"I love you and I will love you until I die and if there is an afterlife i will love you even then."
-Peter Luther

🌹Chapter 9: Light

The surrounding screams tranquility. Birds singing their hearts content. I am happy to witness their abstract music, so beautiful and calming. Grasses are dancing as wind gives them rhythm and the sky, looking aesthetic and majestic. Everything in this day is so perfect and here I am, lying beside the grave of my love one.

I put my right hand in my heart, trying to feel its music. Stable and happy. Reminiscing what I did when Scar died makes me laugh. I was a fool trying to throw my borrowed life. I was selfish that I let my pain eat me. I was so close to lose my sanity until Scar showed in front of me that day. Funny how foolish I was, funny how I wanted to end my life.

Nung bumukas ang aking mga mata kinabukasan, una kong nakita ang mga magulang kong puno ng luha ang mga mata. Seeing them crying because of me, bring back the pain I wanted to escape. The jail I'm in, is too strong to break. Buti nalang nandiyan ang mga magulang ko, ang ina ni Scar at ang kanyang yaya. They were there to comfort me when I'm down. Feed me sweet and soothing words to made me forget the pain I brought. They were there to help me freed in my jail. They were there to help me become a bird- uncage and free.

It took me months until I find myself again. Araw- araw ko parin tinitigan ang litrato naming dalawa ni Scar. My parents are scared at first because they might think that I'll end my life again but seeing me in progress, they let me.

"Scar, I will always love you. Deep inside here in my heart"

I whispered everyday hoping that the wind will deliver it to her. It was hard at first, I'm not ready to free myself again but remembering what Scar has told me "Philip, I love you that even death can't break us apart. I love you Philip. No one can destroy our love. I love you..." I will always stand up. Our memories are my treasures.

I still can't deny that in my most private daydream, I wish Scar was still alive but freeing myself from the pain in the past makes me truly happy.

Acceptance and forgiving myself is the key in my own hidden jail.

I learn to accept that Scar isn't here anymore but I always know that she is still alive here, in my heart.

Without you, I feel broke like I'm half of a whole

Without you, I've got no hand to hold

Without you, I feel torn, like a sail in the storm

Without you, I'm just a sad song

The special ringtone started to fill my ears. Just like the song means, I am lost without you, I am a broken melody, a sad song even. A half of me is missing and only you can make me feel alive Scar. This is my most private thought. Everyone thinks I'm free, maybe but I know deep inside my soul, Im still yearning for you. I also thinks I'm free, maybe free from pain but the bind that keeps us together is too strong to break. I will always love you Scar.

I sit down and pull my phone inside my pocket. I open my messages and found a text coming from her. The simcard, our connection from the other side. Her last goodbye. I always brought this alongside with me.

I smile heartfully as I recieved her message even if I don't know what it means.

"It's time... "

That is her message. Two words and I wanted to shout out with glee. Many questions started to pop in my mind like what does it mean but I'm too happy to give my full attention to it. I rolled on the ground, I am too happy that even if I'm a man, I couldn't care less.

Ang paru-paro ay nakikisali sa aking kasiyahan. The wind also blows stronger that it made my skin hair dance with it. Im too happy.

I stand up and squatted in front of her grave. I smiled ear to ear.

"I love you Scar. I may don't know what you mean, what the text means, but I always love you. Thank you for texting me again"

Tumayo na ako at nilisang muli ang kanyang higaan. Babalik ako bukas Scar. Kinuha ko ang bike at nagsimulang magpedal. I am very happy because for months, ngayon niya lang ako nacontact. Birthday ngayon namin ni Scar, oo namin, February 14. We are destined to be together. We are fated to be together.

I was smiling with all my heart, babalik ako sa amin para ibalita sa kanila ang nangyari ngayon. I enjoyed the view when I passed the memorial park. There are bubbles flying and each bubble that flew in my way, I see Scar's face on it, looking at me, smiling.

I was too occupied by the bubbles to notice that there is a big truck coming directly at me.

*Peeeeeppppp, Pppppeeeeepp*

*Boggggsssssshhhhhh*

I didn't know that it was too sudden. I didn't know that this is what it means but I'm happy as I finally found my missing piece again. The only sound I could hear was when Scar is calling my name. The perfect harmony and melody- her voice and her smiling face started to visualize in front of me.

"Philip, let's go. It's time"

Without second thought, I hold her hand lovingly as we said to each other;

"I love you that even death can't break us apart"

"High as heaven, deep as earth. I don't know the immensity of the universe. I only feel the days pass and people gets old, as the sun brings warmth and the moon returns cold." I uttered my last message to the world. I can feel it. I can see the light.

I never thought that my journey will end in here. I never thought that I could see Scar again, it was too sudden but whatever path my fate draws, I am thankful and bliss because I still end up with Scar, the love of my life for eternity.

-The End

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Their love is strong enough to break, even superheroes will cry, even death will bleed.

Thank you so much guys dahil nakaabot kayo sa chapter na ito. Pasensiya na if hindi kayo nagandahan. I know this story is cliche and Im sorry. But I hope nalibang naman kayo sa pagbabasa. May natutunan ba kayo? You can comment? I'll accept your judgements. Any questions? I'll try to answer it. Salamat uli sa pagsubaybay ng storya nina Philip at Scar.