i found it while looking through photos we’d had printed.

the necklace.

the one i’d bought all those months ago at the market.

its green and purple shell gleamed back at me

as i dangled it in the light.

the one that’d reminded me of her

of her bright eyes.

i shut my eyes

trying to refocus my thoughts.

don’t cry now.

don’t cry.

i opened my eyes.

it hung there

teasing me

laughing at me.

i threw it against the bedroom wall

and the shell shattered into tiny pieces that shone

individually.

i sighed and lay back on my bed.

what now?

what happens now?

Midori was my reason

my purpose.

i knew it was wrong though.

i should’ve relied on myself first

before depending on someone else

and losing myself when they leave.

i can’t leave.

i’m stuck with myself forever.

i may as well trust myself once in a while.