{Melanie}

In a way, I can't believe I said yes to him.

But somehow I can't keep a smile off of my face as I walk away.

"Hey Mel" someone says as I turn around.

Savannah. Savannah Rivers.

Savanna used to be my best friend and then something changed when we came to highschool. She got remarkably thin, got the fakest tan I've seen in my life, and stopped acting like I existed. It really hurt me.

The worst part about it was she made fun of me just to make other people except her.

"What do you want Savannah?" I sigh.

"Oh I just wanted to welcome you back to McKinley High" she smirked. "And to tell you to back off"

"Back off? What do you mean?" I shake my head.

"Stay away from Shawn. He's mine." She paused, getting really close to my face. "It's not like he wants a fat whore like you"

I gulp. Trying to keep myself from breaking down.

She knew that my whole life I've been dealing with weight issues. I always wanted to be skinny, I wanted to be a size 2 but I'm cut short by being a size 8. I super self conscious and she knows that.

I've always thought I wasn't good enough.

"I'm not fat" I grit my teeth, looking away from her.

"Keep telling yourself that, but even I can spot you muffin top" she smirks. "See you at lunch! If you actually eat" she laughs walking away as I try to compose myself from breaking.

I run to the girls bathroom and look at myself in the mirror.

Fat whore. Fat whore. Fat whore.

That's all that pops into my head. Why can't I be normal?

I lift up my shirt and look at myself from the side. She's right. She's always right.

When it came time to go to lunch I went to the lunch line and the special today was a turkey dinner which consisted of turkey, mashed potatoes, carrots, gravy and a dinner roll. Carbs. Carbs. Carbs.

I thanked the lunch ladies and sat at an empty table outside. I sighed and picked at my carrots.

"Sorry this table is reserved" Savannah says placing her tray with salad down. Her friends following suit.

"For who?" I question.

"For the populars." She smirks. "You know I found you the perfect spot to sit at! You can go sit at that tree."

"Why?"

"Because pigs like mud right? Go sit in the mud like a little pig" she laughs as I get up and throw my food away in the trash.

I want to say something back to her but I don't think I could ever be mean to her. I know it's stupid but, I don't want to hurt her.

So here I sit in the girls bathroom crying my eyes out. Not how I expected to spend my first day.

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-ily xx