Hey guys! This chapter is short but i wanted to at least leave something. I will update again asap!

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The four boys sitting on the couch begin to talk amongst themselves,  I swiftly turn on my heel and begin to walk straight to my room. I hear the scrape of the wooden computer chair against the floor, boots following right behind me but I don't stop to see what he wants, nor do I care. Nicole calls out my name but I choose to ignore her and round the corner of the living room. When I reach my bedroom door, I walk in quickly and am about to slam the door closed when Harry halts it by putting his foot  in between the door and door frame. I glare up at him but he doesn't give me a chance to say anything before he's shoving his way inside my room, his hands pushing on the door and shutting it closed behind him once he's inside.

"What do you think you're doing?" My voice is loud and I'm sure everyone can hear me outside, but I don't care. I'm fuming.

"Just hear me out, okay?" Harry says, he sounds like he's out of breath and he leans back against the door.

"No." I grab the door knob and pull the door open but Harry leans further back, shoving it closed again with his weight and moving to place his hand over mine. A shiver runs up my arm from his touch and I quickly drop my hand before he can notice.

"Get out of my room." I say through clenched teeth but Harry's already shaking his head. He takes a step towards me and I take one back, suddenly feeling like the room is too small for the both of us. What is he doing?

"I'm sorry about what I said." His eyes are focused only on me while his hands  are lifted as if he's surrendering. "I didn't mean it. I swear."

I'm literally going to throw up everywhere, either by Harry's shit lies or from being hungover. I don't know. "Harry, get out."

"Kaydence."  He sounds exasperated and he lifts his hand to tug his hair in agitation. I have the sudden urge to laugh at his distress when he's the one who insulted me in front of his friends and practically invited them to go find my birth mother.

"Will you just listen to me?" He asks as he drops his hand to his side.

"I'm pretty sure I don't need to hear anything else you have to say."

"I didn't mean that." He moves to take another step but I glare at him and it seems to stop him from moving anymore.

I laugh. "It really doesn't matter to me. Now get out."

"I just said it to get them off my back, they were like attacking me with questions about you and i-" He stops, his mouth hanging open before he presses his lips together. He sighs in exasperation and licks his bottom lip, before tucking it between his teeth and letting it go. "It was just too much and I just said that to get them to stop, I wouldn't fuck you but I- fuck, okay no sorry, I don't mean that either don't get me wrong I mean I already have so- fuck no I'm sorry just- dammit, Kaydence none of this is coming out right." He's rambling and I think this is the first time in a very long time I've seen him this vulnerable. I'm staring at him in shock, my hands in fists against my sides while his are constantly running through his hair and rubbing against his face. He keeps avoiding eye contact with me and I'm glad, because I know if he looks me in the eye while he's in this weird state all my anger I have for him might dissolve and I don't want that. What I want is to stay mad at him so I have a reason not to care about him as much as I do.

As if he can read my mind, his eyes flicker over to meet mine and I feel the pit of my stomach turn when he takes a deep breath and takes an unsure step towards me. I don't move and he hesitates before he lifts both hands and places them on my shoulders. His hands are warm, too warm against my skin and I'm very aware of his thumb resting against my collarbone. I keep my gaze locked on the wall behind him and he lowers his head to look me in the eye.

"I am truly sorry for what I said." He pauses. "I know you and I haven't quite...gotten along since I've arrived here but that was the worst thing I could have ever said about you. " My heart is hammering against my chest and my palms are sweating as his thumb moves slightly against my skin. "You were not supposed to hear that, not that it makes it okay to say but still. I am sorry and I will regret saying that for the rest of my life."

His eyes are sincere and I know he means his apology but it doesn't make the way I feel go away. I'm still angry and his words keep replaying in my head, that I'm not sure I could ever really forget it. Vile forms at the back of my throat and I shrug his grip on my shoulders off. His hands fall to his sides and he straightens, his eyes watching me carefully as I turn my back to him.

"Kaydence..." He says quietly behind me but I shake my head.

"I get you're sorry, and thank you for the apology, but I'd like to be alone right now." I begin to pick up the blanket on my bed to keep my shaking hands occupied.

"But I-,"

"Harry." I interrupt him, and glance over my shoulder to see his mouth pressed in a hard line. "I'm fine. I just want to be alone. I need to pack and get ready for tomorrow. Okay? I'm fine."

I turn my back to him again and reach for my pillow, fluffing it. Harry's quiet behind me and the only indication I have that he's still there is the loud sigh he releases.

"Alright well if you need me...I'll be outside." He says slowly.

"Okay." He stands there a moment longer before I hear the scrape of his boots against the hardwood floor as he turns to leave. The door opens and closes, and I let out a puff of air I didn't realize I was holding. The pressure in the room has seem to have gone down and I let myself fall face forward on my bed, clutching the pillow and bringing it to my face as I scream as loud as I can into it.

H a r r y

I close Kaydence's door behind me, pausing for a moment as I contemplate going back inside and begging her to forgive me. I feel like such an ass for what I said and I know by the look on Kaydence's face I hurt her. I hadn't intended to do so and I can't shake the feeling I get when I replay the look she had on her face when she walked into the room.

I shove the thoughts running through my head away and walk back down the hallway and into the family room. All the lads are still sitting on the couch while Nicole is sitting on the floor as she converses with Niall. I watch them all for a moment before walking back over to the chair I had been sitting at before.

"Is Kaydence alright?" Liam asks and everyone in the room turns their gaze over to me.

"I think so." I say but I know I give away that I'm unsure of the answer myself.

"She will be." Niall says and I catch the way Nicole glances up at him in an admirable way.

"Yeah, I guess." The lads all nod and I notice how before I walked in they all seemed at ease with one another but now that I'm back, there's tension once again.

"So," Nicole pipes while clapping her hands once. "We should do something fun."

"What do you presume?" Zayn asks and Nicole glances at me before shrugging.

She leans her head back against the cushion of the couch next to Niall. "I don't know, I was just throwing it out there. You guys have any ideas?"

We're all quiet in thought and then Louis yells "Oh!" We all turn our heads to look at him and he leans forward, his elbows resting on his knees. "We should have a barbecue."

"A barbecue?" Liam asks and Louis nods, glancing at us all.

"Yeah, why not? It's warm enough." He stands and walks to the back sliding door, looking out the window. "You have a big enough porch, we could do it here."

"There's one problem Louis, we don't have a barbecue." Nicole laughs and so do the other lads while Louis frowns and rolls his eyes. I smirk but can't find it in me to laugh when I know that Kaydence is in her room hurt.

"Well what about our villa? We got barbecues and a big enough balcony." Niall suggests and they all nod and agree. I don't say anything as they begin to plan the day out and my eyes keep wandering off towards Kaydence's bedroom that I don't hear them call my name until it's repeated.

"Huh?" I ask and they each wait for me to respond and I turn my gaze over to Nicole, raising my eyebrow in question. "What?"

"We asked if that was okay, to go to the villa?"

"Oh," I pause and turn to look towards Kaydence's bedroom. "Who's going to go?"

"Us," Nicole gestures around the room. "You."

"Oh."

"And Kaydence."

My eyes dart  over to Nicole and I see a smirk playing on her lips. I roll my eyes at her and turn away, feeling my cheeks burn. She laughs and the lads seem oblivious to why she is and I look back over to her when I hear her stand up from the floor.

"That is if I can get her to join us. I'm going to go talk to her."