Hii, 

I won't be updating till finals are over and my summer starts so keep leaving comments and votes and i promise next chapter will be worth the wait!!!

Enjoy<3

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

For a moment I'm actually surprised that she's giving in to me, but I waste no time in responding back. My hands move to clutch her waist as I pull her closer to my chest. Her hands slide from my neck to grip my hair, tugging it lightly when I bite down on her bottom lip. I groan in response and bend down slightly to pick her up, her legs circling my waist as she crosses her ankles at my lower back. My hands are cupping her ass as I blindly walk us to the bed in the room, my lips never leaving hers. I stop when my foot hits the end of it and only then do I pull away from her to  toss her on top of the covers. She bounces for a second, and I pause to take in how lovely she looks with her arms lying above her head while her hair is fanned out across the bed. Her stomach is flat and contracting as she tries to catch her breath and I have to suppress a groan at the sight of her.

I kneel down on the bed and crawl up to her, my hands on either side of her head to support my own weight. Her eyes flutter closed for a brief moment when I duck my head down to kiss her neck. Her hands find my hair again, pushing me closer to her collarbone when I dart my tongue out to lick her there. She lets out a soft gasp that makes my skin burn more than it already is, and I lift my head to catch the expression on her face. Her bottom lip is between her teeth and when she looks at me, her usual light brown eyes are practically blown out black. I stare at her, unable to recognize this side of her when she suddenly grabs the back of my neck and pulls me down to her. Her lips are relentless on my neck and I don't even stop myself this time from letting out this animalistic groan as my hands move to fist the sheets above her head. I might not recognize this girl lying beneath me, but I can't say I'm not fucking enjoying her.

She bites my neck in response and I'm quickly losing control, becoming more and more impatient the longer she has her tongue and lips on me. I pull away from her, moving my hands to hers that are still around the back of my neck. I intertwine my fingers with hers then bring them above her head, holding her wrists there with one of my hands. She looks at me with a shocked expression on her face and I pause momentarily to smirk at her before bending down to kiss her. Her mouth is pressed to mine roughly, her tongue trying to push its way inside of my mouth while I try to do the same with her, both of us fighting for dominance. My grip on her wrist tightens when she doesn't let up that I move to kiss her neck instead, in the spot that brings her to her knees. She wiggles underneath me when she realizes what I'm doing and I smile to myself in response when she groans. I keep sucking her skin there until her chest is rising and falling in short breaths, then make my way down to the swell of her breasts. I move my free hand to skim the side of her bikini top, my thumb brushing the swell of her side boob. She visibly shivers and I duck my head down to let my lips graze the middle of her chest, moving towards that soft swell. I run my fingers up and down her side until I grip the top of her bathing suit top, pulling the cup down and exposing her left boob. She gasps and tries to move but I instantly bend down and kiss her there, letting my tongue slide across her skin. She moans and my grip on her wrists loosens that she suddenly pulls them away from me, and grabs the back of my head. For a second I think she's going to shove me away when instead she pushes me closer to her chest, her legs opening and moving to circle my waist again. Her hand in my hair moves down the front of my chest, sliding to my lower stomach before dipping into the waist band of my trunks. I lose focus for a moment at the way her hand feels, my heart pounding inside my ears. I can't hear anything besides Kaydence's quick breaths and my own, so it takes me off guard when she abruptly pulls her hand out of my trunks and shoves me off of her. I sit back on my heels, my chest heaving as I blink at her in confusion when she stands from the bed, putting her top back in place and combing her fingers through her hair.

"What's wrong?" My voice is raspy and my head is so foggy that I don't even hear the bedroom door open until Kaydence's eyes widen.

"What are you guys doing?" I turn around and see Niall standing in the doorway, his hand resting on the door knob while his gaze wanders from me to Kaydence. Fucking Niall, always has to ruin shit.

"Nothing!" Kaydence's voice comes out high and unconvincing. "We were just talking." She smiles, but I know Niall isn't stupid. Her lips are cherry red, her cheeks are flushed, and a thin layer of sweat is covering her chest.

"Right..." Nicole pops out from behind Niall, and she leans into the room, glancing between Kaydence and I before narrowing her gaze on me.

"Everything okay?"

"Everything is great." Kaydence's voice cracks and Nicole's eyes move to Kaydence in confusion. Kay smiles uneasily, and then glances at me momentarily before dropping her eyes to the floor.

"Okay...well we're making s'mores, just wanted to see if you two wanted to join us?"

I refrain from rolling my eyes at Nicole and Niall. They ruined what was about to happen, to ask us if we wanted fucking s'mores. Out of all things, this was the reason.

"Sure." Kaydence answers almost immediately, walking around the bed to meet Nicole and Niall at the door. I stay kneeling on the bed, my back to them as I face the wall.

"You coming Harry?" Niall asks, and I nod my head as I glance over my shoulder.

"Yeah, I'll be down in a few minutes." Niall nods and I catch Kaydence's eyes on me and the way she blushes when she realizes what she did to me, and how my arm is covering the front of my trunks. She looks away and the three of them close the door behind them after they walk out. As soon as the door clicks I toss myself on my back, my hands moving to rub my face in agitation. So close, we were so close to getting somewhere. I'm pissed off that it got ruined, but deep down I know that's not what is really bothering me. Sex isn't the most important thing to me, sure I like it but it was never about that with Kaydence. I kept telling her it didn't have to mean anything, partly because I was convinced it wouldn't and also because I was drunk. But now that I'm sobering up, and after kissing her for so long and seeing just how my body reacts to her in a way it never has with anybody else, I know what the real problem is.

I could admit it to myself, but never would I ever admit it to anyone. Not Liam, not Niall, not Zayn, not Louis, not Nicole, and especially not Kaydence.

But I will to myself.

I'm still in love with her. I'm still in love with Kaydence.

K a y d e n c e

As soon as the door closes, Nicole practically drags me down the stairs while Niall stays walking a few steps behind us.

"What the fuck happened in there?" She growls out, her eyes wide and searching for any sign on my face.

"Nothing, we were talking." I lie and Nicole rolls her eyes.

"Bullshit, the both of you had sexual tension screaming at me and Niall to get the hell out."

I laugh nervously and Nicole's eyes narrow when she catches the way my cheeks turn a dark red. She smirks at me then, shaking her head. "I don't care if you guys did have sex you know, I'm not going to judge you."

I sigh, glancing over my shoulder to see Niall is oblivious to what we're talking about. "I know you won't, I just don't know what happened myself to be completely honest. I'll tell you when I figure it out, okay?"

Nicole groans, pinching me as she frowns. "Fine. Let's go back outside."

She leads the way to the back and I'm relieved she let it go for now, but when I walk out I feel like everyone knows something happened between Harry and I. They're all sitting around a campfire but they all turn to look at me when we near them. Liam and Zayn have this knowing look on their faces while Louis has a wide teasing smile. I plop down in the chair next to him, ignoring him when I hear him chuckle beside me as I turn to give him a look of annoyance.

"What?" I ask and Louis stares at me before laughing again, shaking his head.

"Oh, nothing." He smiles and I roll my eyes at him.

"Okay then."

"What were you and Harry doing?" He asks, and my body goes rigid.

"Talking." I don't even turn to look at Louis, knowing that if I do he'll be able to tell right off the bat I'm lying out of my ass.

"Sure you were."

I ignore him for the rest of the time being while he turns to engage conversation with everyone else. They offer me a marshmallow but I decline, content with watching them instead. I'm not hungry and I know if I eat anything right now I will probably just throw it up due to the nerves I have.

Once Nicole starts on her second marshmallow the sound of the sliding door echoes across the yard and I glance over my shoulder to see Harry walking towards us. When he nears I notice he threw on a black hoodie, and tied his hair into a bun. He moves around the fire to sit at an empty chair that happens to be across from me, slinking down the seat and crossing his arms over his chest while he stares at the fire. Nicole offers him a marshmallow and he grabs one, sticking it in his mouth without bothering to melt it. Nicole stares at him then pesters him about how he was supposed to make s'mores with it but he only waves her off. I look down at my lap, shivering when a breeze hits and move to curl my feet up under me, crossing my arms over my chest. I should have changed out of this suit or brought a blanket down with me.

"Cold?" I glance up to see Harry staring at me from across the fire and I nod once. Everyone is watching as Harry stands from his chair, pulling his sweatshirt over his head, his stomach muscles contracting as he does. My eyes widen when I realize what he's doing and he steps around the fire, holding his sweater out to me. I gape at him in shock and he sighs in annoyance when I don't move to take the sweater. He takes a few more steps towards me until he's towering over me, placing the sweater in my lap.

"It's just a sweatshirt." He says, his eyebrow arching before he turns back around to sit in his chair again.

I'm still staring at him when he sits down, his eyes avoiding mine and I can feel everyone glancing between the two of us. I can practically hear them wondering what the hell is going on and before they can start asking questions I take the sweater, pulling it over my head. It falls mid-thigh on me and I pull the sleeves over my hands, hugging myself when the warmth from his body heat still envelopes the inside of the sweater. It smells like him, mint mixed with vanilla and his faint cologne that I have to restrain myself from grabbing the color and sniffing it.

"Thanks." I mutter loud enough for him to hear, and his eyes flicker up to take in me wearing his clothing. He swallows, then nods once before looking away again and I feel Louis' staring.

Everyone starts talking again, Harry even commenting on some parts of the conversation while I stay quiet the whole time. I'm too busy thinking about what happened in the bedroom, how Harry felt above me, how good he made me feel, and how bad I wanted him to continue. That thought scares me and I'm humiliated that I let it escalate that far, neither one of us was thinking clearly and as much as we didn't want to think about the consequences, there are always consequences with us. We're too complicated to be making irrational and stupid decisions like that and Harry has an important career he needs to focus on. One slip between the two of us could cause so much damage and to think I was that close to fucking everything up, makes me disappointed in myself. I left him for a reason, I can't let the way I'm attracted to Harry make me forget that.

"Kay, you want another drink?" Nicole asks, bringing me out of my thoughts.

I glance at her, then at everyone else before shaking my head and standing. "No, actually I think I'm going to head home."

"What? Why?" Nicole asks, her eyes widening while she frowns.

"I'm just really tired and I need to go pack for tomorrow."

"We aren't leaving till Saturday remember?" Niall points out and I shake my head.

"I'm sorry guys, but I need to go tomorrow. You all can leave Saturday if you want but I need to leave tomorrow."

"You can't just go by yourself." Harry says and my eyes dart over to meet his. I don't know if it's just my imagination but he looks disappointed and... worried?

"I'll be fine." I mutter, and then turn to look at Louis. "I'm going to wash El's suit when I get home and I'll give it back to you the next time I see you."

"Okay..." Louis look's around the group and right when I'm about to turn around Nicole stops me.

"Wait how are you getting home you can't drive, you're drunk. Plus we don't have a car."

"I'm pretty sober now actually and I'll just call an uber."

"No," I turn to see Harry standing. "I'll take you home."

"You've been drinking." I point out and he shakes his head.

"I'm completely sober now." He looks me in the eye and I get the feeling he's hinting that what we did sobered him up.

"It's okay, I can just get an uber to come get me."

"Kaydence," Harry's tone is stern and my back straightens. "I will drive you."

I don't answer him and he turns to look at everyone else. "We're going to leave tomorrow to Colorado with Kaydence, I will take the first shift in driving since you're all going to be too tired to drive first thing anyways if you get wasted. Nicole, you can either come with us or stay and meet us when the rest of the lads come. If you do, pack your shit fast in the morning. The rest of you, pack your shit before you get anymore drunk. Is that okay with everyone?"

I'm taken aback by the authority in Harry's voice and watch as the rest of the boys agree to do what he says. Nicole turns to look at me when Harry asks if she's coming or staying, and her mouth twitches up in a smirk before she says she's staying.

"Alright, I'm taking the escalade. Is that alright?"

"Yeah," Liam nods. "We've got like two other ones, go for it."

Harry says goodbye to his friends and I catch Louis' wink he throws at me before I follow Harry to walk inside. I tell him I need to go get my clothes before rushing upstairs into Louis' bedroom, gathering my clothes in a ball then heading back downstairs. Harry's waiting at the door when I reach the bottom step and he momentarily gapes at my legs, making a chill run up my spine. He opens the door for me when I reach him and I walk outside to the escalade, moving to the passenger door when suddenly Harry's right behind me and opening the door for me.

I freeze at the gesture but Harry nudges me to get in and I don't even bother covering my ass as I climb up on the step to get in, just wanting to hurry up and get home. He closes the door for me and I feel my insides turning, I'm nervous and I don't know what's going to happen on this drive home or what will go on once we actually get there.

The driver's side door opens and Harry slides in, turning the key in the ignition and pulling the seat belt across his chest before sighing and glancing at me. "Ready?"

No, I wasn't ready. Not ready at all. But I nod anyways, as he turns the car around the big gravel driveway and heads down the long steep road.