"You say you care but you don't care like how I care and that's fucked up. And what hurts the most is you don't want my love. My love, no. Can't explain men. Say what you wanna hear, they will." -Tink

SHAI

What Majesty said to me is lingering in my brain. I just left my job but I couldn't even focus because it bothered me so much. First, he told me that I was just his something to do after I scared his ugly bitch Ashley away. Then, he started to play mind games with me by asking me to stay. After that, he told me I better figure out what I'm going to do as far as my husband. All of this has my head spinning. Should I just cut him and his craziness off  altogether, go home, and act as if nothing  ever happened? This is something that I can't decide on.

My phone starts ringing. I sigh. It's Majesty calling me for the eighth time today. I haven't answered. I take a deep breath then answer. "Shaiann, what the fuck you ain't answering yo gotdamn phone for, bi... I mean... mane, why you didn't pick  up?" he goes off on me. "Hello to you too, Majesty. Did you just almost call me a bitch?" I ask, rolling my eyes. "It was an accident but almost don't count, Shai." he answers.

"Almost does count. Watch your mouth. I'm done allowing you to get away with whatever you want. Go call that slut bitch Ashley a bitch." I say. I'm still upset with him for that. I was hiding  under Noble's bed while he constantly talked  crap about me because he knew I couldn't retaliate or snitch to Majesty simply because Drew was in the house and I didn't want to risk being  caught.

"Watch yo mouth. Ashley ain't no slut or no bitch." he says, seeming serious. "Wow, are you truly defending this whore right now? What's it going to be?  Are you choosing that bitch or me?" I ask. He gets quiet. "Shai... you already know who I'm choosing, babygirl. I choose her." he says, shattering  my heart.

"That's all I wanted to know." I say, holding back my tears. "We can't do this shit. She said she'll fuck with me again but you  gotta be out the picture. Sorry it gotta be this way." he says. "You are not fucking sorry for shit, bitch ass nigga! You aren't sorry for anything! You don't care about me or my feelings! All you want to do is play stupid games with me! The shit ends  now! I see your true colors and you can go to hell! Why would you lead me on like that? What made me fall deep in love with you is all of the shit that you said and did to and for me when nobody was looking! You treated me like your woman and you  know it so do not ever blame me for  catching feelings and believing you felt the same! Why would you even play me like this?" I scream  at him, bursting into tears.

"Why you crying, Shai? I always told you we couldn't be more than maybe friends. Nobody knew why but Ashley is the reason. I didn't want you trying to be my girl when I knew I already had that behind closed doors. The shit I did for you  is nothing but everything Ashley get from me is real. Shai, what the fuck have you done for me? What did you  bring to the table?" he asks me. I'm so speechless right now.

"Exactly. You ain't got shit to say now. Ashley do so damn much for me. She listen to me, she cook for me, she pray for me, she showing me shit about life I never knew about, and she been helping me learn more about God and become closer to him. But what the hell have you done that'll top that shit? What, you think a nigga want yo ass cause you open yo legs and mouth when I'm horny? Mane, you just a fuck to me." he says.

I hang up the phone. I can't take anymore. I'm so hurt right now. All I can do is cry. That bitch isn't half of what I am. First, Drew broke my heart and now Majesty. What makes the situation worse with Majesty is that I got pregnant with his children and aborted them out of fear but mainly to keep him happy because I felt like that was the last thing he would want, I was there for him every single day following the bad car accident in Las Vegas when he could barely do anything for himself, and I have always done what he told me to do because I fell in love with him. I bet that Ashley whore doesn't even love or appreciate him and she's the one he chooses all because she knows how to throw a Bible at him and make him believe in something. Anybody could do that.

I took the long way home to get myself together but I'm finally pulling into my driveway. Drew is home and I'm hoping he doesn't start anything with me right now. I get out of my car, grabbing my purse and my lunchbox. I walk to the door then unlock it. It smells clean in here and not like his weed like it usually does since he started smoking in the house against my will.

I lock the door as I walk further into our home. Things are nice and neat. Drew jogs down the stairs wearing a pair of jeans while he pulls his shirt over his head. "Wassup, Shai? Go change out your work clothes. We gotta go." he says. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm not in the mood." I say. "You gotta go with me. Come on." he demands, grabbing my hand and leading me up the stairs. "Let my hand go. You haven't invited me to go anywhere with you in I don't know how long so don't have a change of heart now." I say.

"Let's not fight. I missed you." he says, standing behind me. I roll my eyes as he helps me out of my clothes. "I miss you in general." he adds, wrapping his arms around my waist from behind, kissing my neck a little. "Osaze... move." I demand, pulling away. He's following me into the bathroom. "I saw the pictures you posted. Congratulations to you and your baby's mother." I say, still feeling the hurt from it. He wouldn't even do anything to risk getting me pregnant but he impregnated Reign with a fucking smile on his face.

"Thank you." he says, staring at my body while I take my underwear off. He walks past me, running bath water for me. "I'm sorry I hurt you like that. I really am. I ain't gon' lie to you like I regret the baby I got on the way with Reign cause I don't regret none of that. However, I do wish I never would've broke yo heart. I want to work this shit out. I need to know if you on board though. The baby coming and I can't have you and her beefing cause that'll make it hard on my baby. What we doing though, Shai? You staying with a nigga or you out?" he asks, seeming so mature for once.

"I love you... I just will not tolerate your disrespect or the cheating. I'd rather be by myself. If you're going to man up and treat me the way you know I should be treated, we can start over. If not, let's not waste time. I'll be gone." I say. He nods his head, stopping the tub. He put some bubbles in the tub. "I know you love the Jacuzzi tub." he mumbles, watching me step into the boiling hot water.

I'm washing myself and trying to get the things Majesty said out of my head. "You seem tense." Drew says, standing and undoing his belt. I'm not in the mood for sex considering the fact I've just been Majesty's something to fuck. Drew takes his shirt off then steps into the water with me. "I have something I need to tell you... the truth." I say. I give up on everything. If he kills me, at least I'll be out of my misery. "Shhh... we can talk later." he mumbles, kissing my lips as he positions himself between my legs.

"Drew..." I mumble, feeling his kisses all over my neck. He has his eyes closed and I feel his hand on my pussy. "I miss you." he mumbles into my ear. I lightly moan, feeling him stroke into me slowly. "Baby, you been playing with yo pussy or something?" he asks me in between strokes and kisses. "Yes but I miss that dick." I lie, kissing him. I can't deny how good this feels. He's all into it and the water just heightens the experience to me.

"Damn." he lowly curses, speeding up some. He pulls out of me as he curses over and over. "I came fast. My bad." he says, seeming embarrassed. "It's okay." I say. I wasn't in a sexual mood anyway. He gets out of the tub. "We gotta go." he tells me. "Where to?" I ask, grabbing his hand as he helps me out of the tub. "To KeKe house." he answers. "What? Why?" I ask. If Majesty is over there, I might end up strangling him and blowing my cover because I'm still pissed the hell off about his choice of words.

"Him and Nariah decided they wanna get married right away. The preacher coming to they house today. They just inviting family and they having a small lil thing where they kiss and become married. They having a dinner after that. KeKe ain't into big weddings and Nariah just wanna be that nigga wife. He said they might have a big ceremony next year but yeah... that's it." he explains. "Well, at least they're happily in love." I say, rubbing lotion on my body.

"They are. We used to be like that." he says, wrapping his arms around me. "Yes, before you ruined it." I say. "You ain't perfect neither." he says. "Yes but I haven't hurt you like you've hurt me. You're bringing life into this world with your former sideline hoe. Remember that." I say. "Watch yo mouth. I ain't letting her talk shit about you no more and you ain't talking shit about her no more neither." he says. He better leave me the hell alone if he doesn't want to hear what I have to say. Shai who was afraid to stand up for herself is gone.

"Why'd you ask if I've been playing with my vagina?" I ask, walking out of the bathroom. He follows me into the closet. "Because, yo shit felt looser than the last time like you been getting action from somebody else." he answers. "I have been." I admit, watching him raise his eyebrow. "You have?" he asks. "Yes. Can you blame me for buying a realistic penis sex toy? It's about eleven inches long, maybe... and it's hard all of the time. I've been horny." I lie. I literally just watched relief wash all over his face.

"Throw that bullshit away, Shai. You don't need that dumb shit no more since we finna work it out. That bullshit got yo pussy feeling like it ain't for my dick no more. You must've recently used it? It felt like you already been fucked today." he says. "I used it this morning." I lie. Majesty told me if I had sex with Drew immediately after we did it, he'd be able to tell I've been doing something since the last time Drew and I had sex a long time ago. I didn't think anything would feel different. I'm somewhat embarrassed.

He shakes his head at me. I'm getting dressed now. Since Drew is wearing a yellow Gucci shirt, I'm wearing a yellow dress that hugs my curves well but doesn't look slutty. "When you buy them shoes?" he asks, pointing at the gold Yves Saint Laurent heels I'm putting on. Majesty bought me these when he went shopping with his brothers a while back. I wasn't with him but he bought these along with a pink pair as what he called a surprise. This just makes me angry. He was always surprising me with things but would continue to tell lies to his family like I was just some nobody to him.

"Hello? Earth to Shai. Where you get these shoes from? I never bought that shit and you can't afford that shit on yo own." he says. "At least I have a career. Who bought them is irrelevant. If you think you're the only one who has people who love you, you're crazy." I say. He chuckles. "You ain't doing shit but trying to start an argument with a nigga to get the heat off yo own ass. Try again. Answer my question. Who copped you these shoes?" he asks. "A friend." I answer. "Now we getting somewhere. Who the fuck is this nigga? When you get permission to get friends?" he asks. "Drew, shut the hell up. I'm an adult and I have the right to have friends just like you do. It isn't even a man. It's a woman and she's a doctor. She understood I was going through something after my cheating ass man broke my heart so she took me shopping." I lie. If he falls for that, he's dumber than I thought because that's one of the worse lies that I've ever told him.

"That hoe a dyke? Cause ain't no bitch buying n other woman no damn YSL heels cause they nigga hurt they ass." he says, shaking his head side to side like that's just the dumbest thing he's ever heard in his life. "She's a friend of my mom's. You don't like my mother so of course you don't know any of the friends of the family." I lie. Truthfully, I haven't talked to my mother since we came back from La Vegas and Majesty witnessed our bad argument. My mom is just someone who always disappoints me and I can't bring myself to try to trust her again.

"Hell naw." Drew says, shaking his head as he pulls his phone out of his pocket. He starts looking at something. "Who are you calling?" I ask. "Yo damn momma. I feel like you bullshitting. Shai, if I find out another nigga bought you all this bullshit you come up in here with thinking I don't notice, I swear Imma hurt you." he warns me. "My family bought me all of the new clothes and shoes and I bought some of them myself. I do have an actual career, you know? I do not depend on you fr everything. Plus, you can't be angry about other people buying me shit that you won't buy." I say. "I ain't no materialistic ass nigga, Shai! You already knew that when you met me! All the designer in the world don't mean shit to me! I lived without that bullshit before so it ain't necessary! Damn, I buy you the dumb shit sometime but since when have you cared about that? That don't mean go find somebody else to buy it!" he yells at me.

"Drew, no other man bought that!" I yell back at him. He ignores me. "Hello?" he says into the phone, putting it on speaker. My heart literally just dropped. "Who is this?" my mom asks. "Drew." he answers. "Why are you calling me?" she asks in a nasty tone. "Relax. When the last time you seen Shai?" he asks. "What makes your ass think I will tell you anything? If nothing's wrong, we have no reason to speak concerning my daughter. You know I don't like you little thugs she hangs with." she says. Oh shit. "Thugs? As in more than one? Who is the other ones she hanging with?" Drew asks her, glaring at me. My mom starts laughing. "Did I say thugs? I was simply referring to you and your friends." she lies. Drew chuckles. "Damn, Shai. Me trusting you must got you thinking I'm  a damn fool, huh? Who the fuck yo momma talking about?" he yells at me, getting even louder and balling his fist up like he's about to lose it completely. I'm afraid.

"Nobody! I don't know what the hell my mom was even talking about! She probably was trying to get back at you! You have never had a reason to not trust me!" I scream back. "You let my nigga finger you dead in my face! I can't trust you, bruh! Who you been with, Shai?" he yells at me. "Why are you bringing that old situation up?" I ask him. "Cause that shit still relevant, Shaiann! You looked me dead in my face and told me you was falling in love with his ass on that cruise!" he yells. "What? I was messing with you! You know I was just running my mouth! If I was going to actually cheat on you, I would never ever do it with someone who is basically like your cousin or something! Really? At least give me some credit! You are only blaming me because you feel guilty for the things you have done to me! I'm nothing like you! I would never jeopardize what you and I have!" I scream in his face. It isn't working. His eyes are still cold as he glares at me like I'm nothing.

My mom starts laughing some. I forgot she was even on the phone. "Trouble in paradise. If you lay a finger on my daughter, I will call the cops. I just told your behind that I was referring to your little crew you invite over, not some other guy. Just because you aren't shit to brag about doesn't mean Shaiann is doing the same things." my mom lies. "When the last time you seen her? Answer that." he says. I know he's trying to put two and two together because I always tell him that I'm with my mother when I'm really with Majesty. "I see her all of the times." she lies, relieving me a lot. "Oh. for real? She told me about yo doctor friend. That bitch must be a dyke?" he asks her. My mom starts laughing. "Majeen isn't a lesbian, silly. She's just a provider. Yes, she bought Shaiann the gifts, not someone else. That's just the provider in her. You can relax now, Osaze. She isn't fooling around." my mom lies for me. She's petty for making up the name Majeen.

"I bet that hoe gay as hell, mane. I need to meet this bitch Majeen." he says, still not letting up at all. "I thought you've met her. You will someday. Anyways, do not call me with your accusations. I do not like you." she says, hanging up right in his face. Drew looks at me. "I told you. It doesn't matter who you decide to call, Osaze. I'm not doing anything. I just want you to love me." I say, trying to wrap my arms around him. He roughly shoves me, knocking me into the wall. "Get yo ass up off me. You a dyke now? I don't give a fuck who it is. Ain't nobody buying you all this expensive shit for no reason, mane!" he shouts at me, knocking things off of the dresser like he's in some type of rage.

"I told you that I'm being faithful." I say, easing out of the room. I'm scared he'll hit me after the way he roughly pushed me. I don't think I will ever be able to tell him the truth about what I've done. He might actually seriously hurt me after the way he just acted. He's hot on my trail as I make my way down the stairs. He snatches me back by my arm. "Imma take yo word for this shit but Shai, that bitch better not buy you shit else! I'm yo nigga! Yo momma hollering about that hoe a provider to you! A provider? I'll provide that bitch a bullet, real talk!" he goes off. A bullet? As far as I know, he's never committed a crime like that before. He's showing me a side to him that I've never seen and never want to see again.

"Can you calm down?" I ask as I cry some. He shakes his head. "Shai... I did dirt but I never lied and I'm all yours for real now. If you got some shit I need to know, tell me now." he calmly says. I'm debating. "Shai, who really bought that? I want the truth." he says. "She did." I answer. He nods his head. "Let's just go. I can't miss my nigga get married." he says, shaking his head as he walks past me. I never thought it would get this deep. I don't even know what to do. I knew I couldn't hide it forever before he started to catch on but now it's becoming too much to keep a secret. The lies are for his own good.

LALA

All of us are at KeKe's house in his big backyard. Everything is decorated real nice for their small wedding. The pastor is still talking and it's almost time for them to kiss. I'm surprised that Reign and Tae came even though they haven't said shit to Montana and barely anything to our momma. I can't get into that petty shit though. I don't need no negative energy around me right now. Drew and Shai ain't here so I hope no drama happens.

I thought too damn soon because here those two come walking out here. "Y'all are late and they are about to kiss. Don't start no shit today or I'm finishing the shit. Are we clear?" my momma lowly asks those two. They nod their heads. "Kentasia, you may kiss your bride." the pastor says. KeKe wraps his arms around her, kissing her deep as hell. This nigga straight up swallowing her face while our family and her close family clap and cheer for them. "Hell yeah, damn straight! Get it, young buck!" Grandpa Nathan exclaims, clapping. My grandma is whistling. "Oh yeah! That's what the hell I like to see! Look at my handsome grandson! You better kiss that girl! Cheers to that, gotdamnit!" my grandma says loud as hell, clinking glasses with my Uncle Vonte. "Naw, blunts to that!" he announces, passing his blunt to her. Nariah's family is looking at us so crazy.

"Can she breathe, hell?" my dad asks, laughing as they continue the kiss. Poor preacher. That nigga looks like he so damn out of place. Apparently, he's Nariah's grandma's preacher. KeKe pulls away then smiles at her. He takes Kenari out of Nariah's momma's arms then smiles as everybody take pictures. "My baby done got married! I think Imma cry!" my momma exclaims. laughing as she covers her face. "You always cry, grandma." Jelena says, making everybody that know her laugh hard as hell. Even a five year old knows my momma is too emotional for no apparent reason most of the times.

"I gotta be up next." Noble says. "Jaylah, you heard that?" Qua asks her, laughing some. Jaylah pregnant as hell and she huge on top of that. He brought Jaylah here to the wedding because at the end of the day, she still his main bitch regardless, she about to have his baby real soon, my whole family fuck with her, plus Nariah and KeKe invited her to their small wedding. "I am not marrying him." Jaylah says. "You saying that shit like I asked you to marry me. If I were to marry you, it would be to make sure the baby got both parents under the same roof. Why the fuck else would I wife you?" he asks, obviously offended by the way she said what she she said.

Qua awkwardly looks away from them. "LaLa, what you been up to?" he asks, changing the subject. "Just chilling, trying to plot some shit up." I answer. "You ain't plotting shit." I hear Tae say. Both of us are laughing while he hugs me. My brother left me hanging but I get it. Shit ain't the same now. He barely even seems the same. "Mane, whatever. What's good, stranger?" I ask. "Let me talk to you for a minute." he says, pulling me away. "Tae, LaLa, Dream, Sage, Serenity, Amari, and whatever little ones I forgot to mention, get over here and pose for the picture!" my momma demands. I groan as Tae and I walk over to where Nariah, KeKe, and Kenari are standing so we can get this lame ass shit out the way with the photographer.

We took pictures and everything is finally calmed down. Everybody is basically doing their own shit now. Tae and I are walking away from the crowd. "What you need to talk about?" I ask him. "A lot of shit has changed." he points out. "You right." I agree. He nods his head. "I got Lianna pregnant." he admits. I just gasped so hard. "How? Didn't you have a condom when you fucked that girl?" I ask. "I fucked her raw too. The baby died  so fuck it." he says. That shit just threw me for a loop.

"The baby died?" I ask. "Her and Reign basically would've been giving birth around the same time more than likely since they got pregnant around the same time on the same cruise, LaLa." he explains. "I understand that... so, she miscarried?" I ask. "Not exactly how that happened. Her daddy beat her ass and killed the baby on purpose. She never told me she was pregnant and she hid it out of fear cause she knew her daddy was gon' do that shit. She said he seen her stomach and snapped on her and said he giving her an in home abortion." he says, shaking his head.

"Damn... that's so fucked up. I'm sorry that shit happened, Tae." I say. "You ain't nowhere near as sorry as Imma have that nigga feeling." he says. He got that crazy look in his eye that I've only seen him have one time and that was at the therapu session when he pulled a gun on his own daddy. "What you mean?" I ask. "I'm gon' make that hoe ass nigga sorry and you gon' help me... unless you a pussy." he says. "You just graduated from being a pussy. You trying to kill him?" I ask. He looks around, making sure nobody's listening. "I'm gon' do more than just that." he answers. He sound and look like one of those crazy people who snap and shit right now.

I nod my head. "When this gotta happen?" I ask. "Lianna said he got bailed out of jail. Honestly, I want to kill his ass in his church." he says. This nigga so fucking crazy if he thinks I'm about to help kill a nigga in his own church. I ain't going to jail for no dumb ass shit like that. "I killed a nigga in a church once... a relative." Montana says. When the fuck his nosey ass start listening?

"This don't have nothing to do with you and yo past. You never have told us about what you used to do so why start now? Dad,  just leave us alone or me alone." Tae says, glaring at him. Montana chuckles. "What's this shit I heard about you doing a hostile takeover?" he asks Tae. I raise my eyebrow. I'm  confused. Tae don't tell me shit no more but I'll just assume he was gonna get around to that before Montana interrupted our conversation.

"I don't know what you heard." Tae answers him. "You know what I heard." Montana says. Tae looks around then glances at KeKe and Nariah while they smile, hugged up and talking to her relatives. "Can we just enjoy the wedding? I don't feel like arguing with you. You said yourself you giving your rights to me up because I got in a lil trouble at school. So, why you worrying about me for?" Tae asks. "I'm just curious." Montana answers, laughing some like Tae is a joke to him. "How bout this. Everything you got, I bet I can get the same times ten and I will do that. Stay out my way, dad. You ain't stopping me and I will never need no help from you." he says. Montana just started laughing harder. "You got a death wish. What color casket? I wanna bury my son the way he wanna be buried." Montana says. "Why the fuck you even wishing death on me or speaking that shit on my life? Fuck, I hate when you around me!" Tae yells at him, drawing everybody's attention.

Noble walks over here. "Shut the fuck up, Tae. You fucking up the shit for KeKe and Nariah. I understand our family is ratchet as hell and don't care who hear it but her family ain't like that so respect them enough to not tear they shit up in front of her people." Noble says. Montana smiles wide as he walks away like his son didn't just cuss at him loud as hell. Montana is weird as hell for just keeping a sinister ass smile on his face.

Tae shakes his head, walking away from everybody. I'm jogging behind him. "Tae... what you been on, bruh?" I ask. He looks at me. "I robbed a few niggas... drug dealers." he says. "Okay? That ain't no big deal if you came masked up and didn't leave no traces." he says. I don't want to pull his hoe card but I honestly really don't believe him. Tae ain't as timid as everybody try to make him out  to be but he ain't heartless neither so I don't believe he robbed niggas and drug dealers at that. "LaLa... I tried to rob a kingpin." he admits, shocking me.

"You tried?" I ask. He nods his head yes. "Yeah, I shot at the nigga when he was on a date and next thing I knew, his security was coming out the ass at me. I shot a couple of them when I was getting out of there but damn, that shit was close." he says. My eyes widen. "The fuck? Mane, you tried to rob a kingpin alone? What if they know who you are?" I ask as my heart beat speeds up. "I was covered head to toe and I didn't tell nobody I was doing that so I doubt they know who it was trying to take that nigga out." he says.

"What the hell? What if it was somebody my daddy fucks with? Tae, yo daddy won't be the one beefing with another kingpin if they find out it was you, it'll be my daddy! Do you think before you do shit?" I go off on him. "Chill and lower your voice. You overthinking. Ant ain't finna have to go to war with that nigga if that nigga don't even know who the fuck I was. For all he knew, I could've been a woman. The car I came in is now burned up to get rid of all traces. I ain't stupid. I'll kill that nigga before he can even find out my identity." he explains.

"Tae, I don't know. Why you trying to take niggas that powerful out all by yourself? You new to this shit, they ain't." I say. "You must not know how much I've seen and done since momma and my dad did me like that a couple weeks ago? I know what I'm doing, LaLa. I'm building my own shit and can't nobody stop that. If I get knocked down, Imma get back up." he says. "That would sound good if this was a fucking video game where you get a bunch of lives but nigga you only got one life. The fuck you risking it for no reason for? Who you trying to prove a point to?" I ask him. "Everybody." he answers.

I shake my head. "Mane... Tae, you bullshitting." I say. "The fuck you mean? When you become so high and mighty, Antayla? What, you turning soft on a nigga? You bitching out now, mane? We did all this talk about what we gon' do but now that I'm lining the shit up for it to fall in place, you thinking twice about it. What the fuck will it  be? Either you in or you out." he says. "I'm out, nigga. Fuck you. Get killed by yourself cause you ain't even planning shit right. You starting beef with too many people at the same time and you ain't invincible." I say, walking away from him. I never thought I wouldn't ride for Tae on something but that's for the best. "Fuck you too then." I hear him mumble.

I just walked inside of the house to get away from everybody and think. I need to clear my mind. I walk into KeKe's kitchen where my momma and the chef are. Everything smells so good. They have all types of different foods. "Hey, LaLa. How are you?" our chef asms. She is an older black lady and my parents pay her good whenever my mom don't feel like cooking dinner herself. "I'm doing okay." I answer her. "What's wrong with you?" my mom asks me as she pours herself a glass of wine. "Nothing, I'm just bored, ma." I lie. She eyes me for a second. "Go tell your daddy to announce that the food is ready and to tell everybody to come in the dining room." she demands. I nod my head, walking out of the kitchen.

"Where you going, sweetie pie?" Uncle Torren asks me. "Outside to tell my dad to let everybody know the food just got done." I answer. He nods his head. "Let me go help your momma set this table." he says. I nod my head, chuckling as I watch him switch straight into the kitchen. I love how him and Miguel both are proud as hell to be gay and don't give a fuck who see the way they are. I'm the total opposite of that shit. I get all ashamed of myself sometimes and I even lie like I'm straight when I'm in certain situations because everybody ain't accepting of me eating pussy in all actuality.

I'm outside, heading over to my dad while he talks to Qua. They stop talking as they look at me. "What's goin' on, La?" my dad asks me. "Momma told me to tell you to let everybody know the food is ready." I answer. He nods his head, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. "We'll finish that conversation later on, Qua." he says. "Bet." Qua says, shaking his head. My dad ad I just walked away. "What the hell you looking all sad about?" he asks. "Tae being stupid and it made me mad. I'm cool though, dad." I answer him. "Don't even stress about that. People gon' be stupid for life." he says, making me laugh a little. "Look at that bitch ass nigga yo sister let put a baby in her. If this wasn't my son wedding, I would've went over there and broke my foot off in that nigga ass by now. He ain't safe though, LaLa. Next time I see him, Imma beat his ass." my dad calmly says, looking over at Drew and Shai. "What he do to you?" I ask. "He talked too much bullshit so I'll handle that." he answers.

"Dad, you too old to be fighting Drew." I say, laughing. "I ain't that old, LaLa and I still got it. I'll break that nigga face." he says. "Just let it go. It ain't even worth the drama." I say. "Look at you trying to be my parent." he says. My momma opens the door to the house. "Antasia, I know LaLa told you to let everybody know the food is ready and I know you saw me text you and tell you too because it let me know the text message had been read! Quit playing with me!" she goes off. "Chillax, baby. That proper ass food ain't going nowhere. Everybody, please come and eat this shit before my wife piss me off and bring out the wrong personality in front of all of y'all because she got a smart ass mouth! The food ready!" he announces, walking in the house. Well, damn.

Everybody already went inside. I'm just standing out here still. Tae is way across the backyard sitting in the gazebo. I walk over to where he is. He looks up at me. "Tae... for real?" I ask as he pops a pill right in my face. "What?" he asks, downing it with some water. "What was that?" I ask. "Don't worry about it." he answers, standing up. He rotates his neck a little bit. "You pop pills now, don't you?" I ask. "LaLa, I got issues. I need to keep myself high or I'll snap." he says. "So... you hooked on pain killers now?" I ask. "I ain't hooked on shit that'll kill me." He says. "I'm in." I say. "What?" he asks. "I'm in on whatever you doing." I say. He nods his head. The only reason I'm agreeing is because I feel like I gotta look out for him. Tae is smart as hell but he does shit in the heat of the moment a lot so I need to be there to stop him like always. Plus, I gotta make sure he don't overdose on no pain pills. I gotta fugure out how to make him get rid of that shit for good.

REIGN

The dinner is going smoothly and I'm glad. I'm so happy for Nariah and KeKe. I'm glad he hurried up and made her his wife even though they didn't decide to go all out for it. That's how I know she loves him. He got her a custom made, really expensive ring and was willing to do the big wedding but she has always said she'll be just fine with just being his wife. I can't see them ever divorcing. It seems like he's the only sibling that got grown and had all of their shit together. Jessie got a good career but his love life is shitty as hell. The twins and I are all a hot mess too.

"You got something on your mind?" Uncle Vonte asks me. "It's nothing serious." I answer. I try to get past it but sometimes, my uncle disgusts me because he had fucked my momma right before I came to smoke with him that day and he lied to me knowing she was in his bed naked. "You know I'm real sorry for hurting y'all. You my baby so especially you." he mumbles. "It's okay, Uncle Vonte." I say. He nods his head. "You got any baby names in mind?" he asks me. "Nope. I haven't thought about it. I'm not too thrilled to be having your adopted son's baby by any means." I admit. "I know but that's still a part of you, Reign." he says. "I know that. I love my baby to death already, believe me. I just wish my child had a better father. I wish it was Qua." I say. "I get that but niece, y'all can't take nothing back now. That's you and Drew baby until the end, All you can do at this point is fuck with Qua if he want you and possibly give baby Drew a sibling later on." he says, making me laugh some.

"Where in the world is Majesty?" Sage asks. "Yeah, where's Uncle Magic stick?" Jelena asks. "I don't know. He left earlier after they got married and said that he was coming back." my momma answers. Ain't no telling with Majesty. Knowing him, he won't even come back if he goes somewhere and gets high. At least we know he ain't with Shai because she is right here at the table next to Drew eating her food. Drew hasn't really said that much to anybody. "AHow many months are you?" Nariah's aunt asks me, smiling. "She just about four months." Drew answers before I can. "I can speak for myself." I say. "I'm just claiming my child." he says. "Everybody knows you are the father so let's not be extra." I say. "I'm about to be extra if y'all don't calm that shit down." my momma demands.

"This chicken is so good." Miguel mumbles, eating like his fifth piece of grilled chicken. "Right." Shai agrees with him. Everybody just stopped and looked at her. "Jessie." Amari lowly says, still catching our attention. "What?" Jessie asks. "You finally wanna talk, Amari?" Nariah asks him, smiling. "You had sex?" Amari mumbles his question, pointing at Jessie's neck. Literally all eyes are on Jessie as his face turns red. "What you even pointing at, Amari? That shit ain't no appropriate topic for yo ass. Watch yo mouth." my dad fusses at Amari. Amari starts laughing. "Jessie got a hickey." he says, still laughing. Amari is very quiet but everybody knows his lil bad butt is always up to something on the low.

"Amari, be quiet." Jessie demands, moving his hair closer to his neck. "About time you got some ass." my granddad mumbles, shaking his head. I agree. I'm happy for him. Meanwhile, I'm out here sexually frustrated and overly hormonal. Qua is across this table looking so damn good. After our kiss at his condo , it only made me want that nigga even more. I can barely stop looking at his fine ass. He looks so good in his wedding clothes. I wonder how he'd dress if we were to ever get married or something like that. I would literally crawl under this table and suck his dick and his balls right now if everybody wasn't in here.

Majesty walks in here with some girl. She's pretty. She's on the heavier side but she ain't all sloppy and careless looking. She's one of those big girls who got everything in place. She's dressed in a cute, off the shoulder white dress. Her jewelry makes everything stand out, her hair is in a cute long curly ponytail with a nice curly bang, her nails are done, and she has on a little makeup but not a lot at all. Majesty is dressed in all white like everybody else and his bow tie is a light peach color that matches her nails and her eye shadow color. This girl literally looks exactly how Majesty describes his taste. She's on the bigger side, she seems real sweet, an she has a dark brown skin color.

"Look at you two matching. That's very cute." Shai's ole salty ass says. If she sits here and gets some bullshit started in my brother's house right after his wedding, I swear I'm gonna slap the hell out of her ass pregnant and all. That is so disrespectful. "Thanks." Ashley says, eyeing Shai like she disgusts her. Do they know each other or something? Majesty clears his throat some. "This Ashley." he announces. Some of the family is greeting her but mainly everybody is just trying to figure out exactly who she is to him. "Hey, Ashley." my mom says, smiling some as she looks her over like she trying to rate her in her mind. "Hi." Ashley shyly says, seeming scared as hell.

"Y'all gon' speak, twins?" he asks Sage and Serenity. "Sup?" Sage asks her. Serenity waves a little. "I'm trying to read my story, Magic Stick. Hello, Ashley." Serenity greets her, not taking her eyes off of the Dr. Seuss book she's reading. My baby sister is so smart and she can read on a way higher level than a lot of the other five year old kids in her school. "Don't mind them." Majesty says to Ashley. "This your girl?" my dad asks Majesty. Majesty has never had a girl he brought home like this. He seems nervous about it. "Uh... well, me and her... um..." he mumbles, avoiding eye contact with Shai. This is terrible.

"We're friends." Ashley answers for him. "I like her." Majesty admits, pulling a chair out for her. Damn, they're across from Drew and Shai. He sits down next to Ashley. "Nice to meet you.  I'm his sister, Reign." I say. "Nice to meet you too, Reign." she says. "I'll formally introduce you to everybody later in the night but that's my momma Jessica and my dad Ant." Majesty tells her, pointing. They all just greeted each other. "I met you already but I'm Drew. This my wife Shai." Drew says to Ashley. This is awkward. Ashley looks from Shai to Drew like she's trying to put something together. "Wow, you two are married?" Ashley asks him like she can't believe what she just heard. "Yeah." Drew answers, shrugging his shoulders. "It's nice to see you... Shai." Ashley says.  Oh shit. Majesty's girls had a run in with each other at some point.

Everything is awkward. Everybody who knows what it is between Shai and Majesty are dead silent while Majesty eats off of LaLa's plate, avoiding eye contact with all of us. "How old are you, Ashley?" my mom asks her, breaking the silence. "I'm twenty two." she answers. "Same age as the twins. I figured that." my momma says. Presley just stumbled in here all drunk and shit. I haven't seen his stupid ass since the therapy session. My Uncle Adam groans as he rolls his eyes. My dad, granddad, and Uncle Vonte haven't talked to Adam since his shocking confession but at least he came here. "Who invited him? Why?" Adam snaps. "Come lick my asshole again. You know you want to, faggot." Presley's words slur out.

"Oh, hell fucking naw, mane! I asked y'all to come together one fuckin' day and act right for Nariah's family but y'all can't even respect a nigga wishes on his wedding day! Y'all ain't coming to shit else and I mean that!" KeKe snaps on everybody. "Nobody even did shit." my dad says. "Yo sick ass stepson and yo sick ass baby brother nasty as hell and came in here saying that nasty bullshit in front of my wife family and in front of these kids! Presley, I tried to overlook yo slick ass comments because you got issues but you ain't the only one that fucked up shit happened to! Damn near everybody in this family done been through some bullshit in life, mane! Go lay on the couch and sober up because if you say one more thing out the side of yo neck, Imma handle you and I promise to god you don't want me to do you like that!" KeKe goes off. "Baby, calm down. Are y'all leaving?" Nariah asks her family, looking all upset as her people walk straight out of here like my family is too extreme for them.

"I can say what I want." Presley says. "Nigga, shut the fuck up!" Majesty yells at Presley, shocking everybody. he's mad as hell and everything just got dead silent. "Like KeKe said, it's his wedding day and his wife family leaving cause of this, momma sitting right here while you being disrespectful as hell to her and all the lil kids, and on top of that you embarrassing the shit out of me in front of her!" Majesty goes off, pointing at Ashley. He must really care about her if her opinion matters to him. Presley looks at Ashley. "Who cares about the way this fat ugly bitch feels? I hope she isn't your girlfriend. She looks like shit. What does she do for a living, work at a bowling alley? She looks way below your status. Where did you find her, in South Central? Drop the basic chick. Let's go find Majesty a sexy bitch in Beverly Hills." Presley slurs out. My momma looks at Majesty. "Get his ass." she demands as Majesty starts beating the shit out of Presley. I know my momma is mad if she told Majesty to handle his ass.

Presley got everybody at the table mad and talking about him for what he did. "Ashley, don't even mind his ass." my dad says to Ashley as she fights back tears. Majesty is straight wilding out on Presley. He got that nigga under the table stomping and still punching his ass. Drew and my uncle just started trying to break it up. "Y'all ain't gon' help break that up?" KeKe angrily asks my mom and dad. "Hell naw." my dad answers. "Nope. I don't care if they're both my sons. Majesty deserves to beat his ass real good for coming up in here talking about Ashley like that. That shit ain't cool and that shit ain't cute nor funny to me neither. He gotta learn. Imagine how you'd feel if a nigga did that to Nariah? If he goes out in public doing that shit, somebody gon' kill him so it's best for him to learn how to watch his damn mouth at home." my momma says. "I understand that but on my wedding day? Y'all really can't be for real." KeKe says.

Majesty sits back down in his seat, popping his knuckles. He fixes his bow tie as he grabs the bottle of 100 proof Tequila from the middle of the table. My eyes widen as he chug s that shit down like water. He swallows it then groans a little as it burns. Everybody's staring at him like he lost his damn mind. Majesty is a real Tequila drinker but gotdamn, he's crazy for that. "Alcoholic alert." Shai mumbles. "Hoe ass bitch alert." Majesty says back to her. "I wasn't talking to you." she says. "Oh, hell." my momma mumbles, face palming herself. "You was talking about me though. If I'm an alcoholic, it's cause  I be trying to drink the image of yo thot ass out my brain." he says. "Yeah, whatever. You fucking alcoholic. You need to go to rehab as soon as possible. Who drinks the strongest Tequila like it's water? You need help before you get alcohol poisoning you screwed up liver having bastard." Shai goes off.

"Why the fuck you talking to her like that?" Drew snaps on Majesty. Majesty ignores him as he looks at Shai. "Shai, nobody in this bitch like you except Drew. You damn near make me sick to my stomach." he says. "Can you stop it?" Ashley asks Majesty. "Naw, it need to happen." my dad says, sighing as he moves knives away from everybody. "Fuck you! I really fucking hate you!" Shai screams, jumping out of her seat. "Bitch, I hate you too!" Majesty yells back. "I hate everybody! Now, can we all eat?" Qua changes the subject. Drew chuckles. "Tell me something. Nigga, you fucking my wife?" Drew calmly asks Majesty, pulling his gun. My heart just started beating so fast.

"Nope." Majesty answers. "Why the fuck would you ask him something like that?" Shai's guilty ass screams at Drew. "What y'all arguing for?" Drew asks. "Yo bitch don't want me and I don't want her. I never have fucked her and I never will, aight? I ain't the nigga you should worry about. I got a girl." Majesty lies, wrapping his arm around Ashley. "Ashley, have you seen Shai with yo nigga before? I picked up on the vibe when y'all met." Drew says. "I went to high school with her and we didn't care for each other. Majesty is always with me so when in the world could he have sex with your wife? Bro, that's so far from true. I'm over Majesty's house more than I'm even at home and we do everything together. Do not accuse him of doing that, okay? This girl has never been seen at his home." Ashley lies. I know damn well she lying because Majetsy's house damn near has Shai's named written all over it at this point. "Exactly. Nigga, my brother don't want her ass." Noble lies, glaring at Drew. Drew puts his gun away, looking like he regrets accusing Majesty. "Damn, my bad, bruh. I'm trippin'." he apologizes to Majesty. "We good." Majesty says. This is trifling at its finest.

"Just because you call yourself not trusting me doesn't mean you can go accusing your friends." Shai says. "I said it was my bad. Drop it." he demands. "Everybody is so screwed up in the head. Nariah and KeKe, can I go upstairs and lay down?" I ask. They nod their heads yes, both seeming pissed the hell off and I can't blame them. I stand up then walk out of the dining room. I can't take no more of that shit. I'm heading up the stairs. I walk in the guest room then sit on the bed. I'm not sure if Drew is just slow or choosing not to deal with it now but it's so obvious that Shai and Majesty creep around. 

"Mane, what you want me to say?" I hear Majesty ask. I walk to the door the peek out. Majesty and Ashley are up here and it seems like they're arguing. "You fooling around with her behind my back and having her in your house without me knowing is one thing but for you to bring me here just to be disrespected by not only your brother but by your side bitch is another thing. Are you fucking serious, Majesty? Isn't he your Uncle's adopted son or something? So, he's pretty much like a cousin or someone close to you. Are you seriously fucking his wife? You know what, this is a sick ass situation that I want no parts of. You're lucky I covered for you. I'm not putting up with this. As far as I know, you haven't broken things off with her. I'm done, Majesty. Maybe, you should go to Beverly Hills and find one of those silly bitches to play these games with you, like your brother said. Feel free to take me home when you get a chance." she goes clean off on my brother. I like her.

"Baby, on my momma I cut her off when you told me to because I want you. I ain't lying. That stupid bitch just bitter as hell and that's why she did all that. Why the fuck would I choose that bitch over you? I used to be close as hell to her husband and she knew that but still let me fuck.  I feel like a bitch like that can't be trusted no matter how the situation is. So, no, I don't want that homie hopper. I want you." he says. I roll my eyes. I still feel like he likes Shai more than he says he does but whatever. "Let me tell you something. You are just as guilty as she is and when he stops being in denial with himself and actually follows his intuition like he started to at the dinner table, it's gonna be bad for you." she says. "That ain't gon' even happen cause I'm through with that bitch cause me and you gotta happen or I don't want nobody at all." he says.

"Majesty..." she says. "What, Ashley? I'm dead serious. I ain't ever felt no shit like how I be feeling about you. I fuck her thinking about you the whole time and these facts. That bitch swear I make love to her but I promise I really just be thinking about what I wanna do to you when you finally decide to let me." he  says. I swear I refuse to be played by a nigga again because I've seen my brothers play so many games. This nigga is on some other shit. "You are so trifling. Do not lie. Do you have feelings for her?" she asks him. He's looking her dead in her eyes in silence. "Is that silence a yes, Majesty? I thought you didn't care about her? Niggas and their games." she says. "Chill. I care about her as a person. It's impossible to constantly spend time with somebody and not end up caring about them. I don't have no romantic feelings though. It ain't none of that bullshit. She cool but ion like her like that." he says.

She shakes her head. "We've been dealing with each other for a while now and you're finally bringing me around your family. Judging the way everyone looked between me and her, she's been around your family a lot and they know what you guys have. It sounds like more than a fling." Ashley says. "My family can't stand that girl, Ashley. It's a lot to this story that you don't know. I told you I cut her off with no hesitation for you. I ain't talking about it no more. You with me or you ain't, straight up?" he asks. "I ain't. Figure out what needs to happen." she answers, walking away. He grabs her arm the n pins her to the wall. My eyes widen as he kisses her slowly. "Ashley... Ion wanna be nowhere else but with you." he softly says. She kisses him back then walks away, heading to the stairs with his arms around her. Wow, Majesty actually has feelings for her. He never in a lifetime would have showed that side of him if he knew that i was being nosy and watching them.

I'm lying in the bed scrolling through the baby strollers on the Saks website. I'm really about to be a mommy soon. I can just imagine how cute I'm gonna keep my son or daughter looking. I wonder if my baby will look like me or Drew or just a really cute combination of both of us. Drew has cute brown eyes and I hope my baby will have them too. Qua walks in here, breaking my train of thought. He closes the door behind him. "Hey." I greet him. He lays across the bed. "I'm tired." he says, ignoring Chanel as she calls his phone. Fuck Chanel.

"Me too." I admit. I'm glad me and him are at least friends now. "That was some crazy ass shit right there." he lowly says. "Right. They were a hot ass mess." I agree. "Shai and Drew left and I think Majesty and his girl leaving. Everybody else still chilling. I think I'm about to head out too. I got something I need to see about this evening." he says. "Got somebody to fuck?" I ask, making him laugh. "Yeah, you." he answers. "Say no more." I say, pulling my pants down. I want all action, the hell he think this is?

He starts laughing. "Put yo pants back on, freaky ass lil girl. I was playing." he says. "Qua, when you gon' fuck me? I know you want to just as bad as I need it."  I say. "After you have that nigga baby and everything heal up, I'm gon' fuck the shit out of you." he says, making me tingle down below. I climb on top of him, straddling his lap. "Why can't you do it now? It won't hurt my baby." I say. He kisses me on my lips. "I know it won't hurt the baby but this ain't the right time." he says, making me pout. "Your dick is hard. Nigga, get some of your pussy." I demand, pulling my panties down. "It's mine?" he asks, rubbing it a little. "You know it is." I answer.  He smiles some. "It's funny cause you didn't even want a nigga at first." he says. "I want you more than anything now." I assure him. Drew or nobody else can change that.

We just started kissing. His phone starts ringing again. I roll my eyes as Chanel's name flashes across his screen. "Block that hoe." I demand. "I didn't block you when we broke up and the reason me and you broke up is way more serious than the petty shit I dropped Chanel for." he says. "What you trying to say, Qua?" I ask. "That I'm not blocking her, Reign." he answers. "Why the hell not? Do you honestly consider getting back with that silly bitch? I swear this is why I fucking hate niggas." I say. He starts shaking his head. "This why we never should've kissed and this why I ain't trying to fuck you. You trying to turn all crazy on a nigga and I don't need it." he says. "Bye, Qua. Stupid fuck." I say. "Pregnant by an ain't shit ass nigga ass girl." he says back to me. I roll my eyes as him. "Bitch." I mumble. "Unstable, mental ass bitch." he says back, shocking me. I can't believe he's talking to me like this. "Don't look like that. If you wanna name call, let's do it." he says, raising his eyebrow.

I just broke down crying. I'm so upset. "You don't love me or care about me no more, you chose Chanel over e, and you called me an unstable, mental ass bitch I hate you." I cry. "Reign, quit crying." he says. "No. I don't need no fucking nigga anyway you dick head. Your head game ain't good no way." I lie, sniffling. "Damn, that baby got you hormonal as hell. How my head game bad if you begging for it?" he asks, smirking. "You won't give it to me because you think I'm a crazy bitch." I say. "You ain't no crazy bitch, Reign. I just said it to get back at you for starting it first." he says. I wrap my arms around him, pulling him closer. "Bi-polar at its finest." he says. "So." I say. He sighs, ignoring Chanel again. I push him off of me. "Go be with her, bastard." I demand. I hate his ass.

MAJESTY

I'm at home lonely and bored. I can't call Shai and tell her to pull up and it ain't like I can call Ashley neither because she mad as hell. I won't be surprised if she never ever answer my calls again. My family was embarrassing then the truth almost came out at the table. That was some crazy ass shit right there. Noble is somewhere shopping for a few things with Jaylah for their baby shower and ain't no telling where Qua is. All of my hoes I had on stand by got niggas now or they busy. I'm in bad shape over here.

It smells like Shai in my room and a lot of her shit is in here and in my bathroom so I can't get her out my head. I sigh, standing up. I need to get her shit out of here. I'm grabbing clothes and shoes and throwing that shit in a pile. I walk in my bathroom then shake my head. My shit looks like I'm some type of married nigga. I'm grabbing all billion and one of her body sprays off of the counter. My phone starts ringing. It's an unknown number. I answer it while I throw her lotion in the garbage can. "Who is it?" I ask. "I'm calling you from an app. Open the door." Shai demands, hanging up on me. Fuck, I hate her ass right now.

I jog downstairs then open the door. "I don't see yo car." I say, letting her in. "I caught a ride. Drew is at the airport about to catch a flight to New York. He said he wanted to get by himself and clear his mind." she says. "What that got to do with you coming here? Leave. I can't stand you for the shit you pulled. I told you I don't want you so what you here for?" I ask. I cut her ass off earlier so the fuck do she want from me?

"I just need closure. What makes you want her?" she asks. "I told you that on the phone earlier." I answer. I told her all she needed to know when I cut her off. "If you wanna get yo shit from over here, I got some boxes in the garage. If not, I'm throwing it away." I warn her. "I'm not throwing anything away. I know you love me." her delusional ass says.  "No I don't." I say. "Yes you do." she says.

"Bye." I say. "She isn't even your type." she says. "You don't know me good enough to know that." I say. "Cause she is my type." I add. "Why did you lead me on knowing she was in the picture?" she asks. "Bye, Shai. I'm done talking about it and we done with each other." I say. She wraps her arms around me. "I just need to know why you did that to me. Why would you hurt me?" she asks, in tears. "I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't plan on spending so much time with you but... that shit just happened." I admit.

"I know you're not with her as much as you're with me." she says. "My bad, Shai. This the last time you can come by here and I'm serious." I say. She starts crying harder. Somebody rings my doorbell. I look out of the window. That's Ashley. "Get in the closet and don't come out no matter what." I say. "What, why?" she asks. "Just do it." I demand. My closet is big as hell so it ain't like it's a cramped up space. She walks in then closes the door with the light off in there.

I walk down to the door then let Ashley in. I close and lock the door. I'm silently leading her up to my room. "Does this shit belong to her?" she asks me as I knock the pile of Shai's stuff on the floor. "Yep." I answer truthfully. I sit down at the edge of my bed. "I figured you didn't want me no more." I say. "Everybody deserves a second chance, Majesty. It just better not be anything between you and her." she says. I nod my head, kissing her on her lips.

I raise my eyebrow as she takes everything off. Damn, she looks good naked. "What's this for?" I ask as she climbs in the bed by me. She kisses my lips. "I want you." she shyly admits, blushing. I kiss her then move down to sucking her nipples. I'm frustrated as hell so I'm glad she want some dick, finally.

I'm down, giving her head while she moans softly. Damn, I feel like a fucked up nigga cause I know Shai is in the closet witnessing all of this shit. I kiss her clit softly while I pull my dick out. She pulls my head back between her legs. "Don't stop." she mumbles with her eyes closed while I eat the fuck out of her pussy all over again. Most people assume I don't like eating pussy because I'm never committed to nobody but that ain't true. I love eating my female friends out when I fuck them even though that's just three girls. Me and all three of them fuck each other at the same time on some Playboy ass shit, actually.

I pull away then reach in my nightstand drawer. She watches me grab a condom. I open it then slide it on my dick. She takes a deep breath. "What's wrong?" I ask. "You're big. Really... big." she answers, pointing at my dick. "It'll feel good, baby." I say. She got my dick too hard to back out now. I need that.

It took a few minutes but I'm finally inside of her now. She already trying to push my chest while I fuck her. "Relax, damn." I say, kissing her lips. She calms down a little while I fuck her slow. She feels good but I bet it would be better without this condom. I ain't taking it off though. I damn sure don't need another baby. I'm glad my momma wanted to keep Major for me tonight. Lord knows I don't need a Major part two at all.

"Majesty!" she damn near screams, digging her nails all in my back. I'm tearing Ashley up right now, kissing her on her neck. Her legs are shaking while I stroke her long. She starts moaning, pushing my chest while I slow it down some. She kisses my lips while I speed back up. "Shit." I curse, busting a nut. I pull out of her then pull the condom off. I walk into my bathroom then flush it down the toilet.

"You liked that?" I ask Ashley. We went at it for a good hour. "Yes. That felt so good." she answers, kissing me. "It's like I literally never want to let you go." she adds. "I don't wanna let you go neither." I admit, grabbing my rolled blunt and lighter off the nightstand. I light it then inhale the smoke. "Nope, Ion never want to be without you." I say again, blowing smoke out of my mouth.

I'm smoking a blunt while she holds on to me. I can tell she just got all sprung and shit. "That was more than I imagined it being." she says. I'm high as hell right now. "It was?" I ask, putting the blunt back in my mouth. She nods her head yes, coughing some. "My bad, baby. The smoke fucking with you?" I ask. "A little." she admits. I sit the blunt in my ashtray. "Damn, I wish you would've been told me." I say as she coughs a little more. "I think I'm high." she slowly says, looking at me funny. I'm laughing now. She caught a contact.

I'm just laid up, talking about whatever with Ashley. I'm high as fuck and feeling good and relieved. "Do you want any more kids?" she asks. "I want to tell you the truth cause I don't need it coming back up. I got Shai pregnant a while back but we didn't have the babies. No, she ain't still pregnant." I admit. "What? Are you serious?" she asks. "I was supposed to be a triplet myself and she just so happened to get pregnant with triplets herself." I say. "You guys aborted triplets?" she asks. "I ain't going in detail about her business but that shit was for the best." I say.

It does bother me sometimes that Shai aborted them without even giving me an option to tell her not to but it is what it is. I wish she never did that shit. I'm not trying to have no more  kids but I still would've been happy since I made them. Oh well. I'll never tell her that abortion shit bothers me everytime I see her though.

She kisses my lips. "Are you hungry?" she asks. "Nah. I need to go to the liquor store to get some 1800 or something." I say. She sighs. "I saw the way you drank all of that Tequila earlier and that was crazy. You really want more? What happened to that big bottle of 1800 I saw here the last time I came?" she asks. "It wasn't that much left and I drank it with my brother." I answer. "So... you want more alcohol for real?" she asks. I nod my head yes, yawning. "I wanna be drunk and fall asleep." I answer.  "Are you depressed?" she asks. "As fuck." I admit.

"Why? Is it me?" she asks. I kiss her. "Hell naw, it ain't you. I'm fine, baby. I promise." I say. She looks at me. "I don't want you to drink." she says. "Just get some rest." she says. "I will cause you said so." I say, closing my eyes.

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I just woke up. I don't know how long I was sleeping but Ashley is up with her clothes back on. "You were knocked out for four hours. You needed the rest." she says. Damn, I can't believe I slept that long. Oh fuck. Shai is in the closet still. "Yeah. Ashley, I'll come see you probably in the morning after I go pick my son up and take him to a restaurant or some shit to see his momma." I say. She nods her head. "I was about to head out anyway. My mom needs help painting her living room." she says "Aight, I'll see you later." I say, pulling on a pair of boxers and some gym shorts.

I just walked her out. I watch as she pulls off then close and lock the door. Damn, I left Shai in there longer than I planned on doing. I walk back up to my room then open my closet. She immediately attacks me, punching, slapping, scratching, and kicking me. "You bitch! You are a fucking bitch!" she screams, still punching. I slam her down on the bed. "Shai, cut it out!" I demand while she kicks me and punches the back of my head, trying to get up.

"You fucked that bitch, went down on her, and everything else like I'm not shit!" she screams. "I have been in your closet for hours listening to your dumb ass lay up with some random bitch! Fuck that!" Shai screams. I let her up then step away from her. "Nobody told you to come by here. You got the cut off notice a long time ago." I say. She draws back then slaps the shit out of me.

I watch as she breaks down crying hard as hell claiming she hates me over and over. "If you hate me, why you still here?" I ask. "Because I love your low down ass, stupid idiot!" she screams at me. "Aight." I say. This is exactly why I'm taking my ass straight to the liquor store and Imma tear that bottle up when I get back home. I got Shai in my ear and Ashley too. It's like no matter what crazy shit I say or do to Shai, she won't leave a nigga alone.

"I didn't mean to lead you on." I say to Shai as she calms down. "Well, you did and it hurts." she says. "How can I trust you or take you serious? You married." I say. She walks over to me then sits beside me on the bed. She breaks down crying on the bed. "Why can't you see what you have in me?" she asks, crying on my chest.

"I do see it but Shai, me and you could never do more than just fuck. Look at the circumstances and be honest with yourself. Just think about how you married to a nigga my uncle adopted who is also my sister baby daddy and somebody I used to be close as hell to before I did this shit with you to be spiteful for what he did to my sister. How the hell could I take you serious with some shit like this?" I ask her. "You told me to figure out what I'll do when it comes to him and I've decided. I'll leave him right now if you leave her for me." she says. I sigh, looking away from her. Shai be making shit so hard for me. "Shai... no. I want her. That's less complicated." I say.

She just staring at me like she just went into shock. "Shai." I say, wrapping my arms around her. "Maybe, in a perfect world shit would be different. Maybe, if we didn't meet and start chilling with each other like this, I would want you. You fine as hell... and funny to me, at least. You smart... yeah. If you leave Drew, do that shit for yourself and not for me, mane. Ain't shit wrong with you. Find somebody that'll do you way better than Drew. Plus, you deserve better than to be just somebody I fuck, aight? Find somebody that'll do you right." I say. She ain't no fucked up person like everybody make her out to be so I actually do want the girl to be happy. She just can't be happy with me.

"But all I want is you. Nobody can replace you. You're one of those one in a million people who just can't be replaced." she says, staring at me with tears in her eyes. I tak a deep breath. "Shai... come on,  you know it can't happen." I say. "Yes it can. We can move away and be happy." she says. "Shai, no. I'm happy with Ashley. I cannot be with you. We can be cool but we can't do nothing else." I say. She starts crying hard all over again. Why the fuck it feel like I'm going through a breakup or some shit?

"All of this was probably meant to happen. Say what you want but I know you have feelings for me." she says. "I care about you which is why I'm saying you better than just being my something to do. I ain't making you my side bitch neither." I say. "So, that's it? You're really gonna be with her?" she asks. "Yeah." I answer. She lays her head on my chest, full blown sobbing. I feel so bad for this shit and I don't even know why.

"I love you... please, don't do this." she begs. "It gotta happen. We played a real dangerous game fucking with each other in the first place." I say. She ain't saying nothing. She just sniffling hard, trying to stop crying some type of way. I wrap my arms around her then kiss her forehead. "I'm sorry, Shai." I apologize. I really am sorry but it is what the fuck it is.

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