"I got my heart right here. I got my scars right here." - The Weeknd

DARIUS

I was gonna catch a flight to Memphis to see Ant, but he didn't want me to. I was at the airport and everything and he called and cursed me out telling me how I need to stay here in California so I can keep up with my college work.

Right now, I'm on campus getting something to eat from Panda Express  before I leave and go shopping or something. I've been lonely lately so all I do is go to school, sleep, and spend money everyday.

"What?" I dryly ask the woman behind me. She's been staring at me the entire time I've been over here. She's short, brown skinned, and has long weave with brown tips. She's nice looking but staring is unnecessary.

She rolls her eyes. "I'm Kosha. Your name Darius?" she asks. "Kosha is an awful name. But yes, I am. Why?" I ask, grabbing my bag of food. I walk away with her following. "I just heard about you from my friend. She said you gave her good head. Both of us are freshman." she says. I shake my head. I'm a college sophomore and I can't wait until it's over. It's funny how everyone know me and have a fake story about me when I've never seen them a day in my life.

I sigh. "Who is your friend?" I ask. I feel like head is a part of sex, so if her friend is fine as fuck, I probably did go low on her after she gave me head. Favor for a favor.

"Her name is Karmen." she answers. I nod my head. "Wait, she the girl with the sexy brown skin and natural hair? Damn, she fine as hell." I say, remembering her from a party a few months ago. I was drunk and high, and she was so fine to me. I wasn't even thinking straight. She was a virgin and she got drunk and sucked me off. I could tell it was her first time doing that. I returned the favor because she was so fine and had a certain innocence I liked.

She nods her head. "Yes. We were about to leave campus and go shopping or something. She saw you and was afraid to come say hi so I told her I'd do it. If it's fine with you, we want you to come chill with us. My boyfriend is going too." she offers. "Yeah." I say. Might as well.

She leads me outside to where Karmen is standing. I smile, then nod my head at her. She starts blushing. "Hey." she mumbles. "You don't know me now?" I ask. "I do but... listen, I'm not a hoe. I don't know what I was thinking when I did that at the party. It was a first, it probably felt awful." she mumbles. I laugh a little. "I gave you head too and didn't even know you so don't feel bad. I'm Darius, I didn't properly introduce myself that night." I say, extending my hand. She smiles, then shakes it. "Karmen." she says.

I lick my bottom lip. I feel myself getting horny as hell. I've only used my tongue on three different women. The first time was Yanda. I started liking eating pussy when I cheated on Yanda with her friend and she tasted so right. And the third was Karmen.

"Why you looking at her like that?" Kosha asks. "I want her to sit on my face again, to be honest." I answer. There's no point in lying about it.

Karmen starts awkwardly squeezing her legs together. I already know what that means. Kosha grins. "Maybe, you should ride with him." she says. "No!" Karmen says. I chuckle. "It's plenty of room. Hit me up though." I say, putting my number in her phone. I'll meet up with them later instead.

JESSICA

"I'll be back in about two hours, okay? And kids, be good. Don't stress your daddy out." I say, grabbing my purse. We've been in the hospital with Ant for two days now. I don't know how long they'll keep him here. His family came down here and some of his niggas. Even Vonte came.

I don't know if they ever arrested Montana. I'm honestly scared as hell to leave this hospital alone because I think a random nigga will pop up and end my life. Ant and I are felons for one, plus with the shooting happening while the kids were home, I know for a fact they could've put my children in the system  for real. I didn't want to risk it so I had to say something. It's driving me crazy.

"I'll be back, Ant." I say, watching in annoyance as Polly kisses him on his neck. This nigga can hardly move and he damn near died and the only thing this slut can think about is getting some in the hospital.

"Bye, hoe." Polly says. I smile. "I mean, I'm not smashing my own brother while engaged but that's none of my business. Oops." I say, then walk out so I don't get caught in whatever drama they're about to have.

I get on the elevator, then ride down. I'm so paranoid. I reach in my purse and take my gun off safety just in case I need it. I walk over to my car that's parked closer to the front of the hospital, then unlock it. I get in, then look around to make sure everything is normal before pulling off.

-

I just got to my house. It's no longer a crime scene and I had the blood cleaned up. I've been on the internet searching for a house in California because I'm leaving Memphis and going back to California with Ant when he gets out to hospital so our kids can have both of us in their lives. I'm definitely not living with him though.

I go unlock the front door then walk in holding my gun. Everything seems normal, but with Montana being so smart and skilled when it comes to stuff like this, I'm not so sure.

I sigh in relief because nobody's in my house. I walk to my bedroom then open the door. My eyes widen. Montana's sitting on my bed smirking at me.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I ask as my heart starts beating fast. "Relax. You don't think I'm about to hurt you, do you?" he asks with a sarcastic smile.

"Get out." I demand. "Why? Don't you love me?" he asks, walking over to me. "Huh, Jessica?" he asks. "Move." I mumble, backing away from him as he towers over me staring in my eyes. "Chill. I ain't mad. I know you told the feds but I get it. They hit you with the CPS bullshit. I'd rather sit in a cell before I let the kids get put in the system. I swear I ain't mad. I understand and respect you for it." he says. "You're a great actor, Montana. I know you lying." I say, avoiding eye contact with him.

He gently grabs my chin and makes me look at him. "I'm serious, Jessica. I got all types of connections. That detective was actually on my payroll. I handled it." he says, shrugging his shoulders. I sigh. He pecks my lips. "You really don't get how much I love you, do you? Me and you were doing good until he got here the other day. You know we were working on making shit official and you know why I came over. You know what I came to do that night." he says, caressing my cheek.

"Okay, and I do love you, Montana. But you way too reckless. At first I could tolerate it, but you're out of control at this point. You can't kill my kids' father, are you crazy?" I ask. He steps back a little. "So, let me get this straight. A nigga empty two whole clips into my bullet proof vest thinking he killed me when he really busted the paint bags is okay? But because I retaliate, I'm out of control? Imagine if I didn't have that vest on. I'd be dead and you'd be mourning and you know it. Two wrongs that make a right, I understand that. But what I'm not about to do is apologize for reacting." he says.

"Why is shit always so complicating with you?" I yell in his face. "What you mean, Jessica? How is it complicated? I make everything easy!" he yells back. "No you do not! You always do something dumb and reckless and you always pick at Ant! You pick at him because you jealous of him!" I yell back. He nods his head, walking up on me until my back is against the wall. "You know what? Damn right I'm jealous of him. You know why? Because, I'm in fuckin' love with you! Jessica, I'm so in love with you it don't make no damn sense, I swear it don't! When I'm out there hustlin' and doin' whatever, I go home early just so I can chill and talk to you! Jessica, I love yo kids like my own and I wish they were mine. You make me consider getting out the streets and I swear that ain't ever crossed my mind until you came around but I'm willing to try to change just so I can have you and be around you all the time. I'm in love and you can say what you want but I know good and well you love the fuck out of me too. And I'm only jealous cause I know deep down that nigga gone always have your heart and that's what fuckin' pisses me off every time I see his face. Folks can judge me all they want, but I swear I got a heart for you and I love you." he goes off.

I'm so shocked. That's the deepest thing Montana has said since I met him. That's the first time I've ever heard him express how he truly feels instead of acting hard like I didn't mean nothing to him.

"Are you serious?" I ask. "See, here we go again. You think I'm lying when I'm not." he says. I shake my head. "I don't know what to say to you." I say. He ignores me, then crashes his lips into mine. My eyes widen as he kisses me with my body pinned to the wall. He goes down to my neck. I allow him to lay me down on the bed.

My mind goes completely blank as he kisses my stomach. My mind drifts away to the day I met Ant as he gives me head. I look down at Montana, on the verge on releasing  from how good it feels. I sit up a little, trying to run from the pleasure of his tongue. He grips my thighs, making me stay still.

He made me cum, now he's on top of me stroking in and out. I haven't had sex in a year and it's a good stress reliever. I dig my nails in his back, biting my bottom lip. He's going so hard on me but it's smooth and deep. It feels so good.

"I can't take it." I moan. He pulls out then rolls me over on my stomach. He lifts me up by my waist, then makes me arch my back. He holds my waist tight then enters me from behind. He grips a hand full of my hair, then gently pulls my head back. He kisses my neck, the side of my mouth, then my lips.

"How does it feel?" he whispers in my ear, then kisses it. He kisses down my back while slowly stroking, going as deep as he can. I can't even talk. It feels too good right now. I almost felt guilty for whatever reason, but the reality is, Ant's marrying Polly so it is what it is.

I let out a small scream as I cūm all over his dıck. I reach back trying to push him away because it feels too good but he ain't stopping. "Damn, Jessica." he mumbles, nutting all over my inner thigh. He puts himself back inside of me then leaves it in as it throbs, instantly going to sleep inside of me.

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