ANT & JESSICA A LIL OLDER IN THE MEDIA.

"Am I queen of fools? Wrapped up in lies and foolish jewels. What do I see in you? Maybe I'm addicted to all the things you do." - Nicki Minaj

REIGN

"I'm bored." I say, tapping Majesty's shoulder as he drives. We've been on the road forever and we have way more to go. It's dark outside and I'm the only one woke back here.

"Bruh, stop fucking touching me and shit, I'm trying to focus on the fucking  highway and you fucking with me. Damn, stop." he goes off, squinting his eyes. "Instead of going off on me, you need to put your fucking glasses on cause you know you a blind bat." I say, making him laugh a little.

"Shut up, I'm trying to concentrate. In a minute, imma say fuck this shit. Well, I'm finna drive to the hotel. I'm tired now." he says, glancing at the nearest exit sign. I nod my head. "I got a question... why you so mean to momma? What she do to you? Be real with me." Majesty says, turning the turn signal on.  "I don't try to, I really don't. I don't know what it is. One minute I'm happy with her, the next I hate her." I answer. "You bipolar like daddy, mane." he says. "No I'm not. Daddy has a schizoaffective disorder and some more scary shit. I'm nothing like that." I say. "You have anger problems and your feelings change so fast. Bi polar." he says. "Whatever." I say.

"Where are we anyways? Are we at the halfway point yet?" I ask him as the sun rises a little bit. "Yeah, we in some part of Texas. Momma said her and Montana not too far right now, they coming." he says. I roll my eyes. "Did she really hop back on his dick again? Gotdamnit, she so indecisive. Every time her and daddy fight, she back on Montana's dick. I love Montana but still... that annoys me. Plus, the day everything happened, daddy didn't even do nothing to momma. He just tried to defend me cause she was trying to kill me. He didn't disrespect her at all, she just went the fuck off on him and me." I vent as Majesty parks the van.

"Hell naw momma not back with Montana. I talk to her every day. This the first time he saw her since she left cause he picked her up from the airport. It ain't like she all up on the nigga and he not all on her. I know he love her and all but he respect her too much to try to make her feel obligated to fuck with him like that. Yo problem is you trying to find a flaw in Montana every chance you get. You know damn well the nigga would never take her down that road again when that's the main thing she trying to get help with." Majesty says. "Young nigga preach." Jessie sleepily says, waking up.

I start laughing. "Whatever. Am I crazy for having hope for momma and daddy to this day?" I ask. "Hell yeah, you crazy as fuck. I think it's over." Noble answers, shaking LaLa. I sigh, then shake Tae. "Get up yall. We in Texas, we halfway, momma booked our room, and she on her way." Majesty says, taking Amari out his car seat. "I gotta potty." Amari says. I open my arms for him then pick him up. "Yall, get the bags. I'll run him in there and take him to the restroom. Wait on me in the lobby, yall, don't go to the suite without me." I say. "Hurry the fuck up." Noble says, letting LaLa get on his back so she can stay asleep. "K." I mumble, then close my door.

JESSICA

I got to the hotel about an hour ago. I just left out my kids' suite. They're all asleep. Montana's sleeping on the couch in there to make sure they're safe. We decided to not stay in the same room because I ain't trying to fall for temptation and he don't wanna tempt me. I'm doing a little better, I can somewhat control my hormones around him now.

I just got back to my room. I put the card in then open the door. "Wassup, baby?" Ant asks, sitting in the middle of my bed with his duffel bag next to him.

"What the fuck? How the hell did you find me and why are you in my room? Hell naw." I say. I'm about to go to the front desk and act a fool. They had no business letting his ass know where my room is or giving him the key. I'm sure he paid them but that's unacceptable as fuck. What if he was out to kill me or something? They gone hear my mouth about this.

"Don't worry bout it. But look, I don't feel like arguing and I'm not leaving so don't even ask. I'm about to let the couch bed out, take a shower, then go to sleep. You should do the same because tomorrow, you and me gone get in the van with the kids and imma drive us to Houston since we already in Texas. I wanna have a family fun day and we gone have a talk as a family. Everybody gone get everything off their chest and we gone resolve the issues right then and there. Don't say nothing smart either. This is not a suggestion or option, this is what's gone happen. I put my foot down, end of discussion." Ant says.

I sit down on the bed, staring at him. "You don't have shit to say?" he asks a little surprised. "Nope. We don't have to get along but our kids need both of us to act civilized so the family talk is needed." I say. "Okay then. Wanna go to the pool? They got an indoor one that's still open." he says. I shake my head. "Why you acting like everything is all good?" I ask. "I ain't acting like shit, Jessica. Do you or do you not wanna get in the damn pool?" he asks. "I don't care." I answer.

I go grab my suitcase then pull my brown bikini out of it. "Go in the bathroom and put that on, aight? I'm not gone watch cause I ain't trying to get turned on." Ant says. I walk into the bathroom then put it on. "God, please don't let me fall into his temptation and go back to my old ways because you and I both know I have a problem but I'm trying. And please forgive him for all the wrong he ever did cause you said forgive people because you forgive me. I'm really trying, God, you know my heart. I just pray that you help me to have patience and I ask that you help Ant because he really needs you just like me. In Jesus name, amen." I pray.

I've been watching church on TV and trying to understand the bible lately. They say Jesus can help me more than anybody and I believe it.

I brush my teeth then walk out the bathroom. "Come on." Ant says, fixing his swimming trunks. I grab my phone then watch as he grabs his gun. I follow him out the room then to the elevator. "He here ain't he?" he asks, breaking the silence between us. "Montana?" I ask. He nods his head. "Yeah." I answer. "How you claim you trying to change but you fucking that nigga?" Ant asks. "Excuse me? I'm not fucking anybody, first of all. You need to quit downing me so much." I say. "Oh." he says, stepping off the elevator.

I follow him into the indoor pool area. "Come here." I say, standing at the edge of the pool. "What?" he asks, walking close to me. I push him into the pool. "That's for being an ass hole." I say, dying laughing as he glares at me.

He gets out then walks to the hot tub. I follow him then sit in the water. "Guess what Vonte asked me." he says. "I'm almost scared to guess." I admit, laughing a little. "He called me earlier and asked me if he could get an egg or however that shit works put inside of you at a fertility clinic. The bitch he want to have his baby can't carry a baby so he want you to carry it for them." he says. "Well... I'm not stable enough to carry a baby right now. I'm doing better but I'm stressed and I'm not over the loss of my baby yet. But I would do it." I admit, shocking him. "You would carry that woman's child? Hell naw, Jessica. You would love the baby too much and not wanna give it up after you give birth." he says. "Well, I guess you right." I say.

"So..." he says. "So what?" I ask. "I don't know how to ask." he says. "Ask what? Just say it." I say. "Aight... well... Jessica, be honest. Do you miss me?" he asks. "Yes. I miss the old you that cared about me. We were perfect the first six years of our marriage. We had fun and I felt like you genuinely loved me. And things have been hell for the past three years. I don't miss the Ant you became but I miss everything about the old you. People see me as dumb for marrying you in the first place but I know what it is. I know the real you, Ant and all the bullshit you've done the past three years is not the real you." I say.

"So... you really miss me? I'm not even trying to make you mad but can you be real with me about something?" he asks. I nod my head. "Um... aight, so you know how you and everybody else look at Montana like he just the perfect nigga or some shit?" he asks. "I guess." I answer. "What make him better than me to you? I been trying to figure it out for the longest. Me and you had good ass times so what is it I'm lacking? I'm not even trying to be funny right now, I'm really trying to figure it out." he says. "Well... I have more fun with you, I'll admit that. You used to make me laugh and I was happy. But you'd make me feel like you didn't have my back. He always made me feel protected and you didn't. For instance, you didn't even have my back when I fought your side hoe. You defended her over me and that was fucked up. Then you always say hurtful shit to me or you put me down about any and everything. He believes in me and supports me when I don't even believe in myself but you never do that. You just laugh at my ideas or tell me how I can't do it. So, yeah." I explain.

He doesn't say anything. "You think if we have a baby it'll bring us back together?" he asks. I shake my head no. "I am not about to have sex or make a baby with you. The only way we could ever be fixed is if God himself fixed it." I say. He starts laughing. "Well, I believe God himself made you for me just like he made Eve for Adam. We just gotta find a way to balance each other out." he says.

"It sounds good but I can't go back to feeling worthless, Ant." I say. "We gotta learn how to love each other. Mane, tomorrow, we gone have a good ass time and get back to the basics." he says. "Sure." I mumble as my phone rings. It's Quan. I ignore it. "Who is that?" Ant asks. "Quan. He won't stop calling asking me where I am." I answer. "Imma handle that nigga. Fuck the bullshit." Ant says, sinking down into the hot tub.

"No, don't do that. I'm fine." I say. "Naw. I got a feeling that shit with that mothafucka won't end well." he says. "Ant, quit." I demand. He doesn't say anything. "I miss KeKe, mane. Since he got him a lil bitch he don't ever be at the house." he says. "Ant, stop it. KeKe is a grown ass man, okay? Let him have fun." I say. "I know, I just miss my son, mane." he admits. Before I can say anything, a bullet flies straight past Ant's head. "Fuck." Ant says, snatching me to him. He lays on top of me, shooting back. "Ant, get off me so I can help you!" I yell at him. "Quit, I ain't letting you get shot." he says, holding me close as he practically drags me to a corner. He covers my whole body while shooting at somebody. Man, what the fuck?

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