The more I desperately try to be good like Jesus, the more I realize how incapable I am, and how I desperately need Him and His goodness.

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I can't be a good person. I've tried and tried and tried. I need Jesus to be good in me. Without Him I am nothing. Mark 10:18.. There is none good but one, that is, God (KJV).
I try to be a good friend, a good role model, a good daughter, a good person. I fail miserably. Its only when I have Jesus that I am good, but then again, its just Him. And then just when I think Im doing well I realize how prideful I am in taking all of His credit.
Thank you, Jesus, for humbling me time after time after time.
Please take over me so that only you shine. There's no beauty or goodness outside of you.