Trigger Warning: Ummmm.....yeah there's mentions of suicide in this. Please be alarmed that this chapter is kinda sensitive...

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Tweek

I ran. I didn't know where I was running too, but I didn't care. I needed to run anywhere than here. I needed to get away from him.

Warm tears were non-stop rolling down my cheeks as I ran. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get them to stop. I was too hurt. Too broken. I couldn't stop crying.

After aimlessly running nowhere, I decided to head towards Stark's Pond. Not many people were there at night so I could at least be alone. Starks Pond had been a perfect place to go whenever you were feeling down. It was always so relaxing and beautiful. Especially at night. But I didn't care about that, I just needed to get away.

I stopped running as I neared a bridge that looking down into the pond. I sat down in a bench and cried and hugged my knees as I thought about the things that Craig had said to me.

"How can someone be so stupid!?"

"I don't need some sappy speech about your own feelings! This is about me!"

"Just get the fuck out of my life!"

His words hit me hard, resulting in even more tears.

He hates me! I thought. He hates me! He hates me! He hates me!

My best friend hates me and there was nothing I could do about it. A normal person wouldn't be this upset, but I did. I didn't know why. Why was this such a big deal!? I shouldn't be crying over someone so awful! What am I doing!?

No matter how much I tried, I couldn't get myself to calm down! I couldn't breath. I couldn't fucking breath! God, I can't take this anymore! I want out! I want out!

After a few attempts at trying to control my breathing, it worked and I had calmed down. At least a little bit. Tears still fell from my face and I still was hurt. No way that would go away but at least I could breath.

"No matter where I go...people hate me." I recalled the memory in my head. I had been right. No matter where the hell I go, people hate me and toss me away like I'm nothing! People would be better if I was gone! No, cross that out. No one would even notice if I was gone! No one would care! So what's the point? What the hell is the point anymore!?

I stood up from off the bench and walked up to the railing of the bridge. I looked down into the water which had been around thirty feet below. If I fell, I was sure to crash into the water and freeze to death. It would work. Should I do this? No! This was stupid! But...how can I go on when the one person I truly love hates my guts and wants me out of their life? There, I said it. I've loved Craig for a while and I'm just admitting it now! I love his smile! I love his laugh! I love every goddamn thing about him but he hates every goddamn thing about me!

He hates you. I told myself. He hates you so much! You're annoying! You're a burden to everyone!

I was a burden. Whenever I'm anxious, everyone is driven away from me. Whenever I twitch or spaz, people call me a freak! I can't believe I never noticed how much of a bother I was to everyone until now.

I hate myself. I can't do this anymore.

I wiped away some of my tears as I stood up on the railing, looking down into the water which reflected the starry night sky.

Yeah...this was the right decision. I don't think I can live with myself anymore, knowing now what a burden I am.

What do I do? Should I count? I should count.

Five...

I tried to recall every good moment in my life that had been completely washed away from sadness.

Four...

I started having second thoughts...was this really a good decision? Yeah, it is. My life is a joke and I don't deserve it.

Three...

I started thinking about Craig and how he would never know about how I truly felt. I thought about how he would never love me the way I love him, even if I had told him.

Two...

I took another step higher on the railing, now leaning over the water. I watched as my warm tears fell down into the icy water, causing a slight splash.

One

This was it. I closed my eyes, ready to end it all but something had stopped me. And that something was a loud yet distant voice.

"TWEEK!"

I was thrown off guard and nearly had a heart attack as I looked over at whoever had yelled that. It had been Craig who looked more hurt than I had ever seen him.

Before I had a chance to say something, anything, he pulled me down from the railing and embraced me in a tight, protective hug. I was so confused, I didn't know what to say or do! I was so lost!

"Tweek! Oh my god, what the hell were you thinking!?"

He had been crying.

I was so confused! Literally, like, three hours ago, he said he hated me! He said he wanted me out of his life! Was this a joke?

"C-Craig..." I said quietly, not really knowing what else to say. He pulled away from the embrace but still kept close. He put his hands on my cheeks and looked into my eyes. He was practically sobbing, as tears streamed down his face.

"Were you about to kill yourself!? Are you insane!?" There was a pause. I didn't know what to say, I was at a complete loss of words! "Please...never ever do that again!" He pulled me back into a hug and cried into my shoulder.

I couldn't believe it. He actually cared about me. But why? When did he have a change of heart!?

I had placed my arms around him and hugged back, crying into his chest. I really needed this.

We had stood like that for few minutes until we had calmed down enough to talk again.

"Tweek, I'm so sorry." He said quietly. "I should have never said those things! I should have never made you feel this way! I'm so sorry."

We briefly pulled away just to look at each other.

"A-And I'm sorry for being clingy..." I said as I looked down at the ground.

He put a hand on my chin, making me look up at him. "No, don't apologize for that. I was too hard on you. I was just confused and irritated with myself and took it out on you. I'm so sorry."

"It's okay...um, let's just get back home."

The two of us walked home together. Craig had held my hand the whole time. I figured he had an urge to keep me protected but I didn't mind. All I cared about was that he actually did care about me again.

When we got to my house, we stopped at the doorstep just to talk for a minute. My parents were probably inside anyway.

"Hey, Tweek?" Craig had asked me.

"Yeah?"

Craig looked down at the ground. "Please never do that again...I care about you too much, Tweek." I could tell he was on the verge of tears again. I had never seen him so emotional before, it was kind of scary. "I don't think I could've lived without you if you killed yourself." And he had started crying again, this time into his hands. It hurt to see him so broken up over this.

"C-Craig, it's okay now." I removed his hands from his face and attempted to wipe his tears away. "Everything is fine now, okay? I'm not gone, I'm right here beside you. It'll all be okay."

He had grabbed one of my hands which had been on his face and held it comfortingly. "You could have died because of me...I've never felt so much regret before in my life. I'm so sorry."

I tried desperately to make Craig feel better, but I really had no idea how. But I did try.

"Craig, it's okay. That's in the past now." I said quietly. Our faces were close now. Closer than usual. When I noticed this, I began to grow red. Craig opened his eyes and noticed it too. His eyes looked like they had so much regret in them. I almost felt bad! But I continued to say things to make him feel better, "Everything will be alright, Craig. I promise, okay? I forgive you."

The two of us gazed into each other's eyes as silence hung over us. The silence wasn't awkward, however. It felt right. Just right... We stood there in complete silence, grasping onto each other's hands.

"Tweek?" Craig asked, his tears coming to a stop.

"Yeah, Craig?"

Craig paused and looked away as his cheeks turned pink, then looked back at me. "Can I kiss you?"

For some reason, I didn't tense up or get anxious. Instead I nodded slightly and spoke a quiet, "Yeah."

Craig used his free hand to wrap it around my waist, pulling me closer. I placed my hand on his shoulder as our faces were drawn closer and our lips connected. There was no lust, no greed. Nor was their sadness or anxiety. It was just a simple kiss filled with love and passion, nothing more. And you know what? I thought it was perfect.

YEET

Yeah so that happened. Comment and crap to tell me what you thought of this! See? Everything does get better! :D

Also, should I continue this scene in the next chapter or move on? You tell me!