After that confession night, Bogum was the sweetest guy ever and we've been dating for a year now, (A/N: waaaw! That was fast.😂) going on cute little dates, cuddling, (not like we didn't cuddle before) stealing kisses and Hobi and Jin hyung couldn't stop teasing me about it. Like WTF did I do? I only got into a relationship with Bogum.

We were now in our finals. Hobi decided to study Law because he loved to argue and never lost an argument and Jin hyung studied business because of our parents' company. I was also going to study business like Jin hyung.

***

In the hallways in the school, I was walking to prepare for the next class when I saw Bogum.

"Gum, can we hangout later?" I asked Bogum bitting my lip.

"oh, I'm so sorry baby. I've got something to do but I'll make it up to you I promise." that's the same story I've been hearing for weeks when I tried to hangout with my 'boyfriend' the same excuse everytime.

We hardly saw each other these days and I was scared of loosing him. What am I even thinking? Who said anything about loosing Bogum? Gosh I'm so stupid.

I continued my walk to class in sadness.

***

Winter break was here. Finally no more school. I was happy I didn't have to sit for a long time in class anymore. It just made my butt sore.

Now Bogum doesn't even talk to me. I was so sad. I had bags under my eyes. That was how stressed I was. I still smiled yeah, but it was less.

Jin hyung walked into the room and I guess he wanted to call me for breakfast. Well no need hyung, I'm up.

"morning Taetae, did you sleep well?" he greeted.

"good morning hyung. I did." I said walking up to him and giving him a hug. I better spend a lot of time with him, he's working really hard and I scarcely see him. Even Hobi hyung. He's in college and I haven't seen him since September. Well fuck my life.

Maybe no one wants to be around me anymore? I think I'm too babyish. Should I change how I behave so that they'll talk to me again?

"Tae, are you even listening? What are you thinking of? You know you can tell me right?" at least hyung's still here. He looked after me when Eomma an Appa couldn't. They were always so busy with work and now hyung's joining their group of workaholics.

"huh? Sorry hyung I wasn't." I pouted and looked down.

"it's OK baby. I was saying that after breakfast, the both of us should hangout like old times. We haven't spent much time together lately and I miss that. So later we'll go out OK?"

"yes hyung!" I said happily. When last did we hangout or when last did anyone want to hangout with me? I'm just so bored.

Jin hyung left the room and I jumped around happily. I ran into the bathroom and began my morning routine. After that I ran out of the bathroom, putting on my clothes and rushing down the stairs to have breakfast. I couldn't wait. I was so overjoyed.

After breakfast, I ran back upstairs to put on something appropriate for going out. I grabbed my wallet and stuffed it into my pocket, heading out after.

"come on hyung, let's go." I said pulling his hand and heading out the door.

"someone sure is excited."

"I am. I haven't hung out with you in a long time and no one wants to hang out with me." I looked down to the floor.

"what about Bogum? He's not staying with you?" he asked.

"no. We've barely spoken in about two weeks now." I said sadly an how much I missed him I couldn't even describe it.

"Tae, I'm sure that there's a good reason why he's not talking to you. But for now, it's brother's time!" he said ruffling my hair.

I giggled and walked to his car, after that we drove off.

***

I was laying in my bed after my outing with Jin hyung. My mind went back to what he said. There must be a good reason why he was avoiding me. I wonder what it was. All this thinking is making my poor head tired. I need to rest my brain cells. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

***

Few days to Christmas, I decided to go for a Christmas shopping for the house. I wore my clothes, a coat and a beanie, not forgetting my gloves and picking my wallet.

I took the bus and arrived at the mall. I was thinking about what I was going to get as Christmas presents for them. Why didn't I think of what I'll get for them earlier? I'll just check stuff out.

Time skip

After my shopping, I was skipping on the hallways of the mall. At least I got presents for everyone.

I was looking around if I needed to get anything extra, I just needed to pass time. Something caught my eye. More like someone. My bags dropped from my hands.

Bogum.

He was keeping his arm on some guys shoulder and I felt something drop to the pit of my stomach. They were smiling happily and laughing.

Why am I even feeling insecure? Bogum loves me. I bent over to pick up my bags and looked at them again. I wanted to walk towards them and...

Bogum leaned down and kissed him. I gasped as tears were beginning to fill my eyes. I ran out of the mall running to the bus station and getting into the bus.

I took the window seat and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand. How could he do this? What did I do wrong? And here I was waiting for him.

What if he didn't kiss him. What if I saw things from a wrong direction? No. I saw them with my own eyes. I leaned my head on the window and closed my eyes.

Soon the bus arrived at the stop and I got down, walking home with less enthusiasm as I used to leave in the morning. My fingers were beginning to ache. Right now I missed my mom and dad, but as usual, they're working on Christmas day. They might not even be home for my birthday.

What if Jin hyung won't be home too? I will be totally alone. No Bogum, no Hobi and no Jin hyung.

Just the thought of it made me cringe and fear went through my spine. I couldn't handle being alone. I hated it. Loneliness was the worst.

I sat on the bench I saw somewhere on the road and it was cold. Well, it matched my mood.

I felt a tap on my back and I swiftly turned to check who it was. Hobi? I jumped up from the bench and ran into his arms and we landed on the snow. He was laughing. Was he happy to see me like I was?

"easy Tae." he said laughing. I got up from his body and lent him a hand to get up. He took my hand and I managed to pull him up without tripping.

"what are you doing outside here by this time? It's getting late." he spoke gently.

"when did you," I lifted my index finger and pointed him "get back and you didn't tell me?!"

"hehe. Surprise?" he said scratching his head. Wait if he didn't tell me doesn't it mean... He doesn't want to hangout with me anymore?

Why didn't I think of this? Ah, so stupid.

"earth to Taehyung." he said snapping his fingers in front of my face.

"Huh?" I said confused.

"you spaced out. What is it? And where is Bogum? Why would he let you out here alone this late? I'm so going to kill him the moment I see him!" I gave a forced laugh and he noticed. I'm so easy to read aren't I?

"where is Bogum?" he asked again, placing his hand on my shoulder.

"oh hyung look, it's getting late we better rush home. Come on!" I said running to grab my bags and grabbing his hand and running towards the house.

We arrived at the house and my feet was aching. I'm so not running like that again. I walked up the stairs and went to my room, dropping the gifts in the closet and dumping myself on the bed.

I felt the bed dip beside me and I inhaled the familiar cologne. I felt Hobi hyung pulling my shoes off my feet and I let out a sigh of relief. I had absolutely no energy to do it.

He moved away from the bed, placing the shoes on the floor and returning to the bed, lying on it. I moved closer to him and placed my head in his chest. I felt him carding his fingers through my hair. I was about to go into deep slumber when he asked the question again.

"where's Bogum?"

"in his house, I think?"

"you think? You don't know where he is?"

I nodded my head, "we haven't really been hanging out alot. So I don't know where he is." I thought about telling him about what I saw in the mall but decided against it. I might have caught things from a wrong angle.

"he said he was busy. No need to get mad at him hyung. It must have been really important. Can we talk about this later hyung?"

"whatever you say, Tae." and I let the sleep take over.

***
It was Christmas day, as usual eomma and appa weren't here. I guess Hobi made Jin hyung join since I told him what happened. Bogum was here too and he acted like nothing happened. He began coming around two days ago. Maybe Hobi had a talk with him? I don't know.

I rushed up to my room and grabbed the Christmas presents I got for them. I rushed down and gave them their gifts, each person accepting it with a smile.

"promise not to open it till later." and they agreed. We had hot chocolate, ginger bread men and houses, we played, sang Christmas carols and I couldn't ask for a better Christmas, at least I was with my family.

Later...

"Tae, can we talk?" Bogum asked me wrapping his arms around my waist and placing his head on my shoulder.

"sure. What about?" I asked turning to face him.

"about me ignoring you and being a bad boyfriend."

"Gummie, you were just busy, I understand." I said smiling. I wanted to ask him about what I saw at the mall but again decided against it. I wasn't going to ruin our christmas.

"merry christmas Gummie," I said patting his cheek.

"merry Christmas Tae." he leaned down and gave me a loving kiss.

***

A few days later I was prancing around in the living room. It was my birthday and I loved my birthdays. The cake from Jin hyung, the new songs from Hobi hyung, Gucci items from Bogum, god, I couldn't wait.

But I felt like crying when I saw Jin hyung without a cake, walking past me.

"Tae, morning." he said giving a tight lipped smile. He didn't even say happy birthday. I returned the smile and the greeting. His phone started ringing.

"oh, would you look at that, it's work. I gotta take this call." he said sliding his hand over the screen and placing it in his ear, running upstairs.

I walked to the couch and sat down, waiting for Hobi or Bogum to walk through the door, screaming 'happy birthday Tae!' but there was no one, just me sitting and waiting.

Was this how annoying I was? they even forgot my birthday. Everyone has become so busy with their lives now.

I felt tears prickling my eyes and one land on my cheek. I lifted my hand and swiftly wiped it away. I needed to be strong.

-

"Taehyung?" I felt fingers tapping my shoulder and I blinked my eyes open. They still didn't come. I looked up at whoever tapped my shoulder and it was one of the drivers.

"hey." I said. I didn't even smile. I was so sad and hurt.

"Taehyung please, put on some proper clothes for outing. I'm taking you out."

"oh, you don't need to just because my friends didn't show up." I returned to my fake smile.

"please sir, go and dress up."

"well OK." I said shrugging my shoulders.

I changed my clothes and went back downstairs, following him out the door and slipping into the back seat.

We drove for about thirty minutes and arrived at Bogum's parents park. He parked the car and walked towards my direction of the car. I stepped out of the car and gave him a questioning look. He walked to the driver seat and drove off.

I wondered why he dropped me off here. I began walking into the park with scared feet, looking from left to right with every step.

"Happy birthday!" lights turned on inside the park and I was surrounded by people.

I was at loss of words to express my feelings. I was not even expecting anything like this.

"happy birthday Tae!" Hobi and Jin hyung said walking towards me and hugging me. Everyone around us were all smiles.

I smiled gratefully and returned the hug. I searched for Bogum with my eyes and there was no sign of him. Did he forget my birthday? But I'll try to enjoy this as much as I can. Jin hyung ran out and I looked at him before looking at the other people gathered. Some of my school mates.

There was a voice and I turned to look at the makeshift stage, there Bogum was standing, in all his glory, singing me a happy birthday. I broke out into the largest smile I had. He was here all along.

He walked forward while singing with his eyes on me and I noticed that other people had joined him in singing, not that I really paid attention.

The song ended and it was then I noticed the cake in front of me. Tears of joy leaked down to my cheeks and I was smiling a lot. Bogum leaned down and kissed my cheek.

"happy birthday baby." he whispered and I blushed.

"lovey dovey~" Hobi sang.

"the candles melting." Jin hyung reminded me.

I leaned down and blew off the candles and everyone cheered. I was happy. This was the best birthday ever.

Someone played some songs and ushered me and Bogum to the dance floor. We danced till our feet were sore. I laughed a lot, screamed out of joy and kissed him. Everything felt so good.