"I used to wanna be your everything. But now I don't wanna be nothing. Cause you ain't shit. Boy, you ain't shit. And now I need for you to keep your distance." - Sonta

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

THUGGED OUT 1, THE REWRITTEN AND EDITED VERSION SUPPOSED TO BE DROPPING ON MY BIRTHDAY MARCH 22, 2017. SAVE THE DATE!!!!!

DARIUS

"Darius... can we please talk about this?" Liah asks me as I drive her to her house. "Talk for what, Liah? I expected nothing but honesty from you. You could've told me and I would've respected it. I can't deal with secrets and lies. That's why the fuck I'm single now. I was in a nine year relationship. She was upset about me not wanting to get married yet so she cheated on me and it turned out that the children I had been raising weren't even mine. I was expecting so much more out of you. I'm honestly glad it came out before I deeply got involved with you." I say.

She starts crying in her hands. "Darius, I am so sorry. I really care and I want to grow with you." she says. "Liah... I'm a grown ass man. We ain't in high school no more and we aren't young, dumb ass eighteen year olds making irrational decisions. I don't have time for the bullshit. I want a real woman and you ain't the one for me so I'm going to leave you the fuck alone." I tell her straight up.

"Okay and I understand that. It was just a mistake." she mumbles. "You women love to holler that bullshit. I'm tired of mistakes. I ain't getting hurt by nobody else." I say.

"What can I do to make this right?" she asks. I look over at her as I pull into her driveway. "Darius, what can I do?" she asks louder, looking over at me. "You can gather your things and get the fuck out my car. Lose my number too. That's what the hell you can do." I answer.

She breaks down crying. Her front door opens and her little boy runs out. He looks a little bit like her except he's brown skinned. "You left your kid here alone?" I ask, becoming annoyed with her bullshit. "No. My neighbor's daughter is here with him babysitting." she answers, getting out the car.

"Hey ma." he says, hugging her. He short as hell for a ten year old. He looks at me. "You play 2k?" he asks. I nod my head yes. "Can you come in and play?" he asks me. "Naw, lil man. I gotta go." I answer. He frowns a little. I sigh. "Nevermind." I mumble, getting out of the car. Liah ass is lucky I didn't want to hurt her son's feelings. If it wasn't for him, I would've been left this house.

I follow them inside the house. His babysitter starts staring at me. "What's your name?" she nervously asks. "Darius." I answer. She gasps. "You know Diamond?" she asks. I slowly nod my head yes. "Yeah. Why?" I ask. "Oh, nothing. That's my auntie. Liah, can I stay longer with Zachary?" she asks. "Sure." Liah mumbles. The fuck did I get myself into?

I've been here for about around an hour playing the game with him. Her baby sitter is just sitting on the couch staring at me. I'm uncomfortable as hell. I'm not into little ass teenaged girls and I'm close to telling her ass to find something else to stare at that don't involve no parts of my body.

Somebody starts beating on Liah's front door. "Who the hell is at my house?" Liah mumbles. "Maybe it's Jehova Witnesses again, ma." Zachary says, making me laugh a little. I've never met a Jehova's Witness that bangs on doors at night.

"Well, I'm about to get going. I'll see you later, alright?" I say to her son. "Why?" he asks. "Because I have to go home. I have to work in the morning." I answer. He frowns. "Can you come back tomorrow?" he asks. I bite my lip then look away. "Probably not. I'll see you around though." I answer. He looks down then sighs.

I feel bad and all but I'm not his father and I don't have shit with his mother. I didn't expect him to somewhat get attached to me this fast but I guess that's what happens when a little ass boy is an only child with no father figures and a daddy that's dead.

I walk to the door. Liah opens it. My eyes widen as my ex Diamond stands there. "Can I help you?" Liah asks, not knowing who she is. "Bitch, why the fuck my nigga over here? Darius, I ought to beat the fuck outta you!" Diamond yells, shoving Liah out the way. My mouth drops as she storms in the house like she owns this bitch.

"How the fuck did you know I was here? I ain't your man no more!" I go off. "Bullshit! My lil cousin called me and gave me the address, telling me you here! So, you can ignore my calls and not be here for your own kids but play house with this bitch and her son?" she yells, pointing at Liah. This cannot be reality right now.

"Diamond, those fucking children are not mine so go call that nigga Quan. If he a deadbeat, that's your fucking issue. Who I do anything with ain't your concern. We not together." I say. She slaps me in my mouth, pissing me the hell off.

Liah starts chuckling. "I know like fucking hell some crazy ass bitch didn't just show up to my house unannounced with some bullshit. I just know this fucking bitch didn't push me out of the way and walk in my house where I pay the gotdamn bills at." Liah calmly says. She don't sound shit like the old her. She sounds like a woman who been through some shit.

"I did! Cause my nigga up in here and I don't play that shit! I was with you nine years and you wouldn't even wife me but you all up in this hoe house with her lil boy like you love the dumb bitch!" Diamond yells with tears in her eyes. "Bruh, chill out! I ain't your man and you disrespecting the shit outta her! Just leave, Diamond, damn!" I yell back, lightly pushing her to the door.

I can't believe that lil ass girl started this shit. "No! I'm so fucking pissed off!" Diamond screams. "Imma tell you this one time... get the fuck out!" Liah screams as her face turns red. "Bitch!" Diamond screams. "Don't tell me a fucking thing! Why you in here with my nigga?" Diamond screams. I shake my head. I can tell she got drunk and came over here just by the way she's acting.

Liah punches her in her face, shocking the shit out of me. Both of them fall over on the floor punching and pulling each other's hair like one of those ghetto ass Worldstar fights. "Dumb bitch! Ain't no fucking bitch gon' come where I live and disrespect me!" Liah screams in between punches. I'm honestly shocked. She is the true definition of a good girl gone bad.

I raise my eyebrow as they go back and forth. Liah can fight and I'm shocked. I already knew Diamond had hands. She just drunk right now and swinging wild as hell. "Get off my momma!" Zachary yells. "Get back lil dude." I demand. He ran over there ready to jump in for his momma and I really can't blame him.

I pick Diamond up. "Cut it out!" I yell. "Dumb bitch! Darius, keep your fucking groundhog looking ass bitch from around me!" Liah screams, pulling her hair in a ponytail. I force Diamond out the house as she kicks and screams. "And you get the fuck out too!" Liah screams at her babysitter.

Why did this happen to me of all people? This shouldn't be my life right now. This some Ant and Jessica type shit. I ain't built for this type of drama. I don't know how they deal with shit like this every other week.

JESSICA

"Ant, I just went up to the hospital and Reign wasn't there anymore! What the hell going on?" I ask as I burst into his bedroom. "Well damn, just interrupt a nigga beating his meat, why don't ya?" he sarcastically says, pulling his hand out of his boxers.

"Ant, did you hear what the hell I just said? Our daughter is missing from the fucking hospital!" I snap on him. "I'm aware." he calmly says. "Well where the hell is she? She's nowhere near in shape emotionally or physically to be out of there." I say. "She just got some stitches. She got medicine and they said she could leave if she wanted to. She got a few doctors appointments and I'm working on finding her a good therapist. You would've known that if you wasn't somewhere giving in to your kidnapping ass rapist ass baby daddy." he says.

"Giving in? I didn't give in to a damn thing." I say. He smiles wide then pulls me on top of him in the bed. "I know you didn't give in to that hoe ass nigga cause you already know who the real nigga you belong to is." he says.

I roll my eyes then get off of him. "You need help." I say. "Naw, you need more help than me cause you walking around this hoe in denial as hell knowing you pregnant again." he says. I shake my head. "Bruh, I promise I'm not pregnant. I would've been sick as hell right now." I say. He laughs then shakes his head. "I'm excited for the baby. I hope it's another boy." he says.

"There is no baby." I dryly say. "The fact that you that in denial is crazy." he says, laughing hard as hell. I roll my eyes. "Shut the fuck up." I mumble. "I bought you something too." he says, opening the nightstand drawer. He pulls out a Walmart bag containing five pregnancy tests. "First of all, I'm not taking those cause I'm not pregnant. Second of all, how much damn piss do you think I have? Ant, get away from me with that." I say.

"If you so sure you ain't pregnant, take one for me." he says. I narrow my eyes at him. "Nope cause I'm not about to prove no point to you." I say. He starts laughing. "You bullshitting. Seriously, you pregnant as hell and you seem a couple months. Your stomach poking like it was when you were pregnant with the triplets early on." he says.

I frown a little. "My bad." he mumbles. I sigh. I hate to think about the other baby that died. He or she would've been here with Noble and Majesty but unfortunately the baby died and I just had those two. "It's okay." I say.

He wraps his arms around me then kisses me on my neck. My phone starts ringing. I raise my eyebrow at Kareem's number on my screen then answer it. "Really?" Ant asks, moving away from me. "So... what you want?" I ask Kareem. "Chill, baby. I got in a little situation and ended up in a fight. I just got released from jail so I'm sorry for not hitting you up." he says.

I frown a little. "You can't be serious." I say. I've been a dick sucking machine around here with Ant. Now this nigga wanna call and tell me he was in jail and that's why I haven't heard from his ass.

"What?" he asks. I sigh. "We need to talk." I say. "What's wrong? Baby, I'm out now so shit can go back to normal." he says. "Kareem, I honestly thought you fucked and ducked me so I started doing me. I've been messing around with Ant, honestly." I admit. He gets quiet then hangs up on me.

My phone starts ringing but it's him calling on Facetime. Ant starts laughing at me as he gets out the bed. "I'm finna get in the shower. Hopefully you use your brain and recognize what the fuck you got." Ant says, then walks to the bathroom.

I look at Kareem on my phone. He's giving me an unreadable look. "So, you back on that nigga dick, huh? He can have you that easily?" he asks. "What the hell did you expect? How was I supposed to know you were locked up? I called your phone and texted you constantly and got sent to voicemail so I said fuck it. You would've done the same." I say, watching him glare at me.

"Aight, Jessica. So, wassup with us? You back on dude or you wanna move past it?" he asks. I open my mouth then close it quickly. I feel sick as hell all of a sudden. He looks at me. "You pregnant?" he awkwardly asks. "Why you ask?" I ask. "Your face look puffy... ion know, you just looking different." he says. "No." I dryly answer.

"Ayy, Jessica, come rub a nigga nuts and back!" Ant yells from the bathroom. My eyes widen. "Mane, fuck no. Call me when you get yourself figured the fuck out!" Kareem snaps, then hangs up on me.

I roll my eyes then put my phone away. I walk out of the room then to Reign's room. I see Ant's getting her stuff redone. I walk out then walk to the twins' room. "Where's Reign?" I ask. "Hey mom." Presley says, sitting on the floor. "Hey baby." I say. "Yo... ma, you having a boy or girl?" Majesty asks. "Boy, get the hell on out my face. I ain't pregnant. Where is your sister?" I ask. "She in the guest room by Tae room." he answers.

I walk out of there then down the hall to the room. She's in the bed watching something on Netflix. "Hey baby." I say. She smiles a little. I climb in the bed next to her. "Wanna talk?" I ask. "Why me?" she mumbles. I look down. I don't know what to say.

"You'll get through this. I've been through so much bullshit and I've been in your shoes before. Just stay calm and focus on yourself. Me and your daddy got your back." I assure her. She winces in pain as she scoots closer to me. She lays her head on me. She starts rubbing my stomach. I swear ain't no baby in here. Everybody tripping.

"Am I dumb for still wanting Drew?" she asks. "No. But don't take no bullshit from no nigga no matter how much you care about him. The mental and physical abuse ain't worth it. Don't be stupid as fuck like I was. Learn from my mistakes. Don't follow them." I say.

She nods her head. "Daddy being weird now. I'm not used to him being so loving and committed to being with you." she says. "Me neither, baby girl." I admit. She smiles at me. I look towards the entrance then frown as Vonte walks in here as Drew limps in. He has bandages on his head and body.

"What yall doing here?" I ask as Vonte hugs Reign. "To get my dick wet. Wassup with it? " Drew asks me. "Vonte... get him." I demand. He laughs then shakes his head. "I'm just playing. Hey, Reign." Drew says, smiling at her as if they didn't just get into it a couple of hours ago.

"I'm not in the mood." she dryly says. He chuckles. "Damn, I called myself being respectful since I'm in yo house right now. Don't flatter yourself." he says, frowning at her. "Drew, get the hell out." I demand, standing up. I'm about ready to slap the piss out of this boy at this point.

He sits down in the chair in the corner of the room then pulls his phone out of his pocket. Ant and Jessie walk in here. "Wassup Unc?" Jessie asks Vonte. "Wassup nephew? Ant, what's good big nipple ass nigga?" Vonte asks. "Booooo... get yo lame ass on with that bullshit." Ant says, making me laugh.

Vonte chuckles as he pulls a small gold case out of his pocket. I shake my head as he pulls an already rolled blunt and a lighter with boobs painted on it out of the case. "You mind if I smoke in here?" he asks. "Don't you see my daughter laid up trying to recover? Hell no you can't smoke in here. Take your ass outside." I answer.

He nods his head. Majesty runs in here in tears. "Momma!" he screams. "Boy, what the hell wrong with you?" Ant asks. He falls over on the floor snot nosed crying. "Majesty, what's wrong?" I ask, becoming worried as he rolls around. "My dick burning!" he yells, holding himself.

Ant and Vonte look at each other then burst into laughter. "Damn, my nigga. You got that heat stroke in ya dick." Drew says, laughing. "I told you stop being a fucking hoe like your daddy. Now look at you with a damn STD. Get up so I can take you to the emergency room." I demand, shaking my head at my son.

"It hurts." he weakly says. "No shit." I sarcastically say as Ant helps him up. "Jessica, don't be throwing shade at me. I ain't ever caught no shit like this." Ant says. "That's so hard to believe. It's no way your nasty self lived your whole life without catching an STD." I say. "Hell naw. I get checked up every month. I never had no STD before." he says.

"I caught something one time. I shot that bitch in the face, on my life." Vonte says, shaking his head. "It's probably Chlamydia. You better hope you didn't catch nothing else you can't get rid of." I say. "I was using the bathroom then it started burning." he mumbles, shaking his head.

Noble walks in laughing. "I promise this your karma. You the one who started smashing Miracle, being disloyal to me. Now look at you burning." he says. "Boy, shut up. You do the same crap and just haven't caught nothing yet." I say.

"Ma, take me to the emergency room, please!" Majesty begs, holding my leg. I shake my head then look at Ant. "Stay here with Reign while I take him." I say. He nods his head. I look at Majesty. "I bet you keep your dick in your pants for now on, nasty." I say.

DREW

Ant and Vonte went outside to smoke. I'm in the kitchen eating some chips. Amari crawls in here. "Why don't you walk?" I ask as he stares at me. I hope my kids have eyes like his. Every time I see him, his eyes a different color. The first day I met him they were brown, now they're blue.

He ignores me then holds his arms up for me to pick him up. I lean down then pick him up. "Bestfriend." he mumbles, staring at me. "I'm your bestfriend?" I ask. "Yes, bitch Drew. You and my mommy." he whispers in my face. I hug him. "You mine too." I say, making him smile a little.

"Why you don't like talking to other people?" I ask. He shrugs his shoulders then lays his head on my shoulder. I stand up, still holding him then walk up the stairs. I walk to the guest room Reign in is. I sit him down on the bed then look at her as she types on her phone.

"How you feeling?" I ask. That's the least I can ask the girl. "Leave me the fuck alone, shit!" she snaps, sounding like a bitter old woman. "Shit!" Amari screams, pointing at me, making me laugh. "Don't say that, Amari." she mumbles.

"I just asked a question." I say. "Honestly... Drew, I got too much going on. If you mad at me for whatever reason, so be it. I won't bother you, so don't bother me. Consider this our last conversation." she says. I don't have nothing to say. I don't care. I walk out of the room then walk to Noble and Majesty's  room.

"Wassup bruh?" Noble asks. "My head throbbing. You got some medicine?" I ask. "No. My parents don't let me have no medicine, my nigga." he answers. "Why? You a drug addict?" I ask. "Naw. I used to be suicidal and I tried to kill myself so they keep all the medicine locked up away from me thinking I'll try to overdose again."  he says. Nigga just said that like that's a normal conversation to have and shit.

"You ain't suicidal no more, right?" I ask. He shrugs his shoulders. "I'm just living life and doing me." he answers, not giving me a yes or no. "What you on tonight? I'm single as hell and I'm trynna get on some hoes. You coming?" I ask. He shrugs his shoulders. "It's whatever. My momma probably won't care if I go." he answers.

"Ask then." I say. "Hold on... bruh, ain't you with my sister?" he asks. "Naw. We cut whatever that shit was off." I answer. "I don't know, G. Imma look like a fucked up nigga turning up with bitches with a nigga my lil sister in love with." I say. "We mutually cut each other off, bruh. She can do her and I can do me. No biggie." I say. He shrugs his shoulders. "If you lying, we squaring up again." he mumbles.

I watch as he gets an outfit out of the closet. "Where you trying to go anyway?" he asks. "This girl I know invited me to a party at UCLA but this other bitch throwing a house party. I really wanna go to my nigga Tyler pool party though. All the bitches finna be in that hoe." I say.

"I don't care. Just don't take me to no lame ass shit where the ugly hoes at." he says. I laugh a little. "If one lame, we dipping and going to another." I say. "Bet." he says, nodding his head.

NOBLE

"You wore regular clothes to a pool party?" some girl asks, smiling in my face as I eat a bag of chips while watching people jump in the pool and dance or whatever. Drew went in the house to get some quick pussy from one of the girls here so I'm chilling until he come back. I ain't really here to fuck. I'm just chilling.

"And you wore a thong to a pool party. It seems like both of us out of uniform." I say. She rolls her eyes. "It isn't a thong. It's a bikini." she says. "It's just some lil thin facbric barely covering yo pussy and not covering your ass cheeks at all. Seems like a thong to me, love." I say. She blankly  stares at me. "Well, do you like it?" she asks, making me laugh for some reason.

I glance at it, observing her body. She got a little something back there. "I like the tattoo." I point out, looking at the rose tattoo that's going from the top of her left butt cheek to her back. It reminds me of one of my momma's tattoos she has. "Thank you." she says, blushing.

I look away from her then watch some big girl jump in the pool, ignoring the shit talking from people around her. She ain't the biggest in the world but she still got a body. I'm turned on by that. She confident as hell. Me and Majesty loving big girls is no secret to nobody. I'm attracted to the girl more than I am to this half covered broad in my face right now.

"Hello? What you staring over there for if we talking right now?" Ol girl asks me. I look at her. "What you want from me?" I ask. "I think you sexy. I'm Ava. What's your name?" she asks. "Noble." I answer, looking around for the girl I just saw. She's standing by a table looking at her phone.

"Noble? What kind of name is that?" she asks with her nose scrunched up. I blankly stare at her. She already on my nerves. "It's my damn name. Bruh... my momma won't like you." I tell her.  "Your momma? What the hell? I ain't trying to meet your momma. I'm trying to fuck with you and possibly be your girl." she says. I promise women get bolder by the day.

"My point exactly. Nobody can be my girl without my momma liking her and you the type of girl my momma would slap the shit out of." I say. She rolls her eyes at me. "First of all... if you like somebody, your momma's opinion shouldn't matter. If she loves you, she'll accept what you want. Your woman comes before your mother. Especially your wife." she explains.

"You a lie. I don't care about none of that. Only female that will ever come before my momma is my daughter if I have one and that'll be only be on special occasions." I say. "You're a gotdamn idiot. Your child comes before your mother." she says. "I ain't no idiot. Imma just make them equals cause I love the fuck out of my momma and I'll love my daughter too so why the hell I gotta compare which one I love more?" I ask. "Sounds like incest to me." she says.

I narrow my eyes at her then stand up. I'm about to walk away before I fuck around and slap her in the mouth. I walk over to the girl I had my eyes on. She looks up at me. I smile at her. "You just gon' stare at me or speak?" I jokingly ask, making her laugh. "My bad. Hey." she says, smiling at me.

"Your smile contagious as hell. I'm smiling for no damn reason now." I admit, making her laugh. "Seriously, what's going on?" she asks. "I just think you really beautiful so I came over here to talk to you real quick." she says. I can tell that caught her off guard. She looks surprised.

"Why that face?" I ask. "You attracted to me?" she asks. I'm lost. "I'm confused. Yeah, I'm attracted to you. Why?" I ask. She starts blushing then looks away. "I don't know... I just wasn't expecting somebody like you to come over here trying to talk to me." she admits. "Somebody like me? What's that supposed to mean?" I ask.

"Don't take it as me being really insecure because I'm not. Guys like you just don't ever try to talk to me. You tall, muscular, fine as hell, your teeth are perfect and white, plus you look mixed or something. Niggas like you always in skinny lightskinned girl faces." she says.

"I look mixed? Well... what does whatever race I look like have to do with who I'm attracted to?" I ask. "Now you probably think I'm an idiot. I wasn't saying it like that. Every guy I know that's like that never go for girls like me." she says. "I guess I get what you saying. Understand they ain't me and I ain't them. I think you look beautiful and that's all that matters." I say, making her start blushing again. I can tell she don't get this kind of shit on a regular.

"What are you mixed with? I just have to know." she says. "Who said I was even mixed? Some black dude got lightskin and curly hair." I say. "I'm aware but look at you. Your eyes are different colors, your hair is silky and curly but then again you got some blacl features too. What are you?" she asks. I chuckle. "My momma Black, Indian, and white. She don't identify as nothing but black and so do I." I say. "Why?" she asks. "Her people wasn't in her life and she grew up thinking she was Puerto Rican and Black. She never acted nothing but black. She more black than anything else anyway." I say.

"So that's all?" she asks. "No. My dad Puerto Rican and Black." I say. "Dang, I'm just pure black." she says, laughing. I shrug my shoulders. "You know how it's cultural stuff when it comes to a lot of mixed families? My family don't care about none of the cultural stuff. We just black as fuck." I say.

"You sound like you wish you were nothing other than black." she says. "I never really cared about what I am." I admit. "Don't take it the wrong way but do people ever call you a mutt?" she asks. "Man, get yo racist ass outta here." I say. "I didn't mean to offend you. I'm just asking." she says. "Bruh... think before you speak. What's your name?" I ask, deciding to let it go.

"Jaylah. You?" she asks. "Noble." I answer. "That's such a meaningful name. I like that." she says. I smile a little. "Thank you, love." I say, watching Drew walk out of the house smiling wide with the girl trailing behind him.

"Look... I'm about to head out but give me your number. I'll hit you up when I get to the house." I say, handing her my phone. She starts typing her number in then hands it back. "We'll see." she says, smirking. "What you mean?" I ask. "I don't think you're gonna call." she says. I grin then hug her. "Bet." I say, then walk away from her.

"So, you into big girls, my guy?" Drew asks as we walk to the car. "Hell yeah. Don't knock it until you try it. I can see myself marrying one." I admit. He laughs. "I can see myself married to your momma or somebody that look like her fine ass." he jokes. "Reign." I mumble, laughing. Reign starting to look more and more like my momma by the day. Maybe, it's cause she growing into a woman or something.

"Shut the fuck up. Never." he says. I shake my head, laughing. "I ain't gon' be shocked. But ol girl real cool." I say. "See what she about then, shit." he says, yawning. I look at her name in my phone then change it to One Day. I know that's some lame, cliché shit but it's my prediction right now. I can see her in my future for real.

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