even though I'm finding it really hard to put these things into words, I'm gonna try.

for so long I've been waiting, I feel that all my life is right now is waiting.
I'm waiting for it all to begin, like for my life to actually begin.
it sounds so stupid, and everyone says that you shouldn't want to grow up too fast, but why the heck would I want to stay right here forever. this stage of life freaking sucks and I've been so ready to let it go.

the day when life starts is the day when you depart from your parents and go by your own rules and live your own life away from everyone's expectations of you, and all the judgment.

you can say being eighteen or being twenty isn't all that great, but I'm gonna make it all that great. my whole life I've been this perfect goody two shoes and I'm just now starting to break away from that. I can't wait to live a little and do things outside of my comfort zone. im not going to commit a crime, but I've always wanted to run away and go on adventures. when I think about these things I can't help but smile and get really hopeful.

I'm sure non of this makes sense but it does in my head and that's all that matters.

I still have a long way to go, but I'm almost there.
-e.t.

(I'm also ready for the day I know the difference between there, their, and they're.)