"You deserve better, baby. Fuckin’ with this clown. Pack your bags and we can leave now. Girl, don’t let him bring you down." - R. Kelly

JESSICA

I glance over at Montana then giggle as he lightly snores. He's still butt ass naked. His dıck is just out in the open. It's going on one in the evening now. We went at it. I swear it's nothing like an "I miss you" fuck.

I sit up, then position myself between his legs. I bite my lip as I gently ride him. He opens his eyes. "Damn." he sleepily says, holding my waist. It's probably  fucked up but I don't feel like I'm wrong at all. Ant fucked with thirty something women during our marriage, we're currently seperated, so I deserve to fuck whoever I want and do whatever my heart desires. We're just gonna keep our business seperate from the kids until we figure things out.

I bite my bottom lip as my legs shake a little. "I love you." I mumble. "Ahh... fuck." he groans, nutting inside of me. I climb off him. "Love you more." he finally says, catching his breath.

"I meant to pull out last night but that shit so good, I said fuck it. And I just nutted in you, Jessica." he says. "I'm on birth control and I have my plan b pills." I say, grabbing my purse. I grab my water  bottle and pills out then take one so I can make sure I ain't getting pregnant. It always works when Ant thinks he's slick, trying to get me pregnant and shit.

"I'm thinking about getting my tubes tied. I love my kids and all but fucking around, imma end up with  twenty. I'm lucky to still be sexy with a tight ass pušsy." I say. He falls out laughing. "It is tight as hell. I be scared imma hurt you when we fuck." he admits. "I know. I told you not to hesitate last night. I wanted it rough, I don't know why you were doing it like you did  out first time." I say. "Cause it's  tight and I didn't need you crying and shit." he says, making me laugh.

"Whatever. Dang, Tae still sleep?" I ask, getting out the bed. He points at the surveillance on his TV. "He knocked out. He didn't go to sleep until five. He was on the phone with Noble until he got sleepy." he answers. I nod my head then kiss his neck. "I want to fuck again." I admit. He laughs. "We will. You a fuckin' nympho. I got you later on. I promised to take Tae shopping and to yo house and if I go in that right now, I ain't comin' out no time soon." he says, winking. I laugh. "You so nasty." I say.

"Come get in the shower with me." I add, grabbing his hand. He picks me up bridal style, making me laugh as he kisses me over and over again while walking into the bathroom.

He sits me down then closes and locks the door. I turn the water on then smirk as he puts his dıck between my legs. "Wait... you said later." I say, pushing him away. He chuckles then gets in the shower with me.

We took turns washing each other, occasionally touching, kissing, and rubbing, now we're getting dressed. "I'll go get Tae ready. He took a bath before bed?" I ask Montana. He nods his head yes while playing a game one of my babies installed on my phone. I take it out his hand then walk out.

I put my feet into my black Chanel sandals, then walk out of his room. I walk to Tae's room. "Hey mommy." he says while ironing his True Religion jeans he decided to wear. He learned how to iron when  he was five. Montana is really big on teaching him responsibility, even at a young age.

"You gone be hot, baby." I say. "I wanna look good." he says. "Who you trying to look good for?" I ask. He laughs. "Ma, every time daddy take me to the mall, the ladies be all over all this sexy right here. They tell me if I was older they would date me. One time, this white lady kissed me in the kids Foot Locker. She was fine. And daddy got mad and hit her in her mouth with one of the shoes for kissing me. He said she had germs." he goes off, laughing.

I chuckle a little. "Good thing your daddy was there because I would've put her in the hospital. Tae, you nine years old, you got the rest of your life to think about girls." I say. "I know. Well, how come Noble got a girlfriend? Jessie had one too, she looked like Mrs. Potato Head. Him and Noble like big girls, mommy. Noble's girlfriend is a big one. Like... big." he says, shaking  his head.

I raise my eyebrow. "Jessie had a girlfriend? Noble got one now? Am I hearing you correctly?" I ask. "Yes. My other daddy knows. Jessie's old girlfriend is crazy. And Noble's girlfriend is what I like to call a bad word but I can't say it. Her name is Quita." he snitches.

I sit down on his bed. I feel so  light headed. I know Noble is sixteen now and I know Jessie's seventeen and all. I understand they're growing up but I'm having trouble adjusting to it. Plus, nobody told me shit about a girlfriend. "Are you crying?" Tae awkwardly asks, putting his True Religion tee shirt on. I wipe my eyes. "I'm okay." I say.

I pull my phone out then call Noble. "Don't say I said  anything." Tae whispers, panicking. "Hey, mommy." Noble says. "Noble Almighty Mitchell." I say, catching him off guard.

"Wait... huh? Ma, what I do? You only say  my whole name when you mad at me. Please, don't be mad at me. Imma be sad, momma, no." he begs. I take a deep breath. I don't want him to be all depressed and shit. "You have a girlfriend named Quita?" I calmly ask. He gets quiet. "She just my friend." he finally answers. I sigh. I feel like he's hiding stuff. "I'm coming home in a lil while." I say, deciding to drop it.

"Okay. Love you. Where you at?" he asks. "Montana's house." I answer. "Oooooooooh, momma, you being nasty?" he asks, making my eyes widen.

"Lil boy, what you talking about?" I ask. He laughs. "You know that song  by Future where he be saying gone F that nigga, get  it over with?" he asks. "Throw away. Yeah, why?" I ask. "Daddy been playing that song  back to back all day long, I swear. He in one of the guest rooms getting high, drunk, and he crying and blowing your phone up. He keep on apologizing to us saying he love you. It's just me and Noble here. We laughing at him. We not even mad no more, we just pretending cause he hurting bad and it's funny cause he deserves it." he says

"Oh my God." I say. "He told KeKe he know you and Montana having sex. That true? You never lie to me." he says. I face palm myself. I definitely don't lie to them. "Yes." I mumble. "Thank God! Montana a real nigga!" he exclaims.

I shake my head. "Boy, whatever. Text me." I say. "I wanna talk to you." he whines. "Noble, I was about to go to the mall with Tae and Montana." I say. "I wanna come!" I hear Majesty yell in the background. Sometimes, I'm amazed at how deep my sons' voices are. They sound and look exactly alike too, it's funny. It seems like I'm the only one who can tell them apart sometimes.

"Tell Majesty be quiet." I say. "He said can he please come. I wanna come too, ma. I got some money." Noble says. "Okay, get dressed. How is your chest though? Will you be  able to walk or do you wanna use my wheelchair I used when I was pregnant with Amari?" I ask. "I don't feel like walking. Where's the wheelchair?" he asks. "Tell Majesty to go get it out of the closet in LaLa's room." I say. He tells Majesty what I said. "Yall better be ready. Tae wanted to see you." I say. "Yeah, I know. He made me stay on the phone with him until he went to sleep." he says. "I know. But go ahead, get dressed. You need help or you can do it yourself?" I ask. "I'll get Majesty to help put my shirt on. My chest hurting so bad." he says. "I bet it is. Text me, love  you." I say. "You too." he says, then hangs up.

Montana walks in here then hands me my purse. "Yall ready?" he asks. I nod my head. "Noble and Majesty are coming with us." I say. "That's fine with me. What about the rest of the kids?" he asks. "Jessie is with Vonte, the rest stayed with Darius and Diamond." I answer. He nods his head.

"Mommy, daddy, are you two dating? Mommy, are you and my other daddy still married?" Tae asks. "No, your momma is just my friend and yes, yo mom and Ant are married." Montana answers. Tae nods his head then runs out the room. Montana pulls me back on him, rubbing his erection on my butt. "Puşsy still mine though." he whispers in my ear, then kisses it.

I pull away. "Montana, if you don't quit, we won't make it to the mall." I say. He smirks. "Yeah, okay." he says, walking ahead of me. I chuckle. Breaking rules never felt so good until now.

We  just got to my house. "You should probably wait in here." I say to Montana. I already know Ant is not taking his medicine and right now, knowing how he gets, he'll snap and attack Montana the second he sees him and I don't want that to happen. "Aight." he says.

Tae and I get out his truck then walk to the front. I unlock the door to my mansion then step inside with my son behind me. I close and lock the door. "What is that smell?" Tae asks, wide eyed. My whole house smells like somebody closed every window and smoked hella blunts all over the place. It smells like a party in the hood around here.

"Go wait with your dad." I say. He starts laughing a little. His eyes are red and he obviously caught a contact high. "I feel like I'm floating." he says, then starts laughing his ass off while singing. I pick him up then walk out the house. Montana instantly jumps out the driver's seat with his gun. "What happened?" he asks, looking at Tae. "Nothing. You know Ant is a stoner... he's been smoking and Tae caught a contact." I answer.

"I should go shoot that nigga." he says. "No... it's okay. Just give him some water, he'll be fine in a second." I say, handing him Tae. "We're brothers. We're  happy and we're singing and we're colored. Wait... since me and my brothers are mixed... never mind." he says, dying laughing.

Montana gets in the back seat then puts him on his lap. "Daddy... I'm seeing stuff!" Tae screams, panicking. I grab his hand. "Tae, it's okay. Look, it's mommy." I say. Ant smokes some crazy ass shit. I know how Tae feels because before I got used to Ant's smoking, I used to catch contacts all the time and I felt like I really smoked something.

"Like... why is it a pig in here? Daddy, I look better than you and I'm sleepy." he mumbles, balling up in Montana's
lap. Montana shakes his head, visibly pissed. "I'm sorry." I mouth to him. He doesn't say anything as he holds a bottle of water to Tae's mouth. "Well... I guess I'll go help Noble." I mumble.

I used to hate when he got mad at me and I still do. It's not even my fault this time. I didn't know this would happen. I swallow hard, feeling the tears about to fall. "Jessica, come here." I hear him say as I walk. I walk back to his truck. Tae's laid across the back seat sleeping. "What?" I ask. "I'm not mad at you. I'm just real frustrated. No offense to you because you do everything you can as a good mother, but Ant introduced weed and shit to yall kids when they were pretty much babies and I wanted it to be different for Tae. I didn't want him to know shit about being high at nine." he says.

"I know. I never would've took him in there if I knew it smelled like that." I defend myself. He looks around, checking to see if anybody is around, then pulls me in his arms. He kisses my lips. "It's all good, Jessica." he says, then pecks my lips again.

I nod my head. "I gotta go get the boys out of there." I say. Before I can turn around good, all I see is Ant flying out the front door holding a blunt. "You just kissed my fuckin' wife in my driveway? You disrespecting me like that, nigga?" Ant snaps, then drops his blunt. He pushes Montana.

"Ant, chill, damn!" I snap at him. "Shut up, he a grown ass man! He can answer his own self!" he snaps at me. Montana glances back at Tae as he sleeps in the truck then sucks his teeth. "I would act a mothafuckin' fool if my son wasn't with me. God saved yo life today. Let's be honest, nigga. She didn't even want yo bitch ass when she married you, I begged her to do that shit. You wouldn't even be able to call her your wife if it wasn't for me. Her pussy been mine since the night I hit it, it was still mine the day she married yo ass, and it's still to this fuckin' day mine." Montana calmly says, staring Ant in his eyes.

"Can yall just quit! This shit stupid and petty!" I say, feeling my eyes water. "You fucked this nigga, Jessica?" Ant asks. "I did, Ant, damn. You knew it was gonna happen. You can't be mad. You dogged me the fuck out with these bitches. At least I respect you enough to not have his ass in our bed unlike you. Plus, we're seperated. I'm free to do my own thing and that's what I'm gonna do." I say.

He shakes his head. "So, it's just fuck me, huh?" he asks. "Ant, no. You brought up a separation and I agreed. I told you I was gonna do me anyway." I say. He shakes his head. "Is this shit even worth fighting for?" he asks. "I don't know." I admit. "Fuck it. You might as well tell me straight up you done instead of stringing me along. We gone try to fix it or not?" he asks. "I don't know." I mumble. "Well, I don't know why your ass still talking to me then." he says, then turns to walk back in the house.

My eyes water all over again. I suddenly feel a little bad. He cheated in the first place so what's so wrong about me doing my own thing during our separation? I'm stuck right now. I don't even know if it can be fixed. I'm honestly not completely willing to try to fix it right now.

"Go get whatever you need. Me, you, and the kids can go on vacation  wherever yall wanna go. Yall don't even gotta pack clothes, I'll ball out on yall when we get there." Montana says. "I still gotta ask Ant. That's still their dad." I mumble. "Ask him. Then we can go get the rest of them from my brother and Vonte. This shit too much, you and the kids need a break." he says.

I sigh. "I'll be back. I have to ask him." I say. He nods his head then leans against his truck.

I walk back into my house then up to Noble's room. He has two king sized beds in here because sometimes Majesty sleeps in here and vice versa. They're so close, it's crazy. "Dang, we been waiting forever." Majesty says, turning Noble's Xbox off. "I swear. Ma, I was getting mad. Got me all dressed up. I thought you stood us up." Noble says. "Shut up, I got a question." I say.

Both of them stare at me in curiosity. "What if me and your dad get a divorce? Don't tell your brothers and sisters but we're seperated and things ain't looking too bright for us. How do yall feel?" I ask. Majesty looks down at his hands. Ant walks in the room then sits down next to me. "I heard the question. How do yall two feel?" he asks.

Both of them sit in silence. "Um... you know what, it's time to be honest, right?" Majesty asks. We nod our heads. "Daddy, Jessie used to always say he knew deep down you were cheating. I would defend you every time. We even got to fighting one time cause I cussed him out for accusing you of cheating. I never thought you would do that. I used to wanna be just like you. You was perfect in my eyes. I know you and momma argued but all couples do. I still didn't feel no different towards you. When I found out you cheated for real, my feelings was real hurt. I don't even have too much pride to admit all this neither. Part of me want yall together but the other part want momma to move on to somebody better cause she deserve better. I'm tired of watching her cry and all that. She was good to you and you know it." Majesty says, looking Ant in his eyes.

"Yeah, I know she was good to me. I take the blame for this. I didn't communicate about the problems I had but cheated instead and that's fucked up. Regardless of whether we fix it or say fuck it, I wanna let yall know I love yall." Ant says.

"Love you too." Majesty says. "How do you feel, Noble?" I ask. "I feel like yall should throw the towel in cause daddy ain't nothing but stress." Noble straight up says.

"But if fixing it is what's gone make yall happy, do it. I just want my momma happy." he adds. "We don't know what we gone do." I admit. "We taking our break until both of us get our minds right." Ant says. I nod my head in agreement. "That's what's best." I say. "I don't even care. Yall need Jesus and a counselor to fix it cause daddy, you messed it all up." Majesty says.

"I know that." Ant says. "Ant... can I talk to you alone?" I ask. He nods his head. I follow him all the way to our master bedroom. "What you want to talk about?" he asks. "Montana wanna take me and the kids on a vacation today. Is it okay for the kids to go?" I ask. He nods his head. "Yeah. It ain't like they wanna be around me right now anyway." he answers. "Thanks." I mumble, walking into the closet.

He follows me then wraps his arm around my waist. "I think we need to do the counseling thing. I want you back." he says. I push him away. "We're so toxic for each other, Ant. Just let me think about it, okay?" I ask. He nods his head. "Can I at least get a kiss?" he asks. I peck his lips. He starts blushing.

I shake my head then sigh. "I gotta go." I mumble, grabbing Amari's infant Jordans out of the shoe box I sat in here. He nods his head. "Love you." he says. I ignore him, then walk out. A vacation with the kids and Montana is much needed right now.

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