i find myself dreading school less than usual.

i find myself hoping to see her on the train

and maybe we could talk again

maybe i wouldn't be alone again.

Midori.

Midori, please help me.

i stopped myself, what was i thinking?

i imagined papa working hard

coming home to an empty house because i -

i had found someone else.

the walk from the station to school cleared my worries the slightest

but i couldn't shake the feeling that when -

if,

i ever moved on

i'd end up leaving him behind.

[i have to study chemistry now. ugh whyyy]