i haven't even really told any of you the whole thing. but yes i told my brother today. i got into the truck and he's driving me and him to the dentist meeting my mom there. anyways he rolls down the windows and i said i hate the windows being rolled down, he said why, i said my hair, he says shave it off, i said no because then people would assume i'm even more gay than they already do. then he got exited saying "PEOPLE SAY THAT!" and he said if i was gay he would accept me. i said i'm not gay, but i just blurted it out that i'm asexual. he didnt know what that was so i told him. he did pull the i bet you're gonna change your mind but then i said that thing about the cactus.
and this the part i've only told a few people. i would date a girl, because it's not like i would be doing anything with her, but if i do get married in the future i would see it being with a guy because i do want kids one day.

i don't ever tell people im asexual because really i'm afraid. i trust you guys because you all are very accepting.
but i'm really afraid that if i tell people they are gonna be rude or say things about it. the biggest thing is that i'm afraid people are going to try to put things on me or force me to do things, so when nathan asked if i liked d**** and i said sure, i was really uncomfortable because i wish i could say no i don't like anything. but you know, that's not the world we live in.

that's it, please dont hate me and if you have any comments about how stupid it is for fourteen year old to be asexual go ahead and get it out now.

-e.t.