WARNING: ADULT CONTENT AND ADULT LANGUAGE

Sitting in my office, I stare at the gigantic rock on my finger. Rolling the bottom part of the band with my thumb, the light catches the diamond, and it plays a light show all over the wall. It's the most beautiful gift that I've ever gotten. Just replaying the scene of Alec before me in the hotel bathroom makes it hard to breathe. I don't know how he puts up with all my bullshit. The ups and downs we've been through already would have sent any sane person packing, but he has his stuff that he deals with too. We are two pieces of a fucked-up whole. Smiling to myself, I glance down at my cell just as the door to my office swings open. My heart skips a beat as I know it can only be one person as they didn't knock, and I wasn't informed of anyone coming in to see me.

Alec strolls over to my desk. He has been back to wearing jeans and white t-shirts since becoming CEO. I like casual Alec. He's sexy. His hair is messy from running his hands through it a million times. A nervous tick of his that I love. He must have had a rough meeting.

"Hello, beautiful," he whispers in my ear, causing all the little hairs on my neck and arms to stand up. Leaning into him, I take in his scent.

"Hi," I say, kissing him. "Rough morning?" Running my fingers through his hair.

"Yeah, overseas stuff. New contracts," He rubs his nose against mine. "Are you almost ready to go home?"

I giggle as I know what he is insinuating. "Why ever would you want to go home, Mr. Lockhard?"

He spins my chair so I'm fully facing him now. "I mean, we don't have to go home for what I have in mind," he says, his voice growing deeper as he kisses my neck.

Jesus.

It takes my body all of 2.5 seconds to react to his words and touch. I feel so betrayed by my body parts sometimes. We have no resolve when it comes to this man.

"Alec," I say, my words coming out a breathy pant. "We cannot do that here. Let me finish and we can go." But I really don't want him to stop as his hands are trailing up my thighs and he is kissing his way down my neck to my collarbone.

He takes my hand, pressing it to the front of his pants. He's hard and it makes me want to rip his jeans off even more.

"Sure you want to wait?" he says, kneeling in front of me. The way he looks up at me, he can ask me for whatever he wants, and I would give him anything.

I shake my head. "The door," I say.

He smirks at me and gets up walking over to the door to lock it. Turning around, he takes his t-shirt off. I will never get tired of this view. Alec is all tanned skin, muscles, and tattoos.

"If the CEO thing doesn't pan out, you could always take up modeling," I say, spinning my chair side to side as he walks back over to me. His face flushes and I love it. I love that he is so humble. He seriously is built like a god and doesn't even realize it.

"You really want people staring at me all day, Thomas?" he says leaning down until his eyes meet mine. Running the tips of my fingers up his sides, he sucks in a breath and his eyes darken.

"They already do," I whisper. "The only difference is," I say leaning forward so that my lips are next to his ear, my breathing is causing goosebumps to form along his arms. "I know that you're going home with me at the end of the day."

Biting his earlobe, I push him back so he's standing and unfasten his jeans, freeing his dick from his jeans. He's warm and hard in my hand.

"Did you come in here looking for something?" I ask innocently, looking up at him through my lashes, stroking him and biting my bottom lip, which I know drives him crazy.

"Fuck Kelsey. You know I did," he hisses, his eyes burning into mine as he looks down at me.

Giggling, I decide not to torture him anymore and wrap my lips around his dick, licking the tip, causing a moan to escape from him. "Fu..uck,"

I moan as I take him into my mouth, the sound vibrating against the length of him, causing him to lose stability. I love seeing him like this. Vulnerable, satisfied, happy.

He takes my hand and pushes me back in the chair, kneeling before me. "Excuse you," I say. "I wasn't done." I laugh lightly.

His eyes are dark with lust, he nearly growls at me and reaches under my skirt for my panties, and his facial expression changes when he realizes that I'm not wearing any. Leaning down, I whisper against his mouth, "I took them off when I went to the restroom an hour ago. I think we both had the same idea, babe."

"Christ," he says and kisses me hard. Moaning into his mouth, I feel his hand on the inside of my thigh. Before I know what is happening, he pulls me forward on the chair, lifting my skirt, and his mouth is on me. Hot, skilled, and making me lose my mind. Trying to stay quiet so that no one else hears us is another matter.

Alec pulls back sensing my distraction. "I sent them home. Relax." He gently bites my thigh, making me squirm. Inserting two fingers inside me, I clench around him, wanting more.

I sigh and relax. "Fuck, Alec." I breathe.

"Want more?" he asks, kissing the inside of my thighs.

"You," I pant. "I want you, now." Standing up, I frantically pull off my shirt and the rest of my clothes, desperate to the heat of his body next to mine.

Facing away from him, he pulls my back to him, brushing my hair to one side of my shoulder, trailing kisses from my neck down my shoulder to my back.

"Alec," I whisper, reaching up to interlace our fingers.

"I know, baby," he whispers in my ear. "I'm just enjoying you. I can't get enough."

I know the feeling.

As he runs his fingertips down my body, every single nerve ending is electrified and ignited. Ready for whatever he has in store. Glancing around my office, I wish I would have had them put a couch in here. That's a thought for future Kelsey.

"Lay flat on your desk, baby," he says, his voice changing from soft to husky as he rubs my ass cheek.

"Alec, you cannot be serious!" I say, turning my face to look at him.

One look at him and oh, he's serious.

"Now, Kelsey," he says, his gaze burning into mine, a smirk on his beautiful face.

Holy fuck. This is hot. Domineering Alec. This is new.

Swallowing hard, I lean forward on the desk. My mind whirling a hundred mile an hour, afraid someone is going to knock on the door, or I'm going to break something, or I don't know, something random as fuck is going to happen. This is just shit that I don't normally do.

"You trust me?" he asks. I must look nervous, and I hope he doesn't back out because he thinks I can't handle it. I'll be so pissed.

Obviously. "Yes," My voice is barely audible. I'm soaked with anticipation.

"Good because you look hot as hell right now, and I'm about to fuck the shit out of my fiancé," he says, leaning down, placing a kiss in the middle of my back.

"Mmm," hearing him talk like that is so damn hot and he knows I fucking love it.

I move my ass back and forth and he groans behind me.

"Don't end me before I even start woman. Be still," he says and smacks my ass cheek causing me to suck in a breath. It stings, but it feels so good.

"Are you going to stand there and look at me all night or are you going to fuck me?" I say boldly.

I just hear him laugh behind me and feel him slam his dick into me seconds later. I grip the desk for support. My orgasm building every time he thrusts back into me.

Grabbing my shoulder, he pulls me tighter to him and it causes sensations to build even more within me. He flips me over onto my back, leaning down, he takes my nipple into his mouth.

"Fuck yes," I moan out. Reaching down between us, I find swollen clit and rub in circles. The feeling is almost too much. Alec is watching me touch myself and I'm so close to exploding.

"Christ, Kelsey," he bites out. He's enjoying this, and I love it.

"You like this, don't you?" I ask him. I know he's getting closer; sweat is glistening across the muscles on his chest. Getting bolder, I use my other hand to grab my breast and roll my nipple between my fingers.

"Fuck, yes," he says and that's all it takes for me. I feel wave after wave of the orgasm crashing through my body and when I clench around Alec, I feel him tense as he releases, too.

"You're so damn beautiful," he says to me, kissing me as he helps me put my shirt on. My face flushes crimson. One day I will believe him.

"I love you," I say, kissing him after he puts his t-shirt back on.

"I love you, too, Thomas."

"What are you going to call me when we get married?" I laugh.

"Good question," he looks thoughtful. "I haven't thought about it, I guess."

Shaking my head, and grabbing my bags, we make our way to the door. "You're something."

He shrugs, a smirk on his face. Opening the door, we step out and I turn out the lights. Right outside the door, there is a box with my name on it. Alec picks it up and raises an eyebrow.

"Expecting something from Ethan?" he asks once he looks it over.

"No, I haven't spoken to him or Megan since the ball."

He hands me the box and shrugs.

I stand there looking at him like he has ten heads as he starts walking toward the elevator.

"Are you coming?" he says once he realizes I'm not behind him, then looks confused when I'm still standing in the same spot where he left me. "What's wrong?" he asks.

"You don't want to know what it is?" I ask him. I am baffled that he didn't act jealous or wasn't mad or anything. This is new.

"You can open it when we get home if you want or throw it away. I don't care babe." he laughs. "Whatever you want to do with it. It's yours." he walks back over and kisses my forehead.

I'm so confused and waiting for an outburst that isn't happening. Derek would have lost his shit and then some.

"You aren't mad?" I ask quietly. I know I have tears in my eyes. I'm overwhelmed. I don't know how to feel.

He looks confused. "Mad?" he shakes his head. "Why would I be mad?"

Cocking my head to the side, I look at the package and then at him again. "Because another guy left me a package, I guess. I don't know. When I say it out loud, it sounds silly." The tears in my eyes are about to break loose.

"Kels. Stop," he says softly, brushing my cheek with his fingertips. "He isn't here. He isn't coming. He's gone. I'm not him."

I take a deep breath. He's too good for me. I have so much damn trauma.

Looking up at him, a few tears escape my eyes. "I love you so much. Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me, and I love you, too." he kisses my forehead. "Let's go home, baby." 

I sit the package from Ethan on the sofa table and try to forget about it for the evening. We order in for dinner, and I decide to watch tv in the living room while Alec takes a conference call. The package has been distracting me since we found it earlier. I didn't want to open it and make it seem like I was anxiously awaiting a package from Ethan because I'm not, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't curious or anxious about what it was. 

I haven't spoken or seen either of the twins since the ball. Ethan has tried calling my cell numerous times and I keep ignoring his calls. It upsets me that he knew about Megan and Alec and never said anything to me. I don't need or want anyone lying in my life. I'm done with the toxic bullshit. 

Staring at the package on the table, and at the door to Alec's office, I decide that I am being paranoid and finally get up off the couch and grab it. It isn't a very big box. 

Opening the package, there is the third book in the series of books that I purchased from their bookstore and a necklace. There are two charms and a sapphire. The charms are a stack of books and a rose. It's beautiful and very me, but it also feels like a very intimate gift. Sighing because I feel so conflicted. I really liked Ethan, as a friend, of course. He was nice to me though, as was Megan. I hate how everything always ends up badly. I flip the book over and a slip of paper falls from the book to the floor. 

It's handwritten in a beautiful handwriting.

Kelsey,

First, I want you to know how sorry I am, and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness. The last thing I wanted was for you to get hurt in all of this. I told them in the very beginning that I wanted to be left out of it. I should have just told you myself. I hope that you can forgive me in time. I think of you often.

Ethan

My hands are trembling by the time I am done reading it for the third time and the line that I keep reading over and over again is, "I told them in the very beginning".  

What the fuck? That means that Alec had spoken to them at some point when he first met me. I hear the door to Alec's office and I quickly put the necklace from Ethan in my pocket. I don't feel like dealing with that right now.

"Hey, what was in the package?" he says plopping down on the couch next to me. 

I try to steady my trembling hands and take a deep breath. "A book to the series I was reading. I was having trouble finding it when we were all still talking."

"Nice," he says distracted. 

"Did you talk to them about me when we first met?" I ask without looking at him, the paper still in my hand.

He's quiet and I'm afraid to look at him. "Well, I told you that she was trying to contact me."

"Yeah, I remember, but I mean, like did you talk to them about me at all." My voice is even and I feel completely numb.

"Why would I talk to them about you?" he is next to me now. "What is going on Kelsey?" concern is laced in his voice. 

"It was just a thought," I say quietly. I steal a look at him now. He looks confused, like actually confused, and I don't know what to think. Either he is a really good liar, or Ethan is lying and I'm losing my mind. Maybe all three at this point because I'm so tired of having to always figure out who is lying to me. One thing is for sure, I need to talk to Ethan. Something doesn't feel right.

Leaning back on the couch, I exhale. "I'm just stressed, sorry. How was your meeting?" I ask.

Rubbing a hand down his face and then through his hair, he leans back on the couch pulling me to him. "I have to go out of the country on a business trip."

My heart is pounding. Anxiety winding its way around my heart. "What? Why? When?" I turn to look at him.

"Hey, don't panic," he says looking at me. "You can come with me."

"Alec!" I say, much louder than I mean it to. "I can't just leave my position and travel with you after I just recently started. It looks bad." 

"I don't give a shit how it looks," he says, laughing. "It's my company."

"But it's my job, Alec," I say, hurt laden in my voice. He may always be guaranteed a job, but some of us have to work our asses off for what we have. 

"I'm not going over this with you again, Kelsey," he says. "You know how I feel about it."

"Yeah, and you know how I feel about it. This job is important to me." I say.

"I know it is, baby. I get that," he says, taking my hands into his. "But you can travel with me. Are you not going to come with me once we are married?" he asks.

"That's different and you know it," I say.

He sighs. "You're so difficult." he laughs.

"It's why you love me," I say, leaning forward to kiss him. "How long is the trip?" I hate it when he leaves.

"Two weeks." He runs his hands through his hair again. 

"That's a long time," I pout. 

"I know," he laughs, grabbing me and pulling me onto him. "That's why I want you to come with me!" 

"Can I think about it?" I ask as I kiss him. 

He runs his hands up and down my back. "Of course." 

"When do you leave?" 

"Three days," he says, kissing my neck. 

I need to work out this shit with him and Ethan first. Three days isn't a lot of time, but hopefully, it would be enough time to figure out who is lying to me.