Taehyung's POV

"Yah, get away from my brother you pig!"

I sighed hearing my brother's voice which ruined every feeling that was rushing through my body for the male who'd pinned me against the wall.

"Excuse me?" Jungkook asked, looking over at Jin who stood now behind us.

"Don't touch him. I don't want you near my brother for your uncivil actions. You can protect and look at him from a distance." Jin snapped, walking closer to us to brush Jungkook's hand off of my waist.

I saw Jungkook roll his eyes.

"Whatever," Jungkook muttered to Jin.

"Goodnight Taehyung." He greeted me nicely before I watched him walk away.

My heart sunk to the ground as he exited the dining room.

I slumped against the wall in annoyance.

Goodnight? He's not coming back to the dining room.

And this was my last chance with him.

Romance has expired. Love has died.

"Where's the Captain?" Jimin asked, seeing Jin looking at me while I looked at the ground.

"Likely gone to bed." I responded, looking at Jimin who stood beside me.

"What? Why? The party just started." Jimin gasped out.

"Jin was a little bit demanding which made him leave." I replied, scowling at Jin.

"Psh, that male does not deserve to touch us one bit, especially you Taehyung, he rips your clothes with his sword and has no decency. The party will be better without him." Jin muttered.

But I want Jungkook to rip off my clothes.

I want to feel his sword...

"Jin! My god, just because you don't like someone, does not mean you can send them away. The captain literally created the banquet for some fun," Jimin began.

"Plus you may have caused us an issue because we kind of need the captain to be drunk considering our plans." Jimin finished saying, his voice getting quieter so that the rest of the crew doesn't hear him.

"So what? You want me to watch him put his hand on my brother's waist?" Jin snickered.

"Why does it matter if he puts his hand on my waist Jin? We're drinking, we are adults that know what is right and what is wrong behaviour. He may be a pirate but that doesn't mean he's going to turn homosexual from being drunk and do something bad." I snapped.

"Why are you getting mad at me? I did it to protect you." Jin yelled at me.

"Well I don't want your protection! I wasn't being harmed! I don't want you interfering with everything in my goddamn life Jin! I am not you, I don't think the same as you, and I don't want to be anything like you so just leave me alone to do my own thing because I am capable of making my own choices and decisions." I shouted at him.

I know everyone else was looking at us now.

But I didn't care.

Jin needs to stop.

Especially because I know it'd get so much worse if I said I was gay.

My brother wouldn't respect my sexual orientation, I have literally no family member who'd accept it.

I walked away, however Jimin grabbed my arm as I walked past him.

"Not now, I want to be alone." I weeped.

Jimin gave me a look of concern before nodding, letting go of my arm.

I then wandered out of the dining room and quickly passed Jungkook's room because my heart ached at the missed opportunity with him and I just didn't want to see him.

I could potentially go see Jungkook, but what problem would that solve if I just went and kissed him, especially if I had to leave the boat in a couple hours.

It'd break me to leave if I committed to love with him.

I headed down the stairs and straight to the showers.

I closed the curtain, taking my time to undo the corset Jimin made me.

Originally Jimin did it up for me so it took me a while to figure out how to unbuckle it.

I then stripped off my white blouse, pants and underwear, and then lastly the boots Jungkook gave me.

I left my necklace around my neck, placing my clothes just outside the curtain as I turned on the water.

I let the cool shower water run over my naked body as tears appeared in my eyes.

I let the cascading shower water wash away the tears that slipped from my hazel shiny orbs, leaving the only evidence of crying to the look of my puffy swollen eyes.

I stood just drenching myself in water to drown my feelings.

I was broken and confused.

How could I fall for a male that I simply just cannot be with.

Even if I had the chance, he'd be like a secret boyfriend because Jin hates his guts and no one accepts homosexual people in society right now.

Why does it seem so wrong to be gay?

Why does someone with a penis who likes someone else with a penis have to be wrong?

What difference does a vagina have that a penis doesn't to make it acceptable?

I've never wanted a vagina so badly before in my life until now, just so I can be a woman and accepted by everyone for wanting Jungkook.

I switched off the tap now, letting my body shiver from the cool water that I left undried.

Jungkook lets me feel as though I can make decisions, but yet my brother tries to control me.

I cannot go back to the castle tonight, there's no way I can go home and be surrounded by people with Jin's views.

I need to be here with Jungkook.

I dried my body with a towel that hung on a hook beside my closed curtain, then reached out, grabbing my clothes to put on.

When I was dressed in everything but the corset, I left the cubicle to head to my bed.

I laid down on the bed, feeling Jungkook's comfortable duvet cover below me.

His scent wafted my senses as I took deep breaths.

Maybe if I take things that remind me of Jungkook, maybe I'll be somewhat sane when I am back home?

But would it be the same as being around Jungkook?

Yet my obsession of being Jungkook's already could be what damages me when I am not allowed to be with him.

Being on the pirate ship has been eye opening for me, it has been an escape of reality and I just don't want reality to continue, but yet duty calls.

I didn't even notice but my body grew heavy, sinking into the bed sheets as I slowly drifted to sleep.

This was my new home, but some homes do not last forever...

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