Still he smiles 🩵

Sitting in a silent room, static like ringing in her ears.
receiving the news, she didn't want to be here.

The day she never imagined now was knocking on the door. Death lingering after she refused to give up what it came for.

The one person who got her through most of her life.
He gave her love of music and laughter when her world was came crashing knowing everything would be alright.

She'd have to go the rest of her life without him losing the smallest shit and hearing him call her "eagle eye." In the middle of no where or anywhere begging her to sing Patsy Cline.

The man with the green thumb who could grow anything trying to teach her because she could grow not one damn thing.

Taking with him the many memories of teaching her how to fish, drive, camp and mow.

she'd have been mistaken for a boy if it weren't for the long hair and girl clothes.

Questions running insane through her mind... how'd they not catch this? He'd been to the doctor a bizillion times.

Now choking back tears she looked up..
The man was not moved and acting just as tough.

How could he still crack jokes and not be terrified? Does he not understand we can't handle not having him in our lives?

He said he saw God and that he held out his hand asked if he'd come home with him. He said he didn't take it because he wasn't ready.

I'm fucking broken.
By far the hardest