me claiming that he's suicidal and that he had a gun to his head. He wasn't btw. Cops said he had no weapons. When I talked to him the next day he claimed to be lying to the cops so either way big fat liar. Naturally I dropped his ass.

But you know the fact that both me and this "mature" friend of mine were both hurt by him, I would've thought he'd know better.

But know he never said anything just ignored us. Me and my friends are changing where we eat now to avoid him cause just ouch. I'm sorry for trying to live out my childhood as long as possible asswipe. Just cause you have a job doesn't make you Fucking mature.

I kinda want to slap him but there's not really anywhere I can and I don't want to add fuel to the fire.

I've lost so much this past few years. I've lost my Aunt, my Grandpa, my dog, and now one of my closest friends. Life is cruel.

But know worries I'm not about to do anything stupid. I'm just gonna cry alone in my room then pretend like everything is fine with my family so they don't worry which ordinarily I wouldn't recommend but it's not like they can do anything or fix it so...I'm gonna go now. Read fanfics to try and distract myself or something. Later.